‘You’ll never get rid of me, baby boy. I’m your mama; you need me. And besides, I’m not afraid of you. I kept your father under control, and he was a mean son of a bitch. He learnt from me, you hear me? He learnt tricks from me. So don’t get ideas, Emile. And if anyone should be afraid of anyone, you should be afraid of me.’ She laughed, a booming from the guts.
He could feel the muscles at the back of his neck tighten, but kept his face expressionless. It irked him that his mother had such control. It plagued him that he did, indeed, stand in awe of her. That she terrified him. Her bulk had borne down on his whole life, her corruption fascinating and contagious. There was nothing he could think, or do, that would be new to her. Nothing that would shock her. She had the knowledge from the old country and used it with the swinging confidence of the totally corrupt.
He smiled at her with closely mimicked affection. From his earliest memories, Emile recalled how his father had told him about Mama Gala. Had spoken in revered tones about the stout woman who looked so benign and was so poisonously callous. Back in Nigeria she had been almost revered and when Dwappa Senior invited her London he had been half surprised, half proud, when she accepted his marriage proposal. There was no woman as casually cruel, as naturally unfeeling. Behind the round dark-skinned face which pretended kindness there was a terrible cunning. Mama Gala knew only too well how her appearance deceived people. No one would suspect her of anything sinister. By day she ran a health food shop – that was all. Talked to her neighbours, made jokes with the local police, waddled into the park with next door’s toddlers. Known for her kindness, her advice.
But Emile Dwappa knew the other side. Knew that when the shop was closed at night, the lights turned off, that benign face dropped its pretence. Then Mama Gala moved upstairs to the flat above. She harried the old woman, who no one ever referred to by name, and ran her hands over the chopped herbs, making pouches of coarse leather and filling them with potions she knew the superstitious would buy. Mixing cereal with ground-up bone, animal urine and powdered herbs, she muttered incantations over the table top, her face sweating with the effort, her flabby arms wobbling in their short cotton sleeves. Once she had kept a turtle in a fish tank – the reptile huge, too big for the space, the water murky in days. Mama Gala had lifted the creature out with one jerk, slamming it on the table and driving a knife repeatedly into its soft underbelly. Within seconds she had been covered in blood, smelling of it.
Gigantic and grotesque, she could have been amusing, but her expression, and the aura she gave off, was fetid. How many times had Dwappa seen her greet people who had hurried up the narrow stairs to the dim room above? How many gullible people had been sold potions and then threatened into silence, warned not to talk about her business outside? And God, no one ever did. Not more than once, anyway. There had been one young man, a year earlier, who Dwappa had hired to pimp for him. Bony and glib, he had hung around Mama Gala’s shop doorway and smoked cannabis on the street outside, making obscene hand signals to the girls who walked past. Not overly bright, he had never believed in Mama Gala’s covert reputation, and had made jokes about voodoo without realising that for her it was more than power, it was a religion.
Soon after the lanky pimp went missing. Three months later his remains were found in Shoreditch, a nail driven through his skull. No one talked about Mama Gala after that … Wary, Dwappa studied his mother. Wondered how it was that her weight obliterated her wrinkles, belying her age and making a malevolent child out of her.
‘I want you to get that addict out from upstairs,’ she said curtly. ‘The bitch will bring the police round. We don’t need that. I don’t want anyone drawing attention to this place, you hear me?’ She lost her patience fast. ‘You said you were working on something. That you were going to make a fucking fortune—’
‘I am. I’ve got a couple of things going.’
She put her head on one side and tapped his cheek. ‘Pretty boy. Mummy’s pretty boy. Like your daddy, hah?’ Her hand moved away, her expression curdling. ‘My queer little baby.’
He flinched, flushing, and she laughed, making a clumsy child out of him. Reminding him of when she had found him, years earlier, with his best friend. Didn’t do to be gay in Brixton, she had told him. Didn’t do to be homosexual when you were the son of Mama Gala … She had wielded the information like a machete. Every argument ended in a sexual insult; every attempt to stand up to her was hobbled by a homophobic joke. Mama Gala didn’t care if her son was gay or not, but she knew that he cared. And she knew that if people found out that Emile Dwappa was a fag, his reputation was over.
She never said that she would betray him. She didn’t have to. Emile Dwappa knew his mother. He hated his mother. He feared his mother – and that kept him in line.
‘You get enough money to get us out of here. You promised me that.’ She narrowed her eyes. ‘Or you think you make your fortune and up and leave your mama? That what you want, boy? To leave your mama?’
‘I never said I’d leave you.’
‘You’d die without me. Remember, I’m the only person in the world who gives a shit about you. Without me, you’re alone. Poor queer baby on your own. There’s no one to look out for you but me. So you get us money, hey? You get that new house you promised.’
‘I’m working on it.’
‘Working on it?’ Slowly she shook her head, her expression unflinching, feral. ‘Well, work harder.’
26
‘I’ll come home,’ Abigail said simply over the line from France. ‘I’ll get the first flight I can.’
Two days earlier she had hurried over to France to be with her father, who had had a stroke. They had never been particularly close, but she hadn’t wanted him to be alone in hospital. And besides, arrangements had to be made for a nurse to stay with him when she returned to England. Her dutiful response had met with unexpected affection, the stroke releasing some of her father’s usual reserve. Indeed – to Abigail’s amazement – he had even talked about her mother, long since estranged from both of them.
But now Abigail’s whole concern was centred on her lover. ‘Darling, did you hear me?’
‘Stay with your father,’ Ben replied, his voice low as he sat, head bowed, in the laboratory of the Whitechapel Hospital. ‘He needs you.’
‘You need me too.’
‘No, not like he does,’ Ben replied, trying to get the image of his murdered brother out of his mind. The image which had haunted him all the time he was talking to the Spanish police. The image which had plagued him on the flight home to London. The image which he knew would never – however long he lived – lessen or diminish. It was burned into him. ‘I should have got there earlier—’
‘It wasn’t your fault,’ Abigail said softly. ‘Leon was always struggling—’
‘He was brilliant.’
‘Yes,’ she agreed. ‘He was brilliant and you loved him and he loved you. He thought the world of you, Ben. But your brother was troubled.’
‘You think he killed himself?’
She faltered on the line. ‘You said that the police told you he’d killed himself.’
‘Leon didn’t commit suicide.’
‘Ben,’ she said gently, ‘he’d tried it twice before.’
‘It wasn’t suicide.’
‘All right, so what else could it be?’
He didn’t answer her. Had already decided that Abigail was to be left in ignorance. The less he told her, the safer she would be. In fact, Ben was relieved that she had been called to France, away from London. Away from him and any connection to Leon Golding. Because his brother hadn’t killed himself. He had been murdered. Just like Diego Martinez.
‘Abi?’
‘Yes?’
‘I have to go now. I’ll call you later.’
‘Will you be all right?’
He nodded, then remembered that she couldn’t see him. ‘I’ll be OK.’
‘Make sure you eat something,’ she said, clinging to the phone. ‘I wish I was with you.’