"What if they all feel that way?"
"I …" Miles rubbed his forehead. "I'm glad you talked to me."
"Only because you were the one person I knew whose knowledge of Illyan had a really long baseline. Otherwise . . . I'm not sure I should be talking about it at all. Not outside of ImpSec."
"Nor inside of ImpSec either. Though there's Haroche. He's worked directly under Illyan for almost as long as I did."
"That may be why I found it difficult to approach him."
"Well . . . talk to me again, huh? If anything else disturbs you."
"Maybe it's all hot air," said Galeni, not very hopefully.
Miles could recognize denial at a hundred meters, these days. "Yeah. Urn . . . you want to change your mind about that drink?"
"Yeah," sighed Galeni.
Two mornings after this, Miles was deeply involved in an inventory of his closets' limited civilian contents, making a list of gaps and wondering if it would be simpler to just hire a valet and say "Take care of it," when his bedroom comconsole chimed. He ignored it for a minute, then clambered up off the floor next to the pile of discarded clothing and slouched to answer it.
Illyan's stern face appeared, and Miles's spine automatically straightened. "Yes, sir?"
"Where are you?" Illyan asked abruptly.
Miles stared. "Vorkosigan House. You just rang me here."
"I know that!" said Illyan irritably. "Why weren't you here, at 0900 as ordered?"
"Excuse me. What orders?"
"My orders. 'Be there at 0900 sharp and bring your notepad. You'll like this one. It's a breakout.' I thought you'd be early."
Miles recognized the style of an Illyanesque verbatim self-quote, all right. The content rang a very faint bell. It was an alarm bell. "What's this all about?"
"Something my Cetagandan analysts have cooked up, and spent a week pitching to me. It could be a very high-result, low-cost bit of tactical judo. There's a gentleman by the name of Colonel Tremont whom they think may be the best man to give the fading Marilacan resistance a shot in the arm. There's just one little hitch. He's presently a guest in the Cetagandan prison camp on Dagoola IV. The experience should have given him lots of motivation, if he can be freed. Anonymously, of course. I plan to give you considerable discretion as to the method, but those are the results I want: a new leader for Maniac, and no connection with Barrayar."
Miles didn't merely recognize the mission, he could swear those had been the exact words that Illyan had first used to describe it. At a highly secret morning conference at ImpSec HQ, long ago . . .
"Simon. The Dagoola mission was completed five years back. The Marilacans threw the last of the Cetagandans off their planet last year. You fired me over a month ago. I don't work for you anymore."
"Have you lost your mind?" Illyan demanded, and stopped abruptly. They stared at one another.
Illyan's face changed. Froze. "Excuse me," he muttered, and cut the com.
Miles just sat, staring at the empty vid plate. He'd never before felt his heart pound like this while sitting perfectly still in an empty room. Galeni's report had worried him.
Now he was terrified.
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
Miles sat unmoving for ten minutes. Galeni had been right. Hell, Galeni hadn't guessed the half of it. Illyan wasn't just forgetting things that were there, he was remembering things that weren't. Flashbacks?
Hey, if the man can't tell what year it is, I see a way you could get your old job back. . . .
It wasn't very funny.
What to do? Miles was surely the one person on Barrayar who dared not say a word in criticism of Illyan. It would be attributed instantly to a post-termination snit, or worse, attempted vengeance.
But he could not ignore the situation, not knowing what he knew now. Orders flowed from Illyan's office, and people obeyed them. Trustingly. Thirty years of accumulated trust was a bank it would take time to break. How much damage could Illyan do in the meantime? Now, of all times? Suppose Illyan flashed back to some of the messier moments of the Komarr Revolt?
And how long had this been going on, before Galeni noticed? It seemed sudden, but perhaps it was only suddenly visible. How many weeks—months—of orders were tainted with this unreliability? Somebody was going to have to go back over every message that had emanated from Illyan's office all the way back to—when? Someone. But not me.
And was the malfunction sited in the chip, or in Illyan's own neural tissue? Or was it some subtle synergistic dysfunction? That was a medical and bioengineering question, and it would take a technical expert to answer it. Again, not me.
In the end, he turned to exactly the solution, if you could call it that, which Galeni had fallen back on. Bounce the information to Someone Else, and hope they'll do something. So how long was it going to take the committee of concerned Illyan-observers to stop tossing the hot ball back and forth, and unite in effective action? It's not my decision. I wish to hell it were.
Reluctantly, he punched in a comconsole code. "This is Lord Vorkosigan. Connect me to the Office of Domestic Affairs, please," he told the ImpSec corporal who answered.
General Haroche wasn't in. "Have him call me as soon as you can reach him," Miles told the office clerk. "Its urgent."
He turned back to his piles of clothing while he waited. He scarcely knew which ones to pitch and which ones to put back. Haroche didn't call. Miles tried his office two more times before he finally ran the man down.
Haroche frowned impatiently at him from the comconsole imager. "Yes? What is it, Lord Vorkosigan?"
Miles took a deep breath. "Simon Illyan called me a short time ago. I think you should review the call."
"Excuse me?"
"Go up to Illyan s office, and get his secretary to replay the call for you. In fact, you should both see it. I know it was recorded; it's standard operating procedure."
"Why?"
Indeed. Why should Haroche take the word of a security pariah whom he had witnessed his respected superior Illyan not only discharge, but personally escort from his HQ? "General, it's really important, it's really urgent, and I really would rather you judged it for yourself."
"You're being theatrically mysterious, Lord Vorkosigan." Haroche frowned unamused disapproval.
"I'm sorry." Miles kept his voice flat and level. "You'll understand when you see it."
Haroche raised one eyebrow. "Oh? Maybe I will, then."
"Thank you." Miles cut the com. No use in asking Haroche to call back after viewing the vid; it would be out of Miles's hands for certain, then.
There. He'd done it, done the right thing, as nearly as possible under the circumstances.
He felt quite sick.
Now: should he call Gregor? It was unfair to let the Emperor be blindsided in this, but God . . .
Haroche would do so soon enough, Miles supposed. As soon as he caught up with events and put Illyan under proper medical care, Haroche would by default and the chain of command become acting Chief of ImpSec, and his immediate next duty would be to notify Gregor of this unpleasant turn of events, and determine the Emperor's will in the matter. It would all be over before the day was done.