I moved a little in the shadows, slowly, and back and toward the center of the hut. In moving slowly, one tends to convey, on a very basic level, that one is not intending harm; to be sure, even predators like the larl occasionally abuse this form of signaling, for example, in hunting tabuk, using it for purposes of deception; more rapid movement, of course, tends to precipitate defensive reactions. In moving back I had also tended to reassure the figure in the doorway that I meant no harm, this movement, too, of course, had the advantage of ensuring me reaction space; in moving toward the center of the hut I made it possible for her to see me better, this tending too, one supposes, to allay suspicions; in this way, too, of course, I secured myself weapon space. These things seemed to be instinctual, or, at least, to be done with very little conscious thought. They seem very natural. We tend to take them for granted. It is interesting, however, upon occasion, to speculate upon the possible origins of just such familiar and taken-for-granted accommodations and adjustments. It seems possible they have been selected for. At any rate, they, or their analogues, are found throughout the animal kingdom.
The small figure stood just outside what had once been the threshold of the hut. It had come there naturally, it seemed, as if perhaps by force of habit, or conviction, although the door was no longer there. It seemed forlorn, and weary. It clutched something in its arms.
"Are you a brigand?" she asked.
"No," I said.
"It is a free woman," whispered Feiqa, kneeling on the blankets.
"Cover your nakedness," I said. Feiqa pulled her tiny, coarse tunic about her self.
"This is my house," said the woman.
"Do you wish us to leave?" I asked.
"Do you have anything to eat?" she asked. "A little," I said. "Are you hungry?"
"No," she said.
"Perhaps the child is hungry?" I asked.
"No," she said. "We have plenty."
I said nothing.
"I am a free woman!" she said, suddenly, piteously.
"We have food," I said. "We have used your house. Permit us to share it with you."
"Oh, I have begged at the wagons," she said suddenly, sobbing. "It is not a new thing for me! I have begged! I have been on my knees for a crust of bread. I have fought with other women for garbage beside the road."
"You shall not beg in your own house," I said.
She began to sob, and the small child, bundled in her arms, began to whimper. I approached her very slowly, and drew back the edge of the coverlet about the child. Its eyes seemed very large. Its face was dirty.
"There are hundreds of us," she said, "following the wagons. In these times only soldiers can live."
"The forces of Ar," I said, "are even now being mustered, to repel the invaders. The soldiers of Cos, and their mercenary contingents, no matter how numerous, will be no match for the marshaled squares of Ar."
"My child is hungry," she said. "What do I care for the banners of Ar, or Cos?" "Are you companioned?" I asked.
"I do not know any longer," she said.
"Where are the men?" I asked.
"Gone, she said. "Fled, driven away, killed. Many were impressed into service. They are gone, all of them are gone."
"What happened here?" I asked.
"Foragers," she said. "They came for supplies, and men. They took what we had. Then they burned the village."
I nodded. I supposed things might not have been much different if the foragers had been soldiers of Ar.
"Would you like to stay in my house tonight?" she asked.
"Yes," I said.
"Build up the fire," I said to Feiqa, who was kneeling back in the shadows. She had put her tunic about her. Too, she had pulled up the blanket about her body. As soon as I had spoken she crawled over the flat stones to the ashes of the fire, and began to prod among them, stirring them with a narrow stick, searching for covert vital embers.
"Surely you are a brigand," said the woman to me.
"No," I said.
"Then you are a deserter," she said. "It would be death for you to be found." "No," I said. "I am not a deserter."
"What are you then?" she asked.
"A traveler," I said.
"What is your caste?" she asked.
"Scarlet is the color of my caste," I said.
"I thought it might be," she said. "Who but such as you can live in these times?"
I gave her some bread from my pack, from a rep-cloth draw-sack, and a bit of dried meat, paper thin, from its tied leather envelope.
"There, there," she crooned to the child, putting bits of bread into its mouth. "I have water," I said, "but no broth or soup."
"The ditches are filled with water," she said. "Here, here, little one." "Why did you come back?" I asked.
"I came to look for roots," she said, chewing.
"Did you find any?" I asked.
She looked at me quickly, narrowly. "No," she said.
"Have more bread," I said, offering it.
She hesitated.
"It is a gift, like your hospitality," I said, "between free persons. Did you not accept it I should be shamed." "You are kind," she said. "Not to make me beg in my own house." "Eat," I said.
Feiqa had now succeeded in reviving the fire. It was now a small, sturdy, cheerful blaze. She knelt near it, on her bare knees, in the tiny, coarse tunic, on the flat, sooted, stained stones, tending it "She is collared!" cried the woman, suddenly, looking at Feiqa.
Feiqa shrunk back, her hand inadvertently going to her collar. Too, her thigh now wore a brand, the common Kajira mark, high on her left thigh, just under the hip. I had had it put on her two days after leaving the vicinity of Samnium, at the town of Market of Semris, well known for its sales of tarsks. It had been put on in the house of the slaver, Teibar. He brands superbly, and his prices are competitive. No longer could the former Lady Charlotte, once of Samnium, be mistaken for a free woman.
The free woman looked at Feiqa, aghast.
"Belly," I said to Feiqa.
Immediately Feiqa, trembling, went to her belly on the stained, sooted stones near the fire.
"I will not have a slave in my house!" said the free woman.
Feiqa trembled.
"I know your sort" cried the free woman. "I see them sometimes with the wagons, sleek, chained and well-fed, while free women starve.
"It is natural that such women be cared for," I said. "They are salable animals, properties. They represent a form of wealth. It is natural to look after them as it is to look after tharlarion or tarsks."
"You will not stay in my house!" cried the free woman to Feiqa. "I will not keep livestock in my house."
Feiqa clenched her small fists beside her head. I could see she did not care to hear this sort of thing. In Samnium she had been a rich woman, of a family well known on its Street of Coins. Doubtless many times she would have held herself a thousand times superior to the poor peasant women, coming in from the villages, in their bleached woolen robes, bringing their sacks and baskets of grain and produce to the city's markets. Her clenched fists indicated that perhaps she did not yet fully understand that all that was now behind her. "Animal!" screamed the free woman.
Feiqa looked up angrily, tears in her eyes, and lifted herself an inch or two from the floor on the palms of her hands. "I was once as free as you!" she said. "Oh!" cried Feiqa, suddenly, sobbing, recoiling from my kick, and then "Aii!" she cried, in sharp pain, as, my hand in her hair, she was jerked up to a kneeling position.
"But no more!" I said. I was furious. I could not believe her insolence. "No, Master," she wept, "no more!"
I then with the back of my hand, and then its palm, first one, and then the other, back and forth, to and fro, again and again, lashed her head from side to side. Then I flung her on her belly before the free woman. There was blood on my hand, and about her mouth and lips.
"Forgive me!" she begged the free woman. "Forgive me!"