“Why don’t I like her?” I asked him.
“Basically, you think she’s fake and trying to be your mother,” Will said. “Something along those lines. And you said she smelled funny, like an old lady. One time, she bought your dad a gray fedora for his birthday. You thought it made him look, uh, effeminate, and then you donated it to Goodwill without telling him. To this day, I don’t think he knows what happened to it.”
“I gave away my dad’s hat?” What a weird thing for me to do.
“Well, you really were not fond of that fedora,” Will answered. “Your dad would probably look better in a bowler.”
“Do you like her?” I asked him.
“I’ve only met her once, but she seemed all right. She’s not gonna be my stepmother, though.”
“But my dad…” It was hard to talk about Dad this way. “He really loves her, doesn’t he?”
“Yes, Chief, I suspect he does.”
On Wednesday, Dad suggested we go to Rosa Rivera’s house in Pleasantville for dinner. Since our meeting (reunion?) seemed unavoidable, I agreed. Besides, I was grounded anyway.
When she answered the door, the first thing I noticed was that she definitely looked older than Dad. She had her black hair in a tight bun and was wearing her work clothes, which consisted of black tights, a black leotard, a black shawl tied around her waist, and high-heeled shoes. Pretty much everything she wore was black except for her lipstick and the rose tucked behind her ear, which were both a dramatic crimson. Dancing had given her really excellent posture. I stood up straighter just looking at her.
She greeted me before she even greeted Dad. “Naomi,” she said, throwing her arms around me and kissing me on both cheeks. “How are you, my baby?” She didn’t have much of an accent, but all her y’s came out sounding like j’s—How are joo?
I thought about the question. “Cold,” I said finally.
“Come inside, and I will try to warm you up.”
Her place was the opposite of Dad’s house. It was bursting with color, almost as if she had been given a mandate to use every crayon in the Crayola box at least once: turquoise walls, a fuchsia velvet sofa, a golden chandelier with midnight blue crystals, black-and-white-checkered marble floors, and red roses everywhere.
“Will you live here?” I asked Dad.
“It hasn’t all been settled yet, but I think she’ll probably move in with us.”
I wondered what Dad’s beige house would look like after they were married.
While Rosa was in the kitchen getting me a cup of tea, I examined the many framed photographs that were scattered about the room. One was of my dad and her. A few were of Rosa Rivera at dancing competitions. She also had three or so pictures of herself pregnant, presumably with the subjects of the bulk of the photos: two girls at many different ages doing the usual sorts of childhood activities.
“Those are her twin daughters, Frida and Georgia,” Dad said. “They’re both in college now.”
“How old is Rosa Rivera anyway?” I whispered to Dad.
“Forty-six,” Rosa Rivera answered as she came into the room with a teapot on a tray. “Your father is my younger man. He is six years my junior.” Yunior. “My first husband was thirty years older than me, so it all works itself out, yes?” Jes.
She set the tray on an enormous lime-green hassock and joined me at the fireplace, where she put her arm around my shoulders. It was just the way she was—always kissing and touching you. My instinct was to move away, but for some reason I didn’t.
With her other hand, she pointed to one of the dance competition photos. “This was my husband. He was also my dance partner for fifteen years.”
“What happened to him?”
“He died,” she said, blowing a kiss to the photograph.
“You really like pictures of yourself pregnant,” I commented.
“It is true. Some people do not like it, but I loved being pregnant. I would not have minded being pregnant even more than I was, but my job made this difficult.” Yob.
I thought of my mother and how she had never been pregnant with me.
“You are shivering,” Rosa Rivera said to me. She put her hands around mine. “They are like ice!” she said, more to Dad than me.
“She’s been that way since she got out of the hospital,” Dad told her.
Rosa Rivera left the room and came back with a rainbow-striped silk scarf. It must have been twelve feet long. She was able to drape it loosely around my neck five times. It smelled like her.
“Better?” she asked.
“Warmer, at least.”
“It suits you,” she said.
I didn’t think so, but whatever.
“You will take it when you leave.”
“I couldn’t,” I said. It must have been really expensive. I didn’t want her damn scarf anyway.
Rosa Rivera shrugged her super-straight shoulders. “I give everything away. I believe, Naomi, that your possessions possess you, do you know?”
I wasn’t sure.
Dad went into the kitchen to make the salad, leaving Rosa Rivera and me alone.
I looked at her and wondered what I hadn’t liked about her before. I decided to ask. “My dad says we don’t get along,” I said.
Rosa Rivera smiled at me conspiratorially. “Possibly. But I am an optimist, and I always believed you would come round.”
She was wrong. I hadn’t yet, and I didn’t like her telling me that I had. I didn’t want optimism; I wanted honesty. I unlooped the scarf from around my neck.
“Naomi,” Rosa said, “I know this all must be very frightening for you.” She put her hand on my arm, but I shook her off.
“What the hell would you know about it?” I asked.
I didn’t wait for her reply. I just left her standing in her Technicolor living room, still reaching out her hands to me.
In the car on the way back, Dad was unusually quiet, and I suspected that Rosa had probably told him about my walking out on her before dinner.
He didn’t say anything until we were back on our street. “Why didn’t you let Rosa Rivera give you that scarf?” he asked.
I told him how it wasn’t my style.
“Thought it looked nice on you, kid.”
“Honestly, Dad,” I said, “it’s hard enough figuring out anything about myself without other people dictating my taste to me.”
“I’m sure it is. But in any case, that wasn’t what I was saying. I think I was talking courtesy, if you know what I mean?” All this was said casually.
He turned into our driveway. “Because sometimes, when someone wants to give you a gift, the best thing to do is accept it. Just an infinitesimal something I’ve learned that I thought I’d pass on to you.”
I remembered how Dad, when he was still married to Mom, was always returning the presents she’d get him. Even if it was small, like a sweater. I used to think, just keep the stupid sweater, Dad. She obviously wanted you to have it. But my dad had been raised without much money, so he could be kind of strange around presents. Obviously, Mom knew his history, but even as a little kid, I could tell all his returning hurt her feelings.
I wondered if Rosa had felt that way when I tore that scarf off.
The worst of it was, what did I really know about my taste anyway? It had been a nice scarf and I had been cold, and if I was honest, maybe I had only been using that taste excuse as a way to hurt her feelings.
“Rosa wanted me to apologize to you,” Dad said before we got out of the car.
“For what?”
“Something about your amnesia. Something about her saying she knew how you felt.”