“How are you doing this?” he demanded.
“Age has its privileges.” She ran the back of a single nail up his length, adjusting it slightly, making it perfectly perpendicular. “As does youth.”
Mircea wasn’t seeing a lot of privileges right now. The power that held him held all of him, making it impossible for him to do anything but lie there and shudder all over, uselessly. And watch as she put a dainty, silk-covered foot on the bed, and toyed with the ribbon holding up her stockings.
They were fine white silk, instead of the more common linen or wool. And were knitted to better follow the shape of the leg, instead of woven. They had a pattern of vines and flowers across the tops and more down the sides, and had probably cost a month’s salary for a laborer.
But that wasn’t what had his mouth going dry.
He wanted to pull those garters off with his teeth. He wanted his hand to be the one to roll down the stockings, revealing dimpled knees, sweetly rounded calves, and trim ankles. He wanted his fingers to caress the arch of the foot before slowly pulling them off, exposing dainty white flesh, so sweet and so forbidden—
The toenails were gilded.
He closed his eyes.
“The secret of passion is to make her want it,” she murmured. “Bring her to the brink and then deny her, over and over again. Until she is almost mad with desire. Until she can think of nothing and no one else.”
“Is that what you do?” Mircea gritted out.
“Of course.
“It’s torture.”
“It works.”
“So does shared passion. So does genuine affection. So does mutual respect—”
“That is for when you care about someone. Not for what we do.”
“You don’t care about your clients?”
“No. And neither will you, if you’re smart.”
Mircea started to reply, but then the stocking, still warm from her body, was draped around his length.
And the words died in his throat.
“Make her forget the other men she knows,” Auria murmured, sliding the soft mass slowly around him. “The other experiences she’s had. They pale in comparison with this. There is only her, and you, and the need . . . growing . . . aching . . . desperate. . . .”
Oh, he was desperate, Mircea thought, straining with everything he had against the hold she had on him.
And going exactly nowhere.
“. . . yet unfulfilled,” Auria said, sounding amused. “Give just enough to madden, never enough to satisfy.”
“How about enough to live?” Mircea snarled, because a human would have had a heart attack by now.
“I don’t think sexual frustration is one of the ways to kill a vampire.”
“Maybe they need to update the list!”
“Maybe you should tell the senator that, when next you see her.”
“I don’t know that I’ll be seeing her—”
“It’s only been four days,” she told him. “Just wait.”
“—nor that I want to.”
It was the truth. An inconvenient one, since convocation would be over soon and he was supposed to make his escape. An escape that would not work if he didn’t have a patron willing to protect him—and Bezio, and Jerome, if he wished to come—in Paris. He needed to see her, needed to somehow convince her to take them on, three useless vampires.
But it wasn’t what he wanted to do. She was too powerful, too overwhelming. He was afraid of what she might want, and what he might get drawn into as a result.
Mircea might not know what he wanted from this new life, but he was very clear on what he didn’t. And he didn’t want to be drawn into another political dynasty. To be under someone else’s control, to have their rules hedge him in, their decisions move his hand. To have their ambitions supersede everything he might value.
He’d been that; he’d done that. His whole life had been as a pawn, being moved about by someone else’s will. His death wasn’t going to be, too.
“I don’t want a master,” he said, and Auria laughed.
“I think you actually mean it.”
“I do. Why is that funny?”
“It’s not. It’s . . . ironic. You don’t care anything about the opportunity you’ve been given, while I would give everything I have—”
“For what?”
“For a master’s touch,” she said, and straddled him.
“You could have any master you want.” Mircea might not know vampire society, but he knew men. And, hell, probably most women. He couldn’t see too many people kicking Auria out of bed—or denying her whatever she asked.
But she didn’t seem to agree.
“Not any.”
“Who would turn you down?”
“One who already did.”
It took Mircea a moment to realize what she meant. “But he threw you out! Tried to kill you—”
“Doesn’t matter. It is our nature.”
“It wouldn’t be mine!”
“You don’t have a master,” Auria pointed out. “How would you know?”
“But others here have. And I don’t see any of them mourning the ones who threw them out!”
“I think Jerome does, a little. Although at least he has the consolation of death. His master is gone; he cannot get him back. They say it makes it easier.”
“But . . . Paulo—”
“And Zaneta and Danieli and the rest. Yes, I know. It doesn’t take everyone the same way.”
“It would seem to be damned rare!”
“Not really. I would say the opposite, in fact.”
“Then where are all the heartbroken vamp—” Mircea began, before seeing the truth in her face.
“Where do you think? You know how many die here, every day. How many more never make it this far? And many of them are not hunted. There are those who find that sort of thing amusing, certainly. But others simply find them . . . sad. They don’t want them, but they don’t want to harm them, either. Some even help them get this far.”
Trust him not to have found any of those, Mircea thought, grimacing. But he should have known there would be some. Vampires weren’t the two-dimensional monsters of his childhood fables, mindless, greedy, and savage. But a complicated mix, some decent, some anything but, just like the humans they had once been.
It had been Auria’s luck, and his, to see the worst side of the race. But there was good in it, too. He’d seen that as well, recently. And there could be more of it, much more, if—
His thoughts broke off when she suddenly took him inside her, in a single, unexpected movement that left him gasping.
But not in pleasure. After being deprived for so long, after aching for so long, the overwhelming wash of sensation was almost another form of torture. One made worse by the fact that he still couldn’t move.
He couldn’t slide his hands up the back of her thighs, and grasp the taut mounds above. Couldn’t kiss the softer mounds in front, or mouth the pale pink nipples. Couldn’t touch the long line of her body as she stretched up, finding the ring at the peak of his sloping ceiling, which had once supported a lantern.
And which now supported the weight of a beautiful courtesan as she began to undulate.
She closed her eyes, one slender arm holding the ring, the other draped behind her head, holding back the glorious weight of her hair. Letting him see everything he couldn’t have. Like the faint sheen of sweat that began to slick her skin. . . .
In desperation, Mircea looked away, but it didn’t help.
There was nothing else like the feel of a woman’s body. No other pleasure came close to the supple, yielding strength of it, the warm, satiny feel of it, the rich, intoxicating scent. He didn’t think he could ever get enough of the little sounds they made, the feel of them squirming against him, the surge of pride that came from making them—
“God!” Mircea almost came off the bed when a small tendril of her power suddenly coiled around his base, denying his release.