Right up until the last minute, Tim and Jeff were still trying to stay on. They offered to patrol around the grounds all night, if not to stop trouble, to at least watch for it. The idea of these two kids walking the property in the dark made Marty shudder, because the feeling that something could happen was growing stronger by the minute.
It was the weather, he thought, when he finally put the kids in their beater cars and shooed them out of the drive, locking the gate behind them. You couldn’t see the big clouds yet – just a filmy white haze that lay over the sun like a cataract – but you could feel them coming deep in your chest, like when they put that heavy lead apron on you before X rays at the dentist’s office. The air was thick and hard to breathe, and leaves hung limply on every tree and bush.
Marty looked around the parking lot one last time – saw only his Malibu, Jack’s Mercedes, and Becker’s patrol car – and then, satisfied, walked around the big greenhouse to the planting beds in the back.
Lily Gilbert had always hated the straight lines that men were forever drawing all over the world. Lines were bossy, unforgiving things; harbingers of tyranny. Rows of crops, rows of buildings, and eventually, rows of people standing mute and still and fearful.
The front of the nursery had that kind of rigid order – the main greenhouse aligned with the street, the hedge aligned with the sidewalk, white lines in the parking lot telling the cars where to go. She had to put up with them in the front of the greenhouse, because that’s the way it was when they bought the place. But in the back, where the previous owners had lined up pots and plants like subjugated servants, Lily had destroyed the order of straight lines and created happy chaos.
Pea gravel walkways meandered like sleepy drunks through stands of potted trees and flowering shrubs, arcing around the perennial beds that provided cutting stock – the ‘mother beds,’ Morey had called them, where the seeds from a single flower produced hundreds of seedlings they would sell the following spring. And in high summer, little forests of ornamental grasses crowded some of the walkways, towering over giggling children who ducked beneath bobbing, seed-heavy heads as they followed the twisting paths through the lovely disordered maze of nature Lily’s hatred of lines had created.
She waited for Martin on a bench circled by potted lilacs. She’d forced blooms on a few of the shrubs so customers could see the color, but most were still flowerless, rather ordinary-looking plants with unremarkable leaves. The peasant plants, she called them, secretly pleased when for two short weeks every spring, the lowliest of these dressed themselves like gaudy monarchs.
Martin moved lightly for such a big man, but the nursery was so quiet Lily could hear his shoes crunching on the pea gravel long before she felt his weight on the bench next to her.
‘I’m going to try to get Jack to stay in a hotel for a few days,’ Marty said.
‘Good. I could use a vacation. So could you. Get a suite with a kitchen.’
‘I’d just as soon you kept your distance from Jack until this is over, Lily.’
She turned to look at him. Most of the time Lily was moving so fast it was impossible to think of her as an old person. But the strain of this week was wearing on her, and he could see the age in her face, wiping away the illusion of strength. It was the first time he’d ever thought of her as a frail mortal, just like the rest of them. ‘Jack goes to a hotel, I go to a hotel.’
Marty gave her a little smile. ‘So you’re a mother again.’
‘You have kids, even a schlock, you’re always a mother, no matter what. This is not a voluntary thing.’
Marty thought about Lily and Jack locked in a hotel room, a cop at the door. He liked the picture.
‘The only bad part about the hotel is that this has been good for you, Martin, being here. You want to know how I know this?’
‘No.’
‘I know this because you’re drinking like a normal person again. A little tipple at night, maybe, that’s all.’
‘Can’t think and drink.’
‘So what are you thinking about?’
‘I want to find out who killed Morey.’ He turned and looked at her hard. ‘Don’t you?’
She tightened her mouth, so spare of flesh now that it almost disappeared.
‘You know, it’s funny, Lily. Most of the time when someone gets killed, the family’s all over the cops, calling, coming down to the station, how’s the investigation going, do they have a suspect…’
‘Like you and Morey did, when Hannah was killed,’ she said with an odd chill in her tone.
Marty closed his eyes for a second. ‘You never came with us. You never asked. It was like Morey and I were all alone in that. And now you’re doing the same thing again. Morey’s been dead for three days, and not once have you shown the slightest interest in who might have killed him. I just don’t get it.’
Lily filled her lungs with the sodden air and looked at the lilacs, not at him. ‘Let me tell you something, Martin. For me, if it’s cancer or war or a man with a gun or a knife, dead is dead. Dead is the end. It’s been seven months since the man who murdered Hannah was killed. Now you tell me, is your life so much better, now that he’s in the ground? Because it’s not better for me. This person, he was a nothing. Bury ten thousand more just like him and still’ – she tapped her chest – ‘this is empty.’
Marty braced his elbows on his knees and dropped his head into his hands. ‘I’m still glad he’s dead,’ he whispered.
Lily shook her head. ‘You men. You always want to know who did this or that terrible thing, so someone can find them and make them pay. Always it’s been like this for men, the eye for the eye, as if it would make any difference.’
Jack was well on his way to a fine toot by the time Marty and Lily got up to the house, the weight of the weather and their conversation weighing them down, slowing their steps.
He was sitting at the kitchen table, a bottle of Glenlivet in one hand, a glass in the other, dispensing unwanted legal advice to Officer Becker. The young cop was standing off to one side, watching his charge, the windows, the doorway. Marty figured he’d had them made before he and Lily ever got anywhere near the house.
‘Marty, ole’ buddy, glad you’re here. Tony here’s a hell of a nice guy, but he’s a little stiff, you know? And he’s making me nervous, hopping around peeking out windows and all that.’
‘That’s his job, Jack. Saving your sorry life.’
Jack giggled. ‘A little too late for that.’
‘We’re all going to a hotel. Right after supper.’
Jack raised his glass. ‘Whatever you say, Marty. In the meantime, grab yourself a glass, I’ll make your world a better place.’
And it was a little too late for that, too, Marty thought, watching Lily shoot a sharp glance in Jack’s direction that sent him slinking away into the living room, Becker close behind.
They ate a myriad of cold salads and meats contributed by thoughtful friends and neighbors. ‘Funeral food,’ Lily called it, making a plate to force on Officer Becker while Marty made one for Jack he probably wouldn’t eat.
After supper Marty went upstairs, showered, dressed, and started packing a few clothes in his duffel. In the contained environment of a hotel with an officer posted at the door, Jack and Lily would be perfectly safe. There was no logical reason for him to go with them – except for this sudden sense that that was where he belonged. This was his family, dysfunctional though it was. It was all he had; all he’d ever had, really.
When he went to the closet to get his favorite shirt – a short-sleeved white linen Hannah had gotten him for his birthday last year – it slipped from the hanger and fell on the floor. When he bent to retrieve it he saw an old red metal tackle box tucked into the back corner.