5
It had to happen. One Saturday afternoon, searching for a football game, Joey tuned in the Metropolitan Opera’s matinee during a moment when all its throats were rapturous. His mother stood in the doorway, somewhat dazed herself, because her intention had been to ask him to turn down the volume. The voices weren’t of tin but of gold, and the orchestra was full, not a fiddle and a drum or a faint hinky-tink piano. Even Miriam sat and listened, too indifferent to her hands to fold them in her lap, until the evident sadness of events withdrew her. Neither had the slightest idea what was going on until between acts a commentator, with a voice melting over its vowels like dark chocolate, recited the plot as it was about to unfold. The tenor, it turned out, would be in a jail cell awaiting execution, and the act would open an hour before dawn at an artillery emplacement at the walls of a castle overlooking Rome. Rome! The audience will see the Vatican in the distance, the announcer says. Then, after an orchestral interlude, with the song of a shepherd boy barely audible in the distance, the tenor, told he has but an hour left to live, will be brought to the battlements where he will write loving last words to his opera singer while sitting at a wooden desk set to one side of the stage. He writes something splendid, Joey remembered, about the shine of the stars perfuming the world. Of course the tenor would sing the words in the moment that he wrote them. Here, in this magical realm, singing words were all there were.
Joey heard everything happen as it had been foretold. The tenor’s voice soared despite its despair, and Joey felt his own throat ache. It was a moment in which sorrow became sublime and his own misfortunes were, momentarily, on someone else’s mind.
Now when he had a lesson, he would ask Mr. Hirk his opinion of the singers of today, not all of whom Mr. Hirk loathed; indeed, there were a few he praised. Mr. Hirk was impatient with Joey because, after all their sessions, his improvising was not improving anything but his ability to mimic. Although Mr. Hirk formed his sentences with reasonable clarity, his words emerged as if they too were rheumatic, bent a bit, their heads turned toward the ground, their rears reluctant to arrive. No … noth … nothing gained. You are copying the cat as if — that way — you could become one. Shame. You are hitting the keys a bit like my stick here, Mr. Hirk complained, when your fingers — your fingers, young shameful man — should sing; you should feel the song in their tips — on the ball where the ink stain blues it — like a tingle. Your technique — oh God — is terrible. You need to do Czernys … and … and I don’t have any for you, not a page. I am a poor teacher. Naw. Nothing can be gained. I couldn’t sing or whistle them. They are not for copy, the Czernys. They are for the fingers like lifting weights. Which you either do, or you don’t do. Czernys. So you either get strong in the fingers or you remain weak … and if in the fingers, then in the head.
What Mr. Hirk hated most about Joey was his forearm. Do not move the forearm. Forget the forearm. From side to side from the wrist the fingers find their way, kneading the notes — your hands must be big slow spiders out for a walk.
Early on Mr. Hirk had grasped Joey’s hands with his voice. Show me your nails! Show me! They’re bitten! Look at them, poor babies. That is no way. Are you a beaver in a trap to be gnawing at yourself? Nails should never be long — short is wise — never so long they click on the keys, so they interfere with your stroke — no — but not bitten, a bad bad habit — they are not to be chewed like a straw. Nails are to be nurtured, nicened. Yes. Filed with your mother’s file. Not long like a lady’s but smooth, short, and smoothly rounded like the moon that is in them. That is the way. Remember. Short, round, smooth. Better if they’re polished like flute keys. Hooh, he would conclude, exhausted.
Dressing Debbie was getting expensive, and Miriam felt that Joey’s progress was being hampered by Mr. Hirk’s physical impediments. To the point of pointlessness, she thought. Joey looked forward now to his miniconcerts, but he could not protest his mother’s decision even if it was not adequately based or sincerely made. Joey was to inform Mr. Hirk on Saturday next that the present lesson was to be the final one. This, Joey had no desire to do. You hired him, you should fire him, he told his mother in the most aggrieved tone he could muster. It makes no sense for me to make a special trip just to do that, she answered in what would be her last reasonable voice. You send him his money by mail, Joey argued, why not end it the same way? That would be cold and unfeeling, she said sternly, that would be inconsiderate and impolite, even rude. Shame on you, she said. On me? Joey was unusual in his anger. Mr. Hirk is a sick old man! He has no income! He hasn’t even one Czerny. He lives mostly in the dark waiting for me to come and play. I give him that relief. This was said with pride. Now you want to take his single pupil and his only pleasure away. Joey was embarrassed by his own heat. Such novel opposition was quite beyond Miriam’s understanding. It made her furious. She blamed his poor upbringing on America. As someone who had been browbeaten, she could browbeat now with assurance, and she could be furious with Joey without worry because, though Joseph Skizzen was of the male sex, he was still a Joey. Ah, how you overcount yourself. How do you know what that man’s pleasures are! Joey’s stiff face told her that his certainties were unchanged. Then say nothing, just don’t go again, you obstacle, she shouted. Whatever you do, I won’t mail another fee. She ended the argument but not the issue by leaving the room in a huff that would have seemed more genuine if it hadn’t had wheels.
Joey knew now that the singers on Mr. Hirk’s old records were ghosts in truth, though he did not love them less for that. And Mr. Hirk had begun telling him of other singers, such as Marcella Sembrich, whom Joey had not heard, and how she had studied for years with an old piano teacher who discovered and developed her voice by taking her, willy-nilly, to the best teachers. Mr. Hirk was a bike tire turning in gravel — hard to understand — but Joey listened to his history of Marcella Sembrich as if she were a star of film, an actress of dangerous beauty. Indeed, Marcella Sembrich was her stage name, not her real name, Mr. Hirk told him. Her real name was Marcellina Kochanska — Kochanska — as a name Kochanska would not do — and she came from a part of Poland the Austrians owned. I know the place, Mr. Hirk said proudly. Lem. Berg. It runs in families like my arthritis does. The gift, I mean. I know a lot of similar histories. Her father — her father taught himself to play — from hell to hallelujah — half the instruments. So she knew notes by the time she said daddy. She was sitting up to the piano by four. Perched on a Bible. I know. It’s as if I was there. And she was playing a violin her father made for her when she was six. Six! In ringlets. It’s so. It’s not even unusual. That same father — the father of her — taught his wife the violin. Yes. True. By seven … you just linger on the number, boy, linger on her age … by seven she was playing in the family string quartet with her brother, who was born before her, a cello’s child. Then an old man who heard her, when the family minstrelized around the country to make ends meet, sponsored her for the Conservatory because he loved her as she should have been loved. In Lem. Berg. I know the building. I know the halls.