With my second cigarette, I began laughing at myself, picturing my crude attempts to break through the shell of symbolic representation. While I was puffing away, an indescribable urge began to take hold of me. This feeling increased until, upon stubbing out the cigarette in the ashtray, I rose and approached the shiny sphere of frustration. Then, I lifted my foot and brought the heel of my boot down on the thing with as much force as I could muster. To my surprise, the ball collapsed, splitting open in three places and crushing down into a flattened, ragged disk of steel. I stepped back and inspected my work. There had been a degree of satisfaction in the act, but in all I was no wiser than before.
"What are you doing, Cley?" asked Anotine.
The voice momentarily frightened me. I looked up to see her standing in the entrance, wearing a puzzled expression.
"Looking for the moment," I said, and forced a smile.
She shook her head. "Leave the experiments to me."
I nodded and looked away, embarrassed at the thought of how I had gawked at her body through the night.
"Come, we have work to do," she said.
Imagine my relief when instead of heading down the hallway to the laboratory, she turned and went back through the entrance into the sunlight. I hurried after her.
She walked quickly, leading me up and down stairways, across terraces, through a labyrinth of winding alleys lined with flowering vines drooping down from planters situated high above. It was the first time I had been outside in the sunlight since arriving, and now I could see just how beautiful and complex the village was.
I looked ahead to where Anotine waited for me at the bottom of a short set of steps. She wore a loosely fitted, white-muslin dress that the breeze had its way with and the sunlight had no difficulty penetrating. Her hair was tied back and woven together in an intricate braid.
As I caught up to her, she said, "You had a difficult time with the experiment yesterday."
"I apologize for not being more help to you," I said.
"There was a period after I took you from the chair that I thought you might expire on me," she said. "The other specimens never exhibited such a dire reaction to it."
"Why do you think that was?" I asked.
She began walking again, and I could see that we were now heading for the field that lay between the wood and the terraced village.
"There seems to be something quite different about you," she said. "You are more like my colleagues and I than the other specimens that were sent. You are more …I suppose I would say substantial."
"Are you saying I am thick?"
She laughed and placed her hand on my shoulder for a moment. "No. I can't quite put my finger on it, but you have a kind of aura about you. You actually seem to have feelings."
"I do," I said.
"Yes. After having to lie with you last night in order to make sure your heart rate and breathing returned to normal, I determined that it would not be right to subject you to the chair again. I'm not looking to discover death, only the present."
I could not help but smile.
"I dreamt about you after I fell asleep," she said. "I'll have you know I never dream. As long as I have known Doctor Hellman, he has always spoken to me about his dream theories. I understood the concepts, but I always doubted their validity because I had never had the experience. Quite startling, it is."
We reached the wood and entered it along a dirt path. I could see now what I had missed in the darkness the night I had arrived. The leaves that fell everywhere around us, twirling slowly in the breeze, covering the ground, were not brown and dead, heralding the approach of autumn. They came from the branches with the deepest green.
Anotine saw me stop to watch their descent. I stooped over and picked one up. "They began falling only last week," she said. "Something is seriously wrong with the island."
"Nunnly told me it was disintegrating," I said.
"I'd rather not think about it," she told me, and began walking again.
"Can you tell me what your dream was then?" I asked.
"I saw you wrestling a monster," she said. "You were fighting for your life. It was very troubling."
"A monster?" I asked.
"Yes, a creature with horns and fur, great flapping wings and sharp teeth. It was much like the one that visited the island years ago."
"The creature had actually been here?" I asked.
"A foul beast—it flew in from out of the clouds one afternoon. We were all quite frightened. Nunnly and Brisden threw rocks at it. The Fetch was beside itself, flying about it, biting at its back and arms."
"What came of it?" I asked.
"They managed to chase it off, but for weeks afterward we lived in fear that it would return."
"And how did I fare in the dream?" I asked.
"I think you lost," she said quietly.
It was obvious that the experience had upset her, so I did not ask for more details. After rounding a turn in the path, we came to a grassy clearing in the wood near the rim of the island. Doctor Hellman stood there, dressed in a black suit and coat, staring up as if studying the wispy clouds that moved slowly across the sun. His right hand rested on his beard, and in his left, he held the handle of a small leather bag the same color as his attire.
Behind him stood an enormous wooden contraption, resembling a catapult of old, which at its base contained a large flywheel full of rope, like a giant's fishing reel. This rope threaded through metal rings embedded sequentially along a thick beam that jutted up at a forty-five-degree angle and out over the edge. Attached to the end of the beam was a large pulley through which the rope was fitted. At the end of the rope was a wicker basket, like a gondola for a balloon, big enough to hold a horse. There was also a crank handle and gear train affixed to the farside of the machine.
"Good day," he said to us when he noticed our approach.
"Are you ready, Doctor?" asked Anotine.
"The question is," said Hellman, "is Mr. Cley ready?"
I felt a seed of nausea begin to sprout in my stomach. "An experiment?" I asked.
Anotine laughed.
"Nothing to be afraid of Cley," said the Doctor.
"Will it cause irreparable damage?" I asked.
"Only to your sense of self-importance," he said.
"Don't worry," said Anotine. "The Doctor only needs you to help him with his instruments."
"Let's go," said Hellman. "Anotine, you will work the crank. Try not to drop us in the ocean."
"I'll do my best," she said.
"Your assurance is underwhelming," he said as he stepped toward the basket, which dangled a foot off the edge. Leaning over carefully, he opened a small door in the side of the waist-high compartment. "You first, Cley," he said, and swept his hand in front of him, motioning for me to climb into the basket.
I stepped forward and then hesitated.
"Don't look" called Anotine.
"Where are we going?" I asked, my legs beginning to feel weak.