Why did Ashley deliberately choose to enter the trunk of the car his brother died in?
It was to know the hand that brought the machete down. To understand the truth about the scene cut from the television program. To understand what had been lost.
The thing Ashley needed to know most of all was whether he still had the will to carry on living, even after the blow had been struck.
If the whole world took to arms against each other, brandishing their machetes, would he be able to survive?
There came a point in all people’s lives when their fundamental belief, their trust in the basic decency of human nature, was challenged, shattered. What Ashley needed to know was whether he would ever be able to pick up the pieces.
Balot realized that she now held a machete to her own heart. In order to discern exactly what she was made of.
And to determine which way the blade was heading. If people lived their lives under the vagaries of fate and fortune, then Balot would be the one to challenge her destiny—by working out for herself which way she needed to strike.
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“Why…why are you doing this?” Shell groaned. He couldn’t keep it in any longer.
His eyes were wavering between two points: Balot’s face and the third million-dollar chip, which had just been placed in the pot as Balot’s next bet.
–Never doubt. No need to trouble yourself with questions.
After Balot said this she waved her right hand. Lightly. Goodbye. Then she mimed closing the door on him. Just like Shell once did to her. Shell didn’t understand what any of her charade meant, exactly. But he did understand, in a vague and uneasy way, just quite how serious was the crime he had committed.
“Are you saying that I somehow took advantage of you? Used you? For what, exactly? This is crazy! I’ve even forgotten your face, what you look like…”
Balot tapped the table to show her impatience for her next card.
She knew that Shell had just spoken the truth. She had no problem with that. If Shell wanted to believe that he was innocent, let him believe that he was innocent—for now. All Balot knew was that she had to do what she had to do to this man who treated his own memories as so many bargaining chips.
The upcard was a king. Balot’s cards were 5 and 6.
Balot hit and drew an 8, at which point she stayed.
Shell just shook his head and turned his card over.
Another ace. A glorious victory for Shell.
“I… I just wanted to help you. I gave you what you wanted. I even had a proper citizen’s ID made for you, one with a decent past, not the one you had. I saved you…”
This was Shell’s last-gasp effort at explaining his actions. It was his lawyers who had come up with this plan. Just as the Doctor had come up with Balot’s. Shell was very satisfied with this story as an explanation. Balot’s very existence was a thorn in his side; she was like the one viewer who burst out laughing at the most inappropriate moment at the screening of a serious movie. She was ruining everything!
How was he to deal with such a person?
There was only one possible answer. Silence her. That was the reason Shell kept a permanent roster of assassins in his pay.
Shell yearned for drama, romance, to fill the gaping hole that was left in him when he obliterated his memories. He wanted someone to console him, soothe the pain of the death of that part of him, to make the whole sordid process seem beautiful. And he had chosen Balot for this role.
The problem was that Oeufcoque had also chosen Balot. So that Oeufcoque could fight. To find meaning in his life—to fight in the hands of someone who needed to use him.
The little golden galloper of a mouse needed a jockey to ride him, someone who would accept him warts and all. A rider who could use him properly and at the same time appreciate him as more than just a mount to be used.
To Shell, on the other hand, Balot was no more than a sacrificial lamb to be offered up on the altar of his ambition. Balot had no intention of ever returning down that path.
The last of the four million-dollar chips was finally released to return home to the other side of the table. Balot threw it into the pot like she was tossing a coin down a wishing well.
The golden chip was retrieved and slammed shut into its holding box just as the red marker appeared. Game over.
Balot rose from her seat and handed her one remaining chip—a ten-thousand-dollar piece—over to the Doctor beside her.
The Doctor rolled the chip around in the palm of his hand thoughtfully, as if he’d fallen foul of the classic gambler’s cliché—If only we’d stopped when the going was good.
A solitary ten-thousand-dollar chip. At one point they’d managed to swell their seed money of two thousand dollars by a factor of two thousand, and now this was all they had left.
The Doctor did the only thing that anyone with an ounce of adventure in them could do. “I wonder if we could keep this chip as a souvenir?”
Ashley smiled. “Well, since you’ve come this far…” He glanced at Shell’s face to get the house’s permission. He gave it, and as he now had his hands full with a reinvigorated Cleanwill John October instead of the feared nuclear meltdown, he was now radiating electricity.
“That should be fine, sir. Do feel free to take it as a memento of today’s great battle,” Ashley said respectfully, and the Doctor clutched the chip tight in his hands for all on the floor to see.
The Doctor’s act, and indeed the whole play, was now brought to a close. This was the climax.
“I wonder if I might be permitted to walk you to the casino entrance?” asked Ashley. Bell Wing stood beside him, silently asking the same question.
Balot accepted their offer wordlessly and graciously. The Doctor, too, gave his tacit consent.
The four of them left the VIP room, watched by a throng of other customers and dealers.
“Do you have any concerns about finding your way home?” Ashley asked. Shall I show you another route? he was asking. A hidden escape route?
“Thanks for the offer, but we had all that double-checked before we arrived.” The Doctor confirmed that it had all been cleared in advance with the limousine company, and that Ashley need not worry. Ashley shrugged his shoulders, impressed as ever with the thoroughness of the Doctor’s preparations.
“Really, anyone would think you were a pair of professional bank robbers,” he added.
Eventually the four of them stopped in front of the somewhat surreal intersection between the casino and the hotel.
Balot looked straight into Bell Wing’s face. Her eyes asked whether they would ever be able to meet again.
“I’ll still be a croupier and I’ll carry on spinning the wheel. Not here, but some other casino. That’s not for you to worry about. If you do feel like it then I’d welcome a visit from you anytime.”
–Thank you. And goodbye.
“Sure, goodbye,” said Ashley.
“Goodbye,” said Bell Wing.
03
–Just wait a minute!
Shell’s voice was on the other end of the cell phone. He sounded like a swimmer confronted by the sudden appearance of a fin right in front of his face.
Boiled was pressing down on the gas pedal so hard that it almost burrowed into the floor of the car. He sped down the highway, one hand on the wheel, the other holding Shell’s voice to his ear.