His reaction to that was to laugh against my back. “I already got you off twice. I must be spoiling you, if you’re this greedy for a third round.”
“I know you’re good for more than three, you sadistic bastard,” I told him.
I got a few rough jolts for that one, and as soon as I realized that taunting him would get me what I wanted, I began to insult him in earnest.
It backfired. Badly. He pulled out of me completely, letting go of my hair. I tried to take back every insult, but it was too late.
“Relax your hands,” he told me, and when I did, he lined them up straight at my sides, twisting my arms just enough to face my palms up, then pulling my arms high and far enough behind my back to hold them taut.
I felt him kneel behind me, still holding my hands captive, and start to eat me out from behind with the most teasing little strokes of his tongue.
My feet arched up, and I hooked them until they were crossed behind his head, resting on his nape. He began to plunge his tongue deep, using my captive hands to move my pussy on and off his busy tongue.
I was close, and I told him so. He pulled back, and I felt him stand. He tugged at my arms, pulling me back onto his cock, and started up the slow pace from before.
I bounced my hips and started to beg.
He took pity on me, working into the pace I wanted, needed. “All right, sweetheart, you can let go.”
I came hard, convulsing, shaking, clenching on his cock as I felt him grinding hard as he followed me.
I was so limp after that round that he had to carry me to bed.
I passed out, sated and content in a way that had been lost to me for as long as Tristan had. Even with the touches of drama, it was the best day I’d had in as long as I could remember.
CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
I met him offsite, at a restaurant near Tropicana and Pecos, right next to a huge gun store with the biggest shooting range in town.
It was a great little Italian joint that I’d have bet money was run by the mob. The place was open twenty-four seven, and it was always completely dead except for a few overweight Italian guys that chatted quietly in the corner. One of them, the owner, would almost always stop by our table to make sure that we’d enjoyed our meal, giving a long speech about taking care of his customers.
Super mob vibe. And come on, this was Vegas.
The food was so good that I kept coming back, regardless. Bev and I had a bi-weekly lunch date there, rain or shine.
Usually, Andrew and I met up at one of the restaurants inside the casino, but I didn’t think that was a good idea at the moment, for obvious reasons.
Not because I was hiding it, but more because I didn’t want to deal with any potential drama because of it.
Okay, maybe I was hiding it a little. Though I wasn’t doing anything wrong.
I told myself that firmly and repeatedly. Somehow, it didn’t help.
We met for lunch a few times a month, even post breakup. That’s just how we were. I thought we’d always be good friends. Andrew was just that type of guy. Even if he’d rather not have been broken up, he respected my decision.
He never resorted to dirty tricks or Troublesome smiles to get what he wanted from me.
Of course, he didn’t have those in his arsenal.
In fact, Andrew didn’t have an arsenal.
That had always been my favorite thing about him. Too bad it hadn’t been enough.
It was hard to sit across a small table from him and not make comparisons to a certain tattooed bad boy. Impossible, actually.
And it was hard not to feel guilty at just how unflattering those comparisons were for poor Andrew.
I ordered a salad, Andrew ordered lasagna, and we picked at our food while we waded through some stilted conversation. It wasn’t usually like this.
I felt like shit for even being there. I should have canceled, but I’d been too stubborn to admit to myself that my life couldn’t just keep going on as usual.
“So are you seeing anyone special?” I asked, feeling way too hopeful about it. The day he moved on would be a big weight off my conscience. I knew I’d broken his heart, and though it’d been several months since all of that had gone down, I still felt bad about it.
He winced slightly. “I’m still carrying a bit of a torch for you, if you hadn’t noticed.” There was no censure in his tone, just honesty.
That was so much harder to face. I looked down at my plate.
I thought I’d been clear for a while now, but apparently not. Had I inadvertently been stringing him along? It had never occurred to me before, but, of course, I hadn’t been sleeping with someone else before.
That thought threw me, the part about someone else.
Tristan being the someone else was just off. It felt wrong to even think it.
I knew why, too.
He was the someone, so he could never be the else.
This was the else, my morbid mind told me.
The last six years have been the else, and poor Andrew was just another casualty in the Great War of T&D.
Dear Andrew had been on a no percent survival suicide mission, and he hadn’t had a clue.
“I wish you wouldn’t,” I told him as gently as I could. “Carry a torch for me, I mean. You’re a great guy.”
“Uh oh,” he said with a sad smile. “That sounds ominous.”
“You are. You’ve been wonderful to me, patient and kind, but I was broken long before I met you, and I’m afraid that neither you nor I ever did have the tools to fix me. I’m just beginning to see that. I’m sorry I wasted your time; sorry I hurt you. Truly I am. We are good as friends though. I’ll always have the utmost respect and fondness for you.”
He looked much more broken up by my words than I was ready to deal with. “It wasn’t a waste of my time. Falling in love never is.” He covered his face with his hands. “I didn’t know you felt this way. I thought you just needed more time. More space. Is this coming up for a particular reason?” His hands dropped, and his solemn eyes met mine. “If I may be blunt, is there someone else?”
Still there was no censure in his tone, only a gently wounded concern.
I flushed, feeling ashamed at my insensitivity. I should have told him sooner. “I have been seeing someone. I can’t say if it’s serious, or even has the potential to be. It’s a very complicated situation. But—“
“It’s Tristan Vega, isn’t it?”
That took the steam right out of me. “How did you know?”
“It was always him, wasn’t it? I knew,” he said emotionally. “I knew there was someone that had your heart, something that always made you hold back from me. I should have realized we were doomed, after that first time, when you locked yourself in the bathroom and wouldn’t stop crying. Obviously I knew there was something wrong, but I didn’t know it was hopeless.”
He paused for a long moment, regaining his composure. “You shouldn’t be sorry, and you shouldn’t feel as though you’ve done something wrong. I know you tried your best to love me. We just never had a shot, huh?”
I shook my head, wishing I knew better how to comfort him. I could tell he was in pain, and I hated that I was the cause of it.
“That time we saw him at the red carpet last year. Christ, I should have seen it coming then. I could tell you weren’t over each other.”
“Was I so obvious?” The thought was alarming, to say the least. At times, it’d seemed that my pride was all I’d had. Had even that small comfort, that I’d kept my feelings hidden, been denial on my part?
“You weren’t, no. You have always been remarkably good at hiding your feelings. It was him. He wasn’t hiding a thing. He looked at you like, I don’t know, like he couldn’t even breathe at the sight of you. I could tell he’d been your lover, and I admit to being jealous, but still, I had to feel for the guy.