Chapter 12
Today's Modern Woman must realize that it is not a crime to be selfish upon occasion. In many aspects of life, women are expected to, indeed ofttimes forced to, put the wants and needs of others above her own. In many instances these sacrifices are admirable. In other instances, however, they are foolhardy. Today’s Modern Woman should take the time to look in a mirror, and say to herself, “I want this, I deserve this, I am going to have it.”
A Ladies’ Guide to the Pursuit of
Personal Happiness and Intimate Fulfillment
by Charles Brightmore
“Are we almost finished, Mr. Stanton?” Spencer asked for the third time in the last quarter hour.
Crouched on the rough wooden floor of a little-used part of the stables, Andrew smiled over his shoulder. Spencer stood next to a bale of hay, holding a broom-for the first time in his life. When Andrew had handed him the tool half an hour ago, Spencer had stared at the wooden handle for several seconds as if it were a snake, but then he got into the spirit of the task. The sheen of hard work glistened on the young man’s face, as did clear satisfaction in the fruits of his labors.
“The floor looks good,” Andrew said. “I just need to hammer a few more nails. Then we can begin.”
While Andrew set another nail in place, Spencer cleared his throat. “I want to thank you for taking such good care of my mother after the shooting.”
Andrew turned around, giving the boy his full attention. “It was my pleasure to do so, Spencer.”
“I would have thanked you sooner, but she did not tell me about it until yesterday.” He looked down and plucked a piece of hay from the bale. “When she first told me, I was not only angry at her, but at you as well for not telling me.”
“It wasn’t my place to tell you, Spencer. And your mother’s intentions were good. We all try to protect the people we love.”
“I know. Mum and I talked about it. I’m not angry anymore. She promised not to keep any more secrets from me.”
“Good.”Andrew crossed to the bale of hay and extended his hand. “I hope we are still friends?”
Spencer’s head jerked up, and his serious gaze met Andrew’s. Reaching out, he clasped Andrew’s hand in a strong grip and nodded. “Friends. But… no more secrets.”
Guilt hit Andrew like an open-handed slap, and he merely nodded in response, not willing to give voice to such a blatant falsehood. His entire life was based on secrets. And lies.
He released Spencer’s hand, then stepped back to retrieve his hammer. “I’ll finish this so we can begin,” he said. Burying his regret at being less than honest in the face of Spencer’s trust, he set a nail in the wood and pounded out his frustrations.
Ten minutes later, Andrew completed the task, and he stood to survey his handiwork. While Spencer had cleared away the dust and cobwebs from the area, he’d affixed three dozen wood rectangles, each approximately the size of a brick, to the floor to form a wide circle. Yes, this would do very nicely.
“Ready?” Andrew asked.
“Yes. And eager.” He indicated the wood blocks with his chin. “Now will you tell me what those are?”
“They’re to aid your balance during our pugilism lessons. Once you are steady on your feet, there is no reason why you cannot do well. Allow me to demonstrate. Brace the side of your weak foot along the wood, then step forward with your strong foot, keeping most of your weight on the forward leg.”
After Spencer had done so, Andrew said, “As long as you keep your weight forward, the wood will keep your weak foot from sliding, thus preventing you from falling backward.”
Spencer slowly flexed his knees several times, then a broad smile lit his face. “I say, that’s quite ingenious, Mr. Stanton.”
Andrew took a bow. “Thank you. I’m certain you did not mean to sound so shocked.”
The boy’s smile faded, and he looked distressed. “Oh, no. I-”
“ ‘Twas a jest, Spencer. Now, let’s start with the basics. There are two basic principles to pugilism. Any idea what they are?”
“To punch the other fellow and not let yourself get punched.”
“Exactly.”Andrew cocked his head. “You seem to know a great deal about this. Are you certain you’ve never done this before?”
“Most certain,” Spencer said, his face perfectly serious.
Andrew suppressed his smile. “In order to do those two things, you must know how to deliver a punch and how to block or avoid a punch.”
“I imagine speed is very important in this sport,” Spencer said, his voice wistful.
“It is. But it is not the only thing. Timing and the ability to outthink your opponent are just as important. What you may lack in speed, you will make up for in intelligence. And you’ll recall that the goal here is not to become the most feared pugilist in the kingdom-only the best that you can be.”
“But what if I can’t do it at all?”
“If you try, then discover that you can’t do it, that’s fine. Not everyone can excel at everything he attempts, Spencer. The important thing is to try. I truly believe you can do this. If I didn’t, I wouldn’t have hammered this makeshift ring into place. If it turns out I’m wrong, then so be it. If nothing else, you’ll have learned you don’t like it.”
“You won’t think I‘m… foolish? Or stupid?” He looked at the ground. “Or a failure?”
The worry and resignation in the boy’s voice tore at Andrew. Reaching out, he placed his hands on Spencer’s shoulders and waited until Spencer looked up to meet his gaze. “Whether you excel at this or not, I would never think you to be anything less than a courageous, intelligent, successful young man.”
The hope that flared in the lad’s eyes made the space around Andrew’s heart go hollow. Spencer blinked, then swallowed. “Do you truly mean that?”
“You have my word.” He released his shoulders, then ruffled his hair. “Indeed, I envy your courage.”
“You?” The word was a snort of disbelief. “You and Uncle Philip are the bravest men I know.”
“Thank you, although I believe we are the only men you know,” he teased.
Spencer’s face flushed bright red. “That’s not true. I know-”
“I was jesting, Spencer.”
“Oh. I… knew that.” He frowned. “What sort of courage do I have that you envy?”
Andrew paced before the boy several times, debating, then halted. “If I tell you, do you promise not to think me foolish or a failure?”
Spencer’s eyes widened. “I’d never think such a thing, Mr. Stanton. I promise.”
“Very well.” Andrew raked his hand through his hair, then drew a deep breath. “Icannotswim,” he said in rush. There. He’d said it. Out loud.
“I beg your pardon?”
Damn. It appeared he’d have to say it again. “I. Cannot. Swim.”
Spencer’s eyes widened further. “Never say so. Are you certain?”
“Very. I never learned. As you know, my father did not know how to swim, and who else would have taught me? After he drowned, any enthusiasm I might have had for the water abruptly left me. The last time I was in the water, except for a bathtub of course, was during some ridiculous reenactment of an ancient Nile canoe crossing your uncle insisted I participate in. I was too embarrassed to admit I couldn’t swim, so against my better judgment I did it. The canoe overturned, and I nearly drowned.” A shudder ran through him as he relieved the stark terror of the water closing over his head. Filling his lungs. Shaking off the memory, he gazed steadily at Spencer. “Believe me, I understand your trepidation about trying something over which you feel you have no control. But I’ll help you. You can do it. If you really want to.”