Siri quickly scanned the judge's head for lumps or other evidence that he'd suffered an injury.
"You want something?" Siri asked.
Haeng laughed. He reached beside him for his walking stick and hobbled around to the other side of his desk. Siri still marvelled at how quickly the infection had spread from the judge's imagination to his perfectly healthy leg.
"Don't be silly, Siri," he said. "Two old comrades getting together for a chat. Why do we need a reason?" He cast a sideways glance at the young clerk now ensconced at the advisor's old desk. Siri was about to take his place on the wonky interrogation seat but Haeng waved him away.
"Let's get comfortable," he said.
He gestured to the vinyl couch and the uneven tin coffee table where a bottle of Cola and two glasses sat in expectation. Siri, more nervous with every revelation, edged to the sofa and sat. The springs played a short tune of welcome. They played a different tune entirely when the judge joined him and he poured them both a drink. Siri hated Cola. Even when it became a luxury item the taste didn't improve. It was still heavily sugared engine oil to Dr Siri.
He was closer to Haeng now but still couldn't see the wound on his head that had caused this sudden change in personality. Perhaps it was his thyroid. Glands had been known to bring about mood swings. Haeng raised his glass and expected Siri to do the same. It was too creepy, even for a man who spoke to ghosts.
"All right, I give up," Siri said. "What's happened?"
"Siri, Siri. You! You've happened. You don't suppose that little bit of news wouldn't somehow find its way to my office, do you? I can't begin to tell you how proud we are."
At last, Siri understood. "The hero shortlist."
"I can't tell you what a boon it would be for the Justice Department if one of its own was selected," said Haeng.
"How could it have any effect on the credibility of a ministry?" Siri asked, bemused.
"Do you need to ask?"
Siri was distracted momentarily by an old lady who had come to sit at the judge's desk. She had a face that defied guesswork as to her age and wore the traditional clothing of a country woman. Her mouth was a splatter of betel nut. He knew the old lady well even though he didn't recall meeting her when she was still alive. She'd been with him from time to time, just sitting, just there, never speaking. A monk had once hinted she might have been Siri's birth mother, but there was no way of confirming or denying it. He called her his 'mother angel' anyway, just in case. Of all the visitations he experienced from day to day, his mother angel was the one he most felt a need to communicate with. He had a lot of gaps in his early memories. But she sat and chewed and made no effort at all to answer his questions.
Judge Haeng was babbling on about something in the background. Siri interrupted him.
"If you were a bank I'd understand," he said. "You could use me on advertising hoardings. "Dr Siri is proud to be a director of the such and such bank." That type of thing. Or a farm implement manufacturer. "Dr Siri drives a Kwailek tractor. Why don't you?" But you're a ministry."
"And a fledgling ministry in a fledgling democracy, Siri. We need the farmers to trust us."
"Then stop making them join collectives."
Haeng ignored the comment.
"We need the common people on our side," he said. "The simple man is a moth drawn to the bright light of a halo around the head of a great leader. We need their support and they need a hero."
Siri saw himself in his green leotard, flying down from the ministry turrets to aid the commoners, fix that dam, shift that bale. He laughed and shrugged in the direction of his dead mother. He felt a 'but' coming.
"We're almost there," Haeng said. "There's just one small area that needs addressing."
"I'm not giving up on the Hmong," Siri told him.
"The…? Oh, no problem. We're a multi-ethnic society, Siri. Compassion for our ethnic brothers and sisters can do you no harm at the polls. It won't get you anywhere, but it won't hurt."
"So, what's my 'small area'?"
"Siri, there are rumours about you…and ghosts."
Siri's mother was dribbling betel juice all over the judged reports. Siri smiled and she might have smiled back. It was hard to tell.
"What type of rumours?" Siri asked.
"Siri, I'm going to ask you bluntly and I expect a blunt answer. Are you a shaman?"
"Absolutely not."
He hosted a shaman, but that was hardly the same thing. He had conducted a seance and travelled to the other world, and confronted demons, but that wasn't the question. Haeng leaned back and sighed as if a javelin had been removed from his foot.
"Excellent," he said, "because I have heard second-hand reports that you are…apparently, that you dabble in spirit worship."
"Judge Haeng," Siri said earnestly. "I can honestly say that the only spirit I worship is fermented from rice and left to stand for a month."
"That's what I thought. Good. I can forward my report tomorrow with a clear conscience. Glad we cleared that up. Good luck."
Haeng lifted his Cola and Siri raised his and heard the clink as the two glasses met. He sipped the bubbleless, lukewarm sugar-oil without tasting it. He was surprised at how effortlessly he had skirted around the judged accusations. His normal self would have left doubts and messed with the judge's mind. But Siri knew what was at stake here; hero status. And, if he were honest with himself he would have to admit, yes, he wanted to be a hero. He'd earned it. It wasn't the glory and adulation he desired. It was simply that he'd been a fair, honest and hard-working man all his life. Assuming the DHC didn't turn him into some Asian Errol Flynn, there were far worse role models out there for young Lao to follow. He was proud of the decisions he'd made and the direction he'd taken. Damn it. Yes. He would be a hero even if it killed him.
He looked at his mother who was sitting on the desk ripping up reports. She nodded. Yes there were character flaws; he was disrespectful, and given to grumpiness, he talked to dead people and he drank too much, but, as everyone knew, time had a way of smudging over a hero's personality faults.?
The electricity is back on and the eternal day has returned to my classroom. My tough Lao belly has been invaded by foreign devils — bacteria whose names should not be spoken aloud. I am suffering from cramps and chronic diarrhoea. As I have no control over my bowels I have removed all my clothes and piled them at one extreme of the length of my chains. Soiled clothing is a breeding ground for more diseases than I care to tell you. At the other extreme of my shackles is my toilet. I use half the water they give me to keep myself clean as best I can. It's as sanitary as I am able to manage given the conditions. I'm a doctor. I balance the risks.
The monk is asleep, chained not a leg's length away. There's a smile on his face. His subconscious is apparently unaware of the terror that surrounds him. I don't know when they carried him in. He arrived like a demon in the night and took hold of my hand, frightened the living daylights out of me.
"You are the one who speak French?" he asked in a poor version of the language.
"Oui," I said.
"Have they tortured you yet?"
"They're saving me for the dinner show."
The monk managed a laugh that quickly dilapidated into a dry cough.
"It will not be long, brother," he said. "It will not be long."
"Thanks for the encouragement. What are you in for?"
The conversation elated me after so long without warmth, only inhuman contact, only the smiley man and you ghosts. No offence.
"They found me," the monk said. "I am a monk. I was the last in the temple. I was responsible to protect the palm leaf scrolls. We have thousand, priceless, cannot be replace. I was in the vault under the hall of prayer. It was impossible to find it if you don't know where was it. I have the dry food, the running water that I can boil it. I could stay there for ever. I go out at night if I want the fresh food, fruit, the animal. But everyone was starve. Not much the food. Then they come, these rains. These miserable rains. And the flood make me to find a dry place for the scrolls."