As soon as I made this connection — that Carey reminded me of what I remembered of my dad, what I missed about him — I felt my pulse quicken. I was conscious that I hadn’t showered in two days, had only brushed my unwashed hair back into a ponytail. I replayed the things I was saying, asking myself if they were true, if they were interesting. Carey was looking for a more permanent place to stay for the duration of the assessment at Fort Union. If the park reopened, he would likely stay on as the park’s ranger. The idea of staying at the cottage for a few weeks — even a few months — seemed like a real possibility, if he was going to be around. I tried to shut these thoughts down — the last thing I needed was a crush — but once I acknowledged the attraction, I couldn’t ignore it. I hadn’t been kissed in months, let alone touched with any romantic intention. Being around Katie again, remembering that first taste of desire — that charge of something new, of being on the brink of something — I wanted that again. I felt like I deserved it, as a reward for coming home again, finally, for being an adult and facing my past.
Before the meal was over, I had invited him to dinner at the cottage sometime.
The receptionist-dispatcher at the front desk of the sheriff’s office told me I could “go get a beer” if I wanted, and she’d send Deputy Lelehalt over when he returned.
“It’s eleven o’clock in the morning,” I noted.
“Or coffee, whatever,” she said. “He gets lunch at the tavern every day. He’ll show up.”
I had a bloody mary instead and made notes on the story that I wasn’t writing — that I wouldn’t write unless Katie told me I could — and made a list of questions: about squatters’ rights, about verbal agreements, about property trusts, and about the Swenson Trust in particular. Assuming Jacob Swenson had gone off the deep end and someone else from his family was to take over, there had to be some sort of legal standing for the Colony. Laws of adverse possession might apply, considering the amount of time and capital the Colony had invested in Marrow — these were laws I was vaguely familiar with from reporting on the guerrilla gardeners: community gardens that sprung up on disused property had a greater chance of survival the longer they were in use by the community without the title holder’s intervention. Combine that with the verbal agreement Jacob Swenson had come to — there had to be some kind of documentation, somewhere, in correspondence between Julia and Sister J., maybe? I might be able to make the case for the Colony in the right story.
The only aspect that gave me pause was the mushrooms — psilocybin was a Schedule I drug, and the fruits of the mycelium were illegal to cultivate and possess. But they grew wild all over the Northwest, and their presence might be glossed over or explained away, so long as they weren’t harvesting them.
Chris Lelehalt joined me at the bar at noon and ordered a burger to go and an iced tea.
“Do you want me to come back to the station to give my statement?”
“Sure.” He seemed to have something on his mind.
“Can you tell me anything? His family has no idea where he is? Did he check himself into a hospital or something?”
“Why do you ask that?”
“I’ve heard some things about his mental health — you know how people talk.”
He nodded.
“No, he’s not at any hospital nearby. Anacortes, Bellingham, Port Townsend. We even tried Everett and Mount Vernon, down to Seattle. And his car’s been parked in the garage for at least a week, probably longer. He’s a missing person.”
“Do you have any leads at all?”
“Are you asking as a concerned neighbor or as a reporter?”
“A neighbor.” I didn’t hesitate but glanced down at my notes. I didn’t think he had seen them. He smirked.
“I’m just kidding. We don’t really have any leads, just a history of mental illness and alcohol addiction. Crashed his car into a ditch a few years back — it’s all public record or common knowledge. Didn’t have any enemies, and we don’t have any witnesses to anything strange. Except you.”
“I don’t have much to tell,” I said, waiting for him to ask me about my trip to Marrow. If Jacob’s alcoholism was common knowledge, it seemed like his relationship with the Colony would be, as well. “I’ve never even met him, that I can remember. Maybe as a kid?”
“If you hadn’t trespassed, we still wouldn’t know he’s missing.”
“I didn’t trespass.”
He chuckled. “We’ll leave that part out of the report. But you’ve got nerve, checking up on a neighbor you’ve never met, after you’ve been back in town for, what? Twenty-four hours.”
“Something like that.” He was angling for something.
“Well, somebody from his family will be out if he doesn’t turn up soon. You might have a neighbor again before long.”
“Do you think he’ll show up?”
“I don’t like to speculate.”
“What are you doing to find him?”
“Couple of us spent the day walking the woods around the property and the shoreline around there. Aren’t a lot of places to go on Orwell, so next step is the other islands. We’re getting his picture out to law enforcement, the hotels, the ferry terminals, the Coast Guard, the media. After that… there’s a lot of water out there.”
He watched my expression casually, glancing at me, but never looking at me straight on, catching glimpses of me in the mirror behind the liquor bottles on the other side of the bar.
“You think you’ll be headed back to Marrow anytime soon?”
I shook my head, looked him in the eye and held it, dared him to ask me something about the Colony. “I don’t know. I have some things I need to work on at the cottage.”
He looked down at his hands.
“Are you thinking of selling the place? Moving back?”
“I’m considering all the options.”
The waitress brought him a paper plate covered in foil. He finished off his drink and said, “Come on back to the station anytime to give your statement. I’ll just be having lunch.” I told him I’d be over when I finished my drink.
I wrote my account of trespassing at Rookwood in about fifteen minutes. When I was done, Chris read through it and asked if there was anything else I wanted to add. I said no.
“It can be anything — not just what you saw at the house. If you’ve heard anything, seen anything else that might pertain to the case.”
My cheeks reddened slightly, and I forced myself to smile warmly at him. “Gotcha. I think that’s all I’ve got.”
“You can add to your statement later, if anything else occurs to you.”
“Okay, thanks.” I rose to leave.
“Oh, Lucie, one more thing.” I turned around; he wore a goofy, sheepish grin that made him look ten years younger. “My mom asked after yours. When you talk to her, tell her Deb says ‘hi.’”
“Of course, I will.”
While my laundry was going at the Wash-O-Mat, I sat in the coffee shop with my laptop. I wanted to make sense of what I knew about Jacob Swenson and about the Colony. Katie had said that Tuck sometimes helped around Rookwood. Sister J. had known Julia. Maggie was a nurse — she may have tried to help Jacob. Then there was Katie, who had been in Rookwood often, when we were girls. I wasn’t sure about other members of the Colony, but I listed as many of them as I could. Tuck was at the top. But I didn’t know his full name. Basic search results for “Tuck + Marrow Colony,” and “Tuck + Orwell Island” brought up no matches. I tried the AP News Archive. I worked my way through different facts I knew about him. He had gone to UC Berkeley. He had protested divestment in fossil fuels. He had worked for Greenpeace. I tried “Tucker.” And that got me a piece from an article from thirteen years ago about activists arrested for blocking passage of an oil rig headed for the Gulf of Mexico. “Alex James Tucker, 22” was one of the activists arrested in the protest. There wasn’t a picture, so I did more searches under that name. The first hit was an article about an arson at a logging camp in northern California. I scanned the article — the crime had caused millions in damages to logging equipment and a truck driver had nearly burned alive while he slept in his cab. The crime was attributed to the Earth Liberation Front. A raid on a house in Arcata had led to warrants for three young men. “Alex James Tucker, 24,” was the only man not in custody. There was a mugshot from his previous arrest: a clean-shaven, young white guy in a polo shirt, more frat boy than salt of the earth; but the self-righteous pride in his blue eyes was the same. It was Tuck.