Seven years old, the little boy is “half Pakistani and half. . er. . er. . er. . human”—or so a child on his English mother’s side is reported to have described him in baffled groping innocence.
As he walks, his foot shatters an iced-over puddle (he’s neither a child nor Jesus); the thin sheet breaks, releasing the loud sound that was lying trapped underneath, the water coming out to mix with the snow in a sapphire slush.
Kiran’s house is one-half of a stone box set at the edge of the road, interrupting the cherry trees. It is his understanding that the woman next door is a prostitute. Kiran was a girl of thirteen back in the 1950s when Shamas had arrived from Pakistan. Her father had lost all other members of his family during the massacres that accompanied the partition of India in 1947, and so he had brought her with him when he migrated to England from India. She was a mysterious withdrawn creature: to look at her eyes was to wonder immediately what myth it was that contained a being of identical spell-binding powers, the blood stopping dead for a beat or two.
A child in a house full of lonely migrant workers, she was the focus of everyone’s tenderness. It was a time in England when the white attitude towards the dark-skinned foreigners was just beginning to go from I don’t want to see them or work next to them to I don’t mind working next to them if I’m forced to, as long as I don’t have to speak to them, an attitude that would change again within the next ten years to I don’t mind speaking to them when I have to in the workplace, as long as I don’t have to talk to them outside the working hours, and then in another ten years to I don’t mind them socializing in the same place as me if they must, as long as I don’t have to live next to them. By then it was the 1970s and because the immigrant families had to live somewhere and were moving in next door to the whites, there were calls for a ban on immigration and the repatriation of the immigrants who were already here.
There were violent physical attacks. At night the scented geraniums were dragged to the centres of the downstairs rooms in the hope that the breeze dense with rosehips and ripening limes would get to the sleepers upstairs ahead of the white intruders who had generated it by brushing past the foliage in the dark after breaking in. Something died in the children during those years — and then, one night, Jugnu had come, his passport swollen with the New England wildflowers he had picked at the last minute before boarding the plane, the pages damp with sap and dew — he soon filled the days and nights of his niece and two nephews with unexpected wonder.
They have arrived at Kiran’s house and he goes in after her.
A vase of roses has dropped a few crimson notes onto the piano keys.
The heat in the room leaps at the sensitive parts of Shamas’s face: the brow, the eyes, and the upper cheeks — the area onto the reverse of which dreams are projected during sleep. Kiran’s father, lying where he had fallen next to the bed, acknowledges their entrance by a faint movement of the body, a movement allowed him by the elasticity of the skin; otherwise, he is pinned to the floor by his great bulk and by the weight of his illness that is greater still. Being a Sikh, he has never cut his hair and the locks are collected in a bun at the top of the head. “Shamas? I am sorry to disappoint you but I am still alive. I know you cannot wait for my death to get your hands on my jazz records.” The wood these walls are made of has soaked up more music than the birdsong it had absorbed as trees in the forest.
Shamas approaches and drops by his side. “I pray for it every day but you are stubborn.” Blood vessels creep close to the surface on the man’s cheeks as on the bodies of shrimps. Together in the harness of their arms, he and Kiran lift the old man as heavy as a stone Buddha onto the bed.
“Thank you, sohnia.” His eyes droop close as Shamas arranges the quilt around him. Sohnia: the Beautiful One. “I want to leave and go up there. The temptation on my part is strong to arrive and watch with these eyes all the greats playing music together.”
“God’s very own backing band!” Shamas smiles. Through his socks he can feel a zone of greater warmth on the carpet where the body had lain next to the bed all night.
“God’s very own backing band. Yes.” Loose strands of his dishevelled beard are softly bristling away from his skin, some short, some long, the colour of mist on a spring morning, floating above his face as though he is below water. The room expands and contracts with the unfocused dazzle thrown off the white crumbs falling past the window. Tenderly, the old man places a hand on Shamas’s sleeve and whispers, “Thank you for coming, my friend.” And then, mischievous once again, he shouts: “Watch him on his way out, Kiran. Don’t let him steal. I’ll count the records this afternoon just to be sure.” He shuts his eyes, the lips keeping the shape of the last word.
Shamas closes the door quietly behind him as he leaves the room.
“They are three weeks old.” Kiran, who had been in the kitchen, comes out into the hallway where he stands looking at the roses on the piano. “Duke Ellington taught me to put an aspirin in the water to make them last.” She presses a key without sounding it, exposing the dull yellow wood of the adjoining key beneath the gleaming lacquer. “He mentions it somewhere in the ‘self-interview.’ ”
“Sidney Bechet uses the word ‘musicianer’ in his book. It’s lovely. I don’t think I have come across it anywhere else, but ‘a practitioner of music’ should be called a ‘musicianer.’ ”
“Come through. I am making tea.” The kettle is whistling back there like a toy train. Around her wrist there is a gold bracelet composed as though of a series of semicolons—
He declines her offer. She doesn’t know this but her lover eventually named his baby daughter after her — Kiran, it being a name acceptable to both Sikhs and Muslims. A ray of light.
She plucks open the front door for him. “I’ll tell him you failed to steal anything.”
It was this father and daughter who had introduced Shamas and the other migrant workers to jazz in the house they shared all those years ago. She would stop suddenly on hearing the pulse of sound coming out of the Woods music store. “Unless I am mistaken that’s Ben Webster.”
At home she would take out the new record that would look painfully vulnerable out in the air, and examine it carefully for imperfections, blowing on it quietly as though it were on fire, and then place it onto the turntable with the caution of a mother setting a baby in a cradle, while, an open book of faces, the others would be sitting in a semicircle around the gramophone, waiting for it to begin — Louis Armstrong “calling his children home” with his trumpet, or the genius of Count Basie so unmistakable that the stylus would seem to be travelling around the very whorls of his fingerprint.
The record would begin and soon the listeners would be engrossed by those musicians who seemed to know how to blend together all that life contains, the real truth, the undeniable last word, the innermost core of all that is unbearably painful within a heart and all that is joyful, all that is loved and all that is worthy of love but remains unloved, lied to and lied about, the unimaginable depths of the soul where no other can withstand the longing and which few have the conviction to plumb, the sorrows and the indisputable rage — so engrossed would the listeners become that, by the end of the piece, the space between them would have contracted, heads leaning together as though they were sharing a mirror. All great artists know that part of their task is to light up the distance between two human beings.