They sat on fallen beams and opened them one by one. The private did it mechanically, unmoved by anything he read. Sid rapidly grew disgusted. Contrary to his expectations, he found little except bad spelling, worse grammar, and fragmentary, wholly uninteresting observations about homesickness, mother's dearly remembered cooking, or the absolute perfection of every girl to whom a letter was addressed. In twenty minutes he was bored again. But orders were orders.
An hour had passed when he sat up suddenly. "Hold on, here's an interesting one. Signed J. B. Duncan — one of our own officers."
He showed the private the abbreviations and initials following the name. "Brigadier General, United States Volunteers. But it's addressed to someone he calls 'My dear Major Main.' You suppose that's a reb, Chauncey?"
"Pretty likely if the letter's here, don't you think?"
Sid nodded. "Seems to concern some female named Augusta — Oh, my Lord, listen to this. She became pregnant with your child, and although she knew of her condition at the time of your last visit, she would say nothing not wishing to exert moral coercion —" With new enthusiasm, Sid said, "This is an educated man. Telling quite a story."
"Sounds like a hot one," Chauncey observed.
Sid kept reading. "The pregnancy was fully as difficult, not to say dangerous, as that which occurred while she was married to Mr. Barclay. You know the unfortunate outcome that time, I believe. Fearing for her well-being and also her safety on that isolated farm where she foolishly remained throughout much of the worst fighting, I arranged to smuggle my niece over the Potomac and on to my present home in Washington. Here, on December 23 last, she delivered your son, a fine healthy infant to whom she gave the name Charles. But I regret to say the birth —"
The corporal's voice had dropped. He shot the private a melancholy look.
"What's wrong, Sid?"
"... the birth was not without its tragic aspect. One hour after delivering poor Augusta succumbed. She passed away with your name upon her lips. I know she loved you more than life itself, for she told me so."
Sid wiped his nose. "My God." He went on. "I have written twice before and paid to have each missive borne to Richmond by private messenger. I hasten to write yet a third time because I know postal service is disrupted, and I wish to do all that I can to make certain at least one of the letters reaches you. Regrettably, each letter bears the skimpiest of addresses, but I have none better."
A gulp of breath. "New paragraph. The divisive holocaust, perhaps ordained by God but tragic for His children nonetheless, shows every aspect of an imminent conclusion. When it is over, it is your right to claim your son. I will keep him, providing proper care, until you come for him, or, if you do not, for as long as is practicable for an old bachelor bent upon continuing his military career. I bear you no enmity. I pray this finds you whole and glad of the good portion of my news. Respectfully —"
Sid rested the last sheet on his knee. "That's all except for the signature."
"That ought to be delivered for sure," Chauncey said. He was subdued now, sitting motionless in a smoky shaft of light.
"Yes." The corporal thrust the envelope into the sun. Tilted and peered at it. "Hello, that's better. Here's the name again. Main. And the word Major. The first name's gone, along with the address. Still, that may be enough."
He folded the two pages, replaced them in the envelope, and slipped it in his pocket. "I'll bring this one to the lieutenant's attention myself."
"Good," said Chauncey, staring at Sid. Sid stared back. When the government of that damned Davis had torched so many of its records, how did you find one reb soldier among the hundreds of thousands wandering homeward on the roads of the South — or lying dead in mass graves, thickets, fields, from Virginia and the Pennsylvania mountains to the bluffs of Vicksburg and the hills of Arkansas?
Both knew you didn't; not easily. Sid would try, but he felt it was hopeless.
142
After leaving Fredericksburg, Charles wandered aimlessly for three days. Lay rigid each night, unable to sleep. Lost his temper without provocation and almost got knifed for it in another wayside tavern. Wanted to cry and could not.
In the scarred country above the Rapidan, he came to a four-way crossroads and dismounted. While the mule cropped grass, he took off his gypsy robe and lay down at the roadside. He hoped the mule kept eating for hours. He had no destination. No reason to go on.
Out of the bright north, three men approached on foot. All three wore filthy remnants of butternut uniforms. One, a towhead of eighteen or nineteen, hobbled on a handmade crutch. His right leg ended in a stump three inches above the road.
He was the one who greeted Charles with a wave and a smile. "Howdy. You're one of our boys, aren't you?"
Charles took the cigar out of his mouth. "I'm not one of anybody's boys anymore."
Giving him surly stares, the soldiers muttered among themselves, swung to the other side of the road, and continued on south. To homes that probably don't exist any longer, Charles thought.
Down the road, he heard noises suggesting a vehicle. He turned on his left elbow, squinted, saw the soldiers pass a group coming the other way. The soldiers went by without speaking. The group consisted of four people: a man, a woman, and two small girls. Black.
When they came closer, he saw their clothes were clean but threadbare. The cart, which carried the girls and some possessions bundled in croker sacks, had solid wheels but otherwise looked flimsy, obviously built by someone not trained as a wheelwright.
Nor did the family own an animal. The father pulled the cart. The mother walked barefoot beside him.
Yet neither parent seemed unhappy. They smiled and sang right along with their children. The mother and two girls clapped the beat. Charles stared at them as they started to go by. The sight of him reclining in the grass made them tense. The singing softened. He could hear no words except one: "Jubilo."
A grimace twisted his mouth. The father took note of that and of Charles's gray shirt. He took a firmer grip on the handles of the cart, pulling it as quickly as he could through the crossroads and away down the northern road. The children looked back at Charles, but not the adults.
Too tired and despondent to move, he tethered the mule to a tree branch. He wriggled back against the trunk, intending to doze a few minutes. There was no hurry about anything. She was gone for good.
He woke with a start. The slant of the light told him it was late afternoon. Something hanging above him tickled his face.
Half the tether, still tied to a branch. It had been chewed apart. The mule was gone, saddle gear and all. Luckily he still had his army Colt in the holster.
From the crossroads, he walked about half a mile in each of four directions. The road to the west faded away around a bend; the western landscape blended into the backdrop of the Blue Ridge. He stared at the mountains a moment, recalling his fondness for Texas.
He trudged back to the crossroads. No sign of the mule anywhere. Damn.
The sun slanted lower, casting spears of light between thick trees at the southwest corner of the crossroads. Charles started suddenly. Out toward the Shenandoah, past the woodlands, he heard a wailing rebel yell —
He shook his head. It was only the whistle of a train speeding through the countryside. A Yankee-operated train, more than likely. They had so many of them. And so many guns. And so many men who had come out of mills and stockyards and barns and offices and saloons to make war as nobody had ever made war before.