Her words felt like a slap to the side of my head. She was right. I hadn’t thought of it that way. The indecision and fear I’d been fighting all day went up a notch.
She laced her fingers with mine and squeezed my hand. “I’ll help any way I can. But are you ready for all those possibilities?”
I appreciated her asking, but we both knew I wasn’t.
SEVEN
We spent the night at my place, and I was awake at four in the morning, staring at the ceiling, knowing I was going to the airport.
I didn’t pack a bag. I wasn’t planning on staying longer than the afternoon.
I woke Liz after I showered and told her I’d call her later on. She hugged me, maybe a moment or two longer than usual, then kissed me goodbye without saying a word.
The drive to Lindbergh took twenty minutes on the empty freeway, and I was ticketed and through security by seven thirty. I didn’t feel like talking with Darcy until I had to, so I bought a paper and sat down with it in the coffee shop to have some breakfast.
Neither the paper nor the greasy eggs were able to keep my mind off what I was venturing into. I wasn’t sure I’d be able to balance what Darcy wanted me to find out and what I needed to know for myself. I didn’t think that Simington would have given her my information just so he could tell me the entire truth about his crime. I had a feeling it had more to do with making amends before his death.
I watched people walk to their gates and questions kept popping into my head. Did I really look like his son? How would he introduce himself? What was it like inside San Quentin? Would he have excuses for his actions or would he take pride in what he’d done?
I wasn’t sure I wanted answers to any of those questions, but I knew I was getting on that plane.
The first boarding call went out over the loudspeaker, and my stomach tightened.
At eight fifteen, I figured I couldn’t postpone the inevitable as they made the last call for passengers to San Francisco.
I walked through the Jetway, my stomach already churning. I was carrying self-doubt and second guesses like pennies in my pocket.
The cabin was three-quarters full. Business travelers in suits. Some college-aged kids. A mother with a small child strapped to her body in the first row. She smiled at me as I went by, and I returned her smile.
My ticket said 10C.
I worked my way up the aisle and reached row ten. D, E, and F were occupied by two teenagers and a guy reading the Wall Street Journal. A guy reading the New York Times was in A, next to the window.
B was empty.
Darcy Gill was nowhere to be found.
I slid into my seat and glanced around. I didn’t see her. I wondered if she’d taken a flight the previous night, our conversation on the beach convincing her I wouldn’t be joining her. Or maybe she was running late.
The doors to the plane closed, we pushed back from the gate, and the attendants began their run-through of the safety procedures.
Darcy didn’t strike me as someone who ever ran late.
I was annoyed that I’d gotten up in the dark and boarded a plane at her request and Darcy was a no-show. I wondered momentarily if she was playing some game.
But just as she didn’t strike me as someone who showed up tardy, I didn’t think Darcy was a game player either.
I glanced at the empty seat next to me.
As the flight attendants took their seats and the plane taxied down the runway for takeoff, the anxious burning that had taken up residence in my gut since Darcy had accosted me in the water gained new life.
EIGHT
The flight was bumpy and rough as the plane navigated the thick marine layer along the coast, and I felt like a ping-pong ball by the time we landed.
I wasn’t sure what I was supposed to do. Darcy was supposed to be my tour guide.
I dialed information on my cell and asked for a number for Darcy Gill. Information had a business number for her at a law firm called Gill and Gill. When I was connected, I heard a recording giving some perfunctory information. One of those pieces of information was Gill and Gill’s address.
I walked outside and jumped in a taxi. I gave the driver the address, and we moved away from the congestion of the airport.
San Francisco had never been my favorite place. Cold, rainy, and carrying an inferiority complex that it constantly denied, the city never felt like it belonged in California. The views were spectacular across the bays and the Golden Gate was pretty enough, but the place never felt comfortable.
A missing Darcy and a meeting with Russell Simington had taken that uncomfortability to new heights.
The taxi driver, a small Asian man who didn’t speak a word to me, navigated the streets of the city with the care of a wounded bull. The plane ride was nothing compared to the lightning-quick lane changes, rocket-like acceleration, and indifference toward red lights.
The taxi pulled up to a three-story building that appeared to be waiting for a breeze to knock it over. The drywall on the outside was chipped away, a window on the top floor was boarded up, and the wooden door looked about two hundred years old. A small sign next to the door read “Gill and Gill.” Law firm, crack house. Same difference.
I paid the silent man his money and stepped out into the wet, heavy morning air. The taxi exploded away from the curb, its tires screeching on the damp pavement.
I pushed open the old wooden door. I was in a short, low-ceilinged hallway book-ended by another door at the opposite end. A frosted glass pane in the middle of the door had “Law Offices” stenciled on it.
I opened that door into a room the size of a Geo Metro. A young woman looked up at me from behind a cluttered desk. Her hair was dyed jet black, with a purple streak right through the center. Each ear held a multitude of earrings. Her eyes were heavily lined with eyeliner and mascara, and her lipstick was nearly as dark. Her pale skin seemed to glow against the hair and makeup.
“Can I help you?” she asked, sounding like she didn’t want to.
“I’m looking for Darcy Gill.”
“She’s not in,” she said.
“Know where I can find her?”
“No. I wish I did,” she said, annoyed.
“Is she still in San Diego?” I asked.
Surprise and curiosity appeared on her face. “I don’t know. Who are you?”
“Noah Braddock. She came to see me yesterday.”
She stood up. She wore a long-sleeved black sweater and black jeans that looked too big for her skinny frame. She looked me over like she was seeing me for the first time.
“She’s not with you?” she said, her voice now sounding like she cared.
“She was supposed to meet me on the plane. I was on it. She wasn’t.”
She stared hard at me for a moment, her eyes cold and unfriendly.
“Shit,” she said.
“Who are you?” I asked.
“Miranda,” she said, her eyes on her desk now, thinking. “I’m her paralegal.”
“Who’s the other Gill in the firm?”
“There isn’t one. Darcy thought it sounded better than just her name.”
“Ah.”
“When did you last talk to her?” I recounted our conversation on the beach. “And she was gonna meet you at the airport, right?” “She said she’d be on the plane. I told her I wasn’t sure what I was doing.”
Miranda nodded. “Yeah. I talked to her right after that. She said you were kind of a dick.”
“I’ll be sure to ask her about that. So she didn’t come back last night?”
“If she did, I haven’t talked to her,” she said. “But she had reservations on the morning flight. I left a couple of messages on her cell, but she never called back.”
It didn’t feel right. Darcy had come down to San Diego for one reason—getting me to San Francisco. It made no sense that she would miss the flight. If anything, I had half expected her to show up at my house and escort me to the airport.