There were three hotels. Among them the whole company would be distributed. All this was arranged by Sarah next morning, before the visit to the town hall, which was a formality, since everything had been already agreed on. Then Mary went off to interview descendants of the Imberts and the Rostands, Paul's family and Rémy's. Jean-Pierre went with her. Both clans had announced themselves only too willing to aid the Julie Vairon Festival, which would add such lustre to the little town. She also intended to visit the Julie Vairon Museum, and the archives, and the house — still as it was — where Julie would have lived had she decided to marry Philippe the master printer. And how about Philippe's son Robert's family? Perhaps they would agree — but they were a good way off. All this was going to take at least three days. Sarah flew back to London by herself.
She telephoned Stephen. On hearing each other's voices they at once entered a region of privileged complicity, like children with secrets. This new note had been struck from the moment the script was judged finished by the Founding Four. When adults do this, it often means they are over-burdened, or even threatened in some way. Well, Stephen's Julie was certainly threatened. 'Now Julie's gone public… ' as he put it.
She told him what she had seen of Julie's house. Stephen had visited it ten years earlier when bushes were growing up through the floors and dislodging stones from the walls. She told him of the three hotels, two new, all named after Julie. She described Jean-Pierre. Because of her tone, he enquired, 'And how does he see her?' and she was enabled to murmur, 'La pauvre… la pauvre… 'so that Stephen was able to exclaim, 'Sentimental bloody… ' and she laughed. In short, they behaved as they had to in this ancient business of the French and the English finding each other impossible, to the satisfaction of both. But perhaps each nation's need always to find the same traits in the other imposes a style, and so it is all perpetuated.
And now she and anyone else from The Green Bird who was interested were invited to the house in Oxfordshire, because there would be an evening of music and dancing, a miniature festival, and Julie's music would be sung. Sarah had been invited for the whole weekend. She did not really want to see him in his house, his other life — his real life? Their friendship was threatened, so she felt. Surely it was a tenuous thing, based on imaginings, on phantoms? She knew very well what she was afraid of: that the 'magic', the charm, would simply evaporate. But of course she had to go, and she even wanted to. During the week before that weekend, they met for dinner, on his suggestion. She could see that he too was uneasy. He was giving her information, facts, one after another, fielding them to her, she thought, and even said it to him, earning a smile — like an elder brother practising bowling on a sister, watching to make sure she accepted what was sent in the right way. 'No, no,' she parodied, 'don't step back, you'll knock the stumps off! Elbow, up, as you bring the bat forward.'
The house was his wife Elizabeth's. His was the money. No, it certainly was not for mutual convenience they had married, but the house was central to their lives: they both loved it.
There were three children, boys, at boarding school. They like boarding school, he insisted, in a way that said he often had to insist. She was interested that people like him felt they had to defend the sacred institution. Boarding school suited them, said Stephen. Yes, it was a pity they hadn't a daughter. 'Particularly for me,' he said. 'Perhaps if we'd had a daughter, Julie wouldn't have got to me the way she did.' But there would not be another child. Poor Elizabeth had more than done her bit.
They were good friends, he and Elizabeth, he said, choosing his words, but not looking into her face, rather down at his plate. Not because he was evading something, but because — she felt — there was more he might be saying, which he expected her to see for herself.
He liked to think he managed the estate productively. Elizabeth certainly ran the house well. Every summer they had festivals. 'Half the county come to them, and we do them proud. Elizabeth had the idea first, but it was because she knows it's the kind of thing I like. Now we both put everything we've got into it.' This was said with satisfaction, even pride. They were going to expand, become something like Glyndebourne, only on a much smaller scale. And only in the summers. Sarah would see it all for herself, when she came.
Again she felt that another meaning was carried by these words: and wondered if he was aware that everything he said seemed to be signalling: Listen to this carefully.
'I want you to see it all,' he insisted, this time looking at her. 'I like the idea of your being there. I'm not really the kind of man who likes his life in compartments — yes, I know there are plenty who do, but I… ' His smile had energy in it, the mild elation that seemed to expand him when he talked of his house and his life in it. 'You mustn't think I don't know how extraordinarily lucky I am,' he said, as they strolled to the tube. 'Well, you'll see for yourself. I don't take anything for granted, I assure you.'
She was to take the train to Oxford on the mid-afternoon on Friday. At two the doorbell rang, and there was Joyce. Having not seen her for some time, Sarah saw her with new eyes, if only for a moment. At once her heart began to feel an only too familiar oppression. As Joyce walked in she seemed to be straying, or wandering in some private dream. She was a tall girl, now very thin. When her sisters put make-up on her she could be lovely. Her hair — and this is what struck to the heart — was marvellous, a fine light gold, and full of vitality, loose around her pasty spotty little face. 'Make yourself some tea,' said Sarah, but Joyce fell into a chair. She really did seem ill. Her great blue eyes were inflamed. Her characteristic smile — she had faced the world with it since she stopped being a child, was bright, scared, anxious. Yes, she was ill. Sarah took her temperature and it was 101.
'I want to stay here,' Joyce said. 'I want to live here with you.'
Her dilemma was being put to Sarah in as dramatic a form as it could be. She had been afraid of something like this. All kinds of pressure, though none that could be visible, or even probable, to anyone but herself, were urging her to give in at once. But she was remembering something Stephen had said: 'You've been looking after her for — how long? Did you say ten years? Why don't her parents look after her?' And when Sarah could not reply, 'Well, Sarah, it looks a funny business to me.'
'At the time it seemed quite natural.'
But his silence was because he had decided not to say what he thought. Yet usually they did say what they thought. Would he have said, 'You're crazy, Sarah' and admitted her to the company of those who behave as they do because they cannot help themselves? And another time he had remarked, 'If you hadn't taken her in, what do you think would have happened?' This was not the hot and indignant voice she was used to hearing from people who feel threatened, because they are thinking, If you take on such a burden, then perhaps I shall be expected to sacrifice myself too. No, he had been thinking it all out. She had never wondered what would have happened to Joyce if she had not looked after her. But would Joyce have been worse off if her aunt had left her to her parents? She couldn't be much worse off, could she?