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Am erikan and anyone with dark skin. They are pale, anemic

boys with crew cuts; slight and tall and banal; filled with foul

language that they fire at the natives instead o f using guns. The

words were dirty when they said them; mean words. I didn’t

believe any words were dirty until I heard the white boys say

cunt. They live on the Amerikan bases and they keep

everything Amerikan as if they aren’t here but there. They

have Amerikan radio and newspapers and food wrapped in

plastic and frozen food and dishwashers and refrigerators and

ranch-type houses for officers and trailers and supermarkets

with Amerikan brands o f everything. The wives and children

never go o ff the bases; afraid o f the darkies, afraid o f food

without plastic wrap, they don’t see the ancient island, only

Amerikan concrete and fences. The Amerikan military is

always here; the bases are always manned and the culturally

impoverished wives and children are always on them; and it is

just convenient to let the Vietnam boys rest here for now, the

white ones. The wives and the children are in the ranch-type

houses and the trailers. They are in Greece, on the island o f

Crete, a place touched by whatever gods there ever were,

anyone can see that, in fact Zeus rests here, one mountain is his

profile, it is Crete, a place o f sublime beauty and ancient

heritage, unique in the world, older than anything they can

imagine including their own God; but the wives and the

children never see it because it is not Amerikan, not the

suburbs, not pale white. The women never leave the bases.

The men come o ff to drink ouzo and to say dirty words to the

Greeks and to call them dirty names and laugh. Every other

word is nigger or cunt or fucking and they pick fights. I know

about the bases because an Amerikan doctor took me to one

where he lived in a ranch-type house with an Amerikan

kitchen with Formica cabinets and General Electric appliances.

The Greeks barely have kitchens. On Crete the people in the

mountains, mostly peasants, use bunsen burners to cook their

food. A huge family will have one bunsen burner. Everything

goes into one pot and it cooks on the one bunsen burner for ten

hours or twelve hours until late night when everyone eats. -

They have olive oil from the olive trees that grow everywhere

and vegetables and fruit and small animals they kill and milk

from goats. The fam ily will sit at a w ood table in the dark with

one oil lamp or candle giving light but the natural light on

Crete doesn’t go aw ay when it becomes night. There is no

electricity in the mountains but the dark is luminous and you

can see perfectly in it as if God is holding a candle above your

head. In the city people use bunsen burners too. When

Pappous makes a feast he takes some eggs from his chickens

and some olive oil and some potatoes bought from the market

for a few drachma and he makes an omelet over a bunsen

burner. It takes a long time, first for the oil to get really hot,

then to fry the potatoes, and the eggs cook slow ly; he invites

me and it is an afternoon’s feast. If people are rich they have

kitchens but the kitchens have nothing in them except running

cold water in a stone sink. The sink is a basin cut out o f a

counter made o f stone, as i f a piece o f hard rock was hauled in

from the mountains. It’s solid stone from top to bottom.

There are no w ood cabinets or shelves, just solid stone. I f there

is running hot water you are in the house o f a millionaire. I f

you are ju st in a rich house, the people heat the water up in a

kettle or pot. In the same w ay, there m ay be a bathtub

somewhere but the woman has to heat up kettle after kettle to

fill it. She will wash clothes and sheets and towels by hand in

the bathtub with the water she has cooked the same w ay the

peasant woman will wash clothes against rocks. There is no

refrigerator ever anywhere and no General Electric but there

m ay be two bunsen burners instead o f one. Y ou get food every

day at open markets in the streets and that is the only time

women get to go out; only married women. The Am erikans

never go anywhere without refrigerators and frozen food and

packaged food; I don’t know how they can stay in Vietnam.

The Am erikan doctor said he was writing a novel about the

Vietnam War like Norman M ailer’s The Naked and the Dead.

He had a crew cut. He had a Deep South accent. He was blond

and very tanned. He had square shoulders and a square jaw .

Military, not civilian. White socks, slacks, a casual shirt. N ot

young. N ot a boy. O ver thirty. Beefy. He is married and has

three children but his wife and children are away he says. He

sought me out and tried to talk to me about the War and

politics and writing; he began by invoking Mailer. It would

have been different if he had said Hem ingway. He was a

Hem ingway kind o f guy. But Mailer was busy being hip and

against the Vietnam War and taking drugs so it didn’t make

much sense to me; I know Hem ingway had leftist politics in

the Spanish Civil War but, really, Mailer was being very loud

against Vietnam and I couldn’t see someone who was happily

military appreciating it much, no matter how good The Naked

and the Dead was, if it was, which I m yself didn’t see. It was my

least favorite o f his books. I said I missed Amerikan coffee so

he took me to his ranch-type house for some. I meant

percolated coffee but he made Nescafe. The Greeks make

Nescafe too but they just use tap water; he boiled the water.

He made me a martini. I have never had one. It sits on the

Formica. It’s pretty but it looks like oily ethyl alcohol to me. I

never sit down. I ask him about his novel but he doesn’t have

anything to say except that it is against the War. I ask to read it

but it isn’t in the house. He asks me all these questions about

how I feel and what I think. I’m perplexed and I’m trying to

figure it out, standing right there; he’s talking and my brain is

pulling in circles, questions; I’m asking m yself if he wants to

fuck or what and what’s wrong with this picture? Is it being in

a ranch-type house on an island o f peasants? Is it Formica on an

ancient island o f stone and sand? Is it the missing wife and

children and how ill at ease he is in this house where he says he

lives and w hy aren’t there any photographs o f the wife and

children? Why is it so empty, so not lived in, with everything

in place and no mess, no piles, no letters or notes or pens or old-