"I think you should have warned us about Le e when he joined the Church."
"When one is alone and at wit's end," she said quietly, "one seizes upon even the tiniest hope."
"Did you think we could heal him?" asked Step, thinking of Sister LeSueur and wondering if she would think herself up to the job.
"No," she said. "But I thought, since you believed ... as you believe ... that God talks to human beings ... I thought you might accept him."
"We did," said Step. "As best we could."
"And I, too," said Dr. Weeks. "As best I can."
After she left, he rummaged through the hedge, looking for whatever it was that Lee had been reaching for.
It wasn't a weapon after all. It was the Book of Mormon that the missionaries had given him.
The autumn wore on, the routine changing but not in any important way. Jerusha brought along a physical therapist on her October visit, and he told Step that what he was doing, stretching out Zap's muscles and moving his limbs through their full range of motion, was not only good but essential. "It's like his brain doesn't have the normal connections to his muscles. When he shoots off a command, it does too much, which is why he kicks so hard, but then it disappears, just like that, and so he can't sustain anything. By himself he can't keep his limbs limber, so to speak. So you have to keep his tendons from tightening up on him. Same thing they do for coma patients."
"We'll have to do this for how long?" asked Step.
"Till he finds some alternate neural pathway to let him do it for himself. He will, you know. Just give him time."
It was encouraging, and now DeAnne and Step took turns twice a day, flexing and extending all of Zap's joints. Robbie and Stevie even picked up on it-Stevie silently, wordlessly doing exactly what he had seen Step and DeAnne do; Robbie far too rough and ne ver quite correctly, so that they had to insist that he only do "Zap bending" when they were there.
DeAnne's hardest job with Zap was bathing him. Zap didn't cry much-only when he was in real pain, which happened mostly when she fed him formula and he didn't burp enough. However, bathtime was torment for him. For some reason the water terrified him. Maybe, Step speculated, because gravity was the one constant, the one thing that felt in control in his life, and in the water the gravity just wasn't there the same way. DeAnne only answered, Maybe, but who can know? What mattered was that bathtime was the only time that Zap ever got really upset, and then he was frantic, and his desperate cries just tore DeAnne apart, because she couldn't help him feel better and yet she couldn't give up bathing him, either. Finally what she evolved was a song that she called "Tubby Time for Jeremy." It was completely absurd and the first time she realized Step was listening to her she blushed and stopped, but he insisted she teach him the words and he sang along with her, so she wasn't embarrassed anymore.
Tubby time in the city.
Tubby time in the town.
Tubby time for Jeremy, It's tubby time right now.
So Tubby-dub and scrubby-dub, It's time for your nightgown.
It's tubby time all over the world, So please don't frown.
As she explained to Step, the song didn't really help Zap at all. But it helped her,- it soothed her so she could endure his desperate sobbing and keep on bathing him without going to pieces inside.
Around the middle of October, Step and DeAnne both became aware that Stevie's behavior was changing just a little. He was no longer being quite as obedient as before. In fact, at times he seemed almost rebellious.
The rule in the house now was that no kid could go outside without one of the parents, and Stevie knew that-in fact, he had several times caught Betsy going out and brought her back in. But one day DeAnne came into the family room from the back of the house just as Stevie was coming inside through the back door.
"Stevie, what were you doing outside?"
"Looking," said Stevie.
"Good heavens, young man, you're filthy! Where have you been?"
"Under the house," he said.
She remembered the latticework skirt around the base of the house and immediately flashed back to her imagined picture of what it was like under there, all the bugs and webs and mud and filth. Having crickets come up through the closet last winter hadn't done anything to change that image in her mind, either. "That's just incredible!" she said. "You know what the rule is about going outside, and to think you pried open the latticework and went under the house, that's just unspeakable! I'm going to have Bappy come over and nail it all down. Now get into the laundry room and strip off your clothes while I get a bath running."
Later that night DeAnne and Step discussed what had happened, and they realized that because of Stevie's hard adjustment and their worry about these invisible friends of his, they had been slack with him. They may not have held him to a firm enough standard of discipline.
"But when you think about it, when would we have disciplined him?" asked Step. "I mean, till now he hasn't done anything wrong."
"Well, now he has, and I don't know what to do about it. I can't start deadbolting the back door and taking the key out because what if there was a fire? I can just see the headline: FAMILY HAD PLENTY OF TIME TO
ESCAPE BUT DEADBOLTS WERE ALL LOCKED AND KEYS COULD NOT BE FOUND IN TIME."
"They don't write headlines that long," said Step.
"Oh, good, so we'll die and no one will even know why."
"Less embarrassing that way."
"I think we need to show him that this is serious. I mean, there's a killer somewhere in Steuben, and Stevie's cutting out of the house without even telling us. Not to mention crawling under the house, I mean that's disgusting."
"Not really," said Step. "Not when you realize that my younger sister and my younger brothers used to eat dirt."
"Oh, gross!" cried DeAnne. "Did you have to tell me that?"
"They'd come into the house with flecks of mud all around their mouths and then try to act innocent when Mom said, 'Have you been eating dirt again?' And they'd open their mouths to say, 'No, Mom,' and the whole inside of their mouths was black with mud."
"I'm going to throw up, Step. I mean it."
"I'm just saying, kids like to mess in dirt. I always liked to dig in it, and maybe Stevie would like to, too, only there's just no place for it."
"It's a rental house. We can't just tear up a section of lawn for him."
"Oh," said Step. "That's what I was just about to suggest."
"And it's October, it's not going to get any warmer out there. And most important, that has nothing to do with him going out side in the first place without permission. He has to know we're serious."
"OK, so we confine him to the house."
"Step, that's not a normal life, being confined to the house. Besides, I want him outside."
"So we cut off his computer privileges. Tomorrow, no Atari."
"Oh, that really will hurt. He's always playing that Lode Runner game."
"Oh, he is? I've never seen him play it. I thought I was the only one who ever played it-I thought it had turned out to be a real lousy birthday gift for him."
"No, he plays it all the time. In fact, a couple of times I've thought that I'd really like it if you'd teach me how to run it."
"It's not hard. You just make sure there aren't any cartridges in the computer, put the disk into the drive, close the door, and turn the machine on."
"Right, that's easy for you and Stevie."
"Let's do it right now."
They went into the family room and Step showed her each thing to do and then he switched on the computer and the game came up and he said, "There it is. You just move the little guy with the joystick and try to get the treasures without the bad guys getting you."