Sir Percy became as one who had not spoken, and Harriet continued her way to her youngest son, who was sitting on the floor, leaning his head against Agatha.
“Gregory, are you coming to have a talk with your mother?”
Agatha looked up with an emotional change of face.
“It is a party, and we do not talk to our family,” said Gregory.
Harriet went on with an even step to the hall, where she paused and lifted her hands to her head. Matthew had come out before her, and was reading a letter at the table.
“The post has come, has it, my dear?” said his mother.
“Yes, the post has come,” said Matthew, speaking as if at the end of his endurance. “And I am reading a letter from Camilla. And I will read a letter when I choose, and where I choose, and from whom I choose.”
Harriet recoiled with fear in her eyes, and in a moment went suddenly and swiftly up the stairs. Matthew returned to the drawing-room, where Dominic was engaging in talk with Mrs. Christy.
“You may consider, Mrs. Christy, my criticism misplaced in a guest in the house; but I find myself out of sympathy with the trend of modern conversation. Taking it as instanced by the bandying of words upon such a subject as taking our own lives, I venture that my host and hostess would be with me.”
Mrs. Christy glanced about her, and offered the degree of response suitable to the conditions, by a gesture.
“I always think it is a proof of sex equality that women commit suicide as well as men,” said Geraldine, sauntering up in boldness.
“I don’t mind anything about suicide but leaving letters afterwards,” said Mellicent. “It is ill-conducted to write a letter, and go at once beyond the risk of an answer.”
“And why even refer to it?” said Griselda. “It can’t matter what we do, if it is reasonable to do that.”
Dominic stood dubious before the result of his words.
“It is a satisfying subject,” said Rachel. “It makes us feel we are talking about ourselves. We have the importance of making a decision and the credit of settling on the nobler side. And I feel so equal to other people, with suicide possible for them and not for me. I may not have less life before me than they have.”
“I choose the nobler side!” cried Geraldine.
“The years are not too many, and there is a great deal to be done,” said Agatha, setting out her own point of view. “Gregory, is that your mother calling you?”
Harriet’s voice was coming from the staircase, unfamiliar, repressed, imploring, with at once a guarded and urgent sound.
“Gregory, Gregory! Come to me, come to me. I need you, I need you, my son.”
“Whatever is it?” said Jermyn.
“Nothing. Mother! One of her moods,” said Godfrey. “My wife does not sleep too well,” he added to his guests. “It gives us all great concern. My youngest son has the best touch with her. She is right to call for him. We have to be content to serve her in different ways.”
Chapter XI
Gregory Had Reached the floor above and was leading his mother back into her room.
“Gregory,” she said in a rapid, breathless voice, clinging to his arm and keeping her eyes down, “I have done something I should not have done. I have taken what will do me harm, what will part me from you if it does its work. I cannot face it, now I come to it. I want to stay with you all. I must have my life; I am only fifty-six; I thought I was old. Do something to save me. Send for Antony this instant. In a second it may be too late.”
“Do you mean you have swallowed something dangerous?” said her son.
“Yes, I have. I have taken something that is fatal, and its action must be stopped. Send for Antony, if you want to save your mother. You want to save me, don’t you?”
“What is the thing to do at once? Have you taken the first precautions?”
“No, no, send for him, send for him,” said Harriet. “I can’t be left to manage this for myself, not this. I am in mortal danger, and I am alone, alone. How alone we are when we do it! I never knew. I wish I had known. Send for him, himself; that is what he said. I will do anything in the world you say, I will do it instantly — I want to do it, don’t I? — if you will once do that.”
Gregory rushed downstairs and into the drawing-room.
“Mother feels very ill! She wants Dufferin sent for this moment. She is very frightened. How can we get him at once?”
“Haslam, my horses are the fastest,” said Sir Percy, suddenly seeming another man. “They are best in my own hands, and they should be ready, as this is our hour to leave. I will be back with Dufferin in the shortest possible time. Meanwhile we will leave you your house to yourselves. Rachel, you will stay; you may be of use.”
“Sir Godfrey,” said Dominic, “if words of sympathy could be of any avail, at this moment that has descended on you with crushing force and suddenness—”
“But they can’t,” said Rachel, making a way for the family to come together. “It is just as you were going to say. Truth often goes without saying. You must know that, as you speak so much truth.”
“I feel so useless,” said Mrs. Christy. “There is nothing more terrible than helplessness. If I could feel I had done some good, I could go with a light heart.”
“Let Mr. Spong take you home, and go in that way,” said Rachel. “Don’t talk about helplessness when you can do so much. You are right that nothing would be more terrible. Mr. Spong, we may rely on you to see Mrs. Christy to her door?”
“Lady Hardisty, it will be a privilege,” said Dominic, bowing in open recognition that his scheme of words must be lost.
“I think we shall do what good we can by not troubling anyone to say good-bye,” said Agatha, moving to the door. “If there is anything in our power, we are in readiness.”
“And in eagerness,” said Geraldine, looking back.
“I will see you home. I will be as useful as Spong,” said Bellamy.
“All kinds of people are the same at a time like this,” said Mellicent, when she was alone with her stepmother.
“It is a good thing we are all helpful in trouble. I do admire human nature,” said Rachel. “I wish they would send for me. Your father will come back, and find I am not indispensable. In a few minutes it will be too late.”
“Can you guess at all what it is?” said Mellicent.
“No,” said Rachel. “Something was said at dinner. No, it was nothing; the sound of her voice brought it back to me. It was nothing, my dear. I cannot guess at all.”
Harriet faced her family standing in the open space of her room, with a countenance of grave resolve and her eyes fixed and calm. She saw at a glance, marking to herself that her brain still worked in its normal way, that Gregory had told the truth. She walked to meet her husband, and stood with her hands on his shoulders.
“Godfrey, my husband, if these should be our last moments together on earth, my word from my heart is that you have been utterly kind and good to me. It is the one word I could ever say. I give it to you to take with you, as the only thing that could be said to you by me.”
Godfrey, who had been gazing into her face, made an effort to speak, and took her hand and held it.
Harriet left it in his, and turned to her children.
“My Matthew, my Jermyn, my Gregory, my little boys and my grown sons, I say to you that you have been at the root of all my happiness. I would have had nothing changed in any one of you, no word you have said to me, no look you have given me, no action you have taken for my sake or in spite of me.” She put her gaze full on Matthew, to yield him the weight of her words, and giving her other hand to Gregory, to mark the open difference here, turned her eyes to her daughter.