“I do believe you,” he said, “but I won’t come. I won’t have anyone else know I’m here. That maid ’ud have to know. I don’t trust nobody ’cept you. I’ll find him and when I can get him, I’ll take him. Then I’ll go. But I won’t come to you.”
“You mean you’ll stay here in the woods? Someone might see you. Some say they have.”
“They’ve seen ghosts. That’s good. It keeps them away. I’m safe here. I wouldn’t feel safe anywhere else. This is where I was … where she was. I feel she’s here sometimes … looking after me.”
“Can I bring you anything? Are you warm enough at night? I’ll bring some food.”
“No, don’t. People might see. I couldn’t have anyone knowing.”
“I’ll help you all I can, but I’m going to try to stop you. I’m going to make you see that you’re playing a dangerous game. If you harm him and you’re caught that will be the end for you.”
“I wouldn’t care as long as I got him.”
“I have to go now,” I said. “I don’t want Kitty wondering where I am. People are getting uneasy about what is going on in the woods. Fires have been seen. They know someone is here.”
“Ghosts,” he said again.
“That’s what some think. Others might not. I came to see for myself, remember.”
“I’ll take care. And you’ll tell no one.”
“No. I’ll tell no one.”
“You’ve done a lot for me.”
I looked at him sadly and I thought: You have done a lot for me.
I went back to the cottage thinking of my own folly for doubting Rolf.
I wanted to go to him and tell him that that which I had been unable to get out of my mind for years had now been made clear to me. I wanted to try to make him understand about that night before the day when we were to have been married and how I had imagined the grey robe was my wedding dress. But I should have to tell him how it had been made clear to me and I had promised Digory that on no account would I tell anyone that he was here.
But I must stop him in his mad design. If he attempted to kill Luke Tregern, the result would no doubt be death for him.
I could imagine how he had cherished thoughts of revenge during those years of servitude. I knew from Matthew’s book that they would have been grim, that he would often have been filled with despair. And perhaps what had kept him able to endure his lot was the thought of revenge.
I had to be careful.
I had to save Digory.
I smuggled food out to the woods. It was not easy, as it had been at Cador where there was so much in the larder that a little might not be missed.
“I can’t see the remains of the chicken,” said Kitty, puzzled.
I thought I should have to be careful. I took a blanket down with the chicken and some bread.
He was glad of them.
“I might have to tell Kitty,” I said, “because she is going to miss the food.”
“I won’t have anyone told,” he retorted. “Don’t bring food. I’ll manage.”
“Digory, have you thought any more about what I’ve said?”
“What?” he asked.
“That if you … harmed him … you would suffer just as much.”
“I wouldn’t be caught.”
Two days passed. I had not seen Rolf. I did not go to the stables because if I did I should surely see him and I should find it difficult not to tell him that Digory was in the woods. I longed to tell him that I knew the truth about that night now. But how could I explain without betraying Digory?
I was constantly worried about him. I had seen the purpose in his face and I knew that he was plunging to certain disaster.
I bought some cheese in the town.
“I’ll tell Kitty you’ve taken the Cheddar,” said Mrs. Glenn who ran the shop.
“Oh, that’s all right. I’ll tell her.”
And I thought how difficult it was to do anything in such a place without being detected.
What would Kitty say if she knew I had bought cheese?
I cut a piece off and put it in the larder, so that I should be prepared.
“Cheddar!” she would say. “Why did you buy that? I thought it wasn’t one of your favourites.”
But when Kitty came in she was so full of the news that she did not notice the cheese.
“What do you think? Luke Tregern has disappeared.”
I felt sick. I stammered: “Disappeared?”
“Yes. He left the house yesterday afternoon and he didn’t come back.”
“What do they think has happened to him?”
“That’s what they don’t know. Mrs. Tregern’s in a rare state, they say. They say she’s well nigh crazy. Annie, the maid there, says she thinks there was a big row.”
“And that … he’s left her?”
Kitty nodded. “You see, they both went out riding together yesterday afternoon … and when they come back she heard them shouting. She said … and Annie heard this with her own ears … ‘What are we going to do?’ just as though she was desperate like. Then after a while he went out … and he didn’t come back.”
Oh, God help him I thought. He’s done it. And I thought I was making him see the folly of it and what it would do to him.
“Do they think he has left her?”
“What else? There was all this trouble when they come in. They say she was white as a sheet … half out of her wits. I reckon he’s gone off. Of course they said he married her for Cador … he being only the manager of the Manor then. Well, I don’t know. You do see life in the country, after all.”
“So the general feeling is that he has left her?”
“Where’d he go, that’s what I wonder. They say he hasn’t taken anything with him. Just the clothes he’s standing up in. He just walked out … just like that … and he didn’t come back.”
I wanted to be alone. I went into my bedroom and shut the door. Where was Digory now? He wouldn’t be in the woods surely. He would have gone by how. He wouldn’t hang about. He wouldn’t want to be caught. There would be a search for Luke Tregern. They would not suspect murder at first. They would think he had just walked out of the house, left his wife.
Apparently they had quarrelled now and then, and yesterday there had been this big upset. They had been out together riding and when they had come back she had looked white as a sheet and half crazed; he was clearly disturbed. They had quarrelled and he had walked out. I was going over it as Kitty had told it.
Yes, I thought, he walked out to the woods where Digory was waiting and there he met his death.
I could not rest. I had to go to the woods.
To my amazement Digory was there.
I said: “You’ve done it then, Digory. You didn’t listen to me.”
He looked bewildered and just stared at me.
“I know,” I said. “The whole town knows he has disappeared. Where is he, Digory? What have you done with his body?”
He continued to stare at me. Then he said: “I can’t believe it … There she was, on her horse. He was with her … I couldn’t understand. I didn’t expect to see her … She knew me. She just stared at me. She was so white I thought she was going to fall off her horse. And he was there with her … Him … If I’d had me gun I could have killed him.”
“If you had your gun …” I stammered.
“Then she said my name. She said to me, ‘It’s you … ’ I could see she thought she was dreaming. The last thing she thought was to see me here. She hadn’t seen me for two years. I left when my term was done. I heard someone had been looking for me … and I was sorry. I wanted to know who it was. It was a mate of mine who told me. I run across him in Sydney and he said someone had asked him where I was. He’d told him I was at Stillman’s. He didn’t know I’d gone, he was trying to find me, see how I was. A real gentleman who was going to offer me something back in England. He couldn’t remember the name. Sir Something Somebody he said.”