CHAPTER 34
A good deal later than this Randal March was taking his way home. He was glad to be done with the day’s business, and very glad to be done with Superintendent Drake. Drake’s reactions to the footprints discovered by Miss Silver had been quite extraordinarily irritating. He was mortified, he was huffed, he took umbrage. He suggested that the footprints might have been made at any time, and when March pointed out that there had been heavy rain on Wednesday afternoon, and that they must have been made since then, he took umbrage all over again. There is, of course, nothing more trying for a police officer than to have a well substantiated theory undermined, or to see it tottering to its fall without being able to give it a sustaining hand. With Rietta Cray and Carr Robertson as suspects, Drake had been in a state of blissful and offensive self-satisfaction. It was his first important murder case. He saw promotion looming. The social position of the suspects ministered agreeably to his class-consciousness. When Mr. Holderness produced Cyril Mayhew as a possible alternative he wasn’t pleased-nobody could have expected him to be pleased-but he put up a very creditable performance as a fair-minded officer anxious only to come at the truth.
And then completely unrelated footprints of an unknown woman. It was enough to put any man out of temper, let alone that he knew, and the Chief Constable knew, that he ought to have found them himself. It wouldn’t have been so bad if they could have been made out to be Miss Cray’s footprints, but they couldn’t, and it wasn’t any good trying. He didn’t need the Chief Constable to point it out to him either. He remarked with some acerbity that if he’d got to choose between a crime without a clue at all, and one where they were buzzing round like so many bluebottles, he’d take the first and say thank you. It was one of the few times during their association that the Chief Constable felt inclined to agree with him.
Well, the business was over now. The footprints had been photographed by flashlight, cement had been poured into them to provide casts, and a tarpaulin spread to protect them from the weather. Randal March was taking his way home.
He came out on the far side of Melling and drove slowly along a dark, narrow lane. There was a hedgerow on either side, rather wild and unkempt, with the black mass of holly breaking it here and there. There was no one else abroad- no lights of any other car, no low-set gleam of a bicycle-lamp, no foot-passenger shrinking back against the hedge. The dark loneliness pleased him. He was more physically tired than he could remember to have been for years, and his mind was tired to death. To and fro in it for the last two days his thoughts had paced, struggled, and rebelled. Even as he strove to order them, to hold the balance between the prosecution and the defence, to do his job without fear or favour, he could not be sure that the scale did not tip.
He drove on down the bright path which his headlights made for him, and wished with all his heart that he could see his way as plainly.
Half a mile out of Melling what should be prolongation of the lane becomes the footpath which descends from Rowberry Common, the lane itself taking an unexpected turn to the left. The beam of the headlights streaming on to the footpath just before the turn picked up the figure of a woman. For the moment of time before the car swung round she stood there dazzled by the glow, her head uncovered, her eyes wide, her face unnaturally white. It was startling in the extreme-like seeing a drowned face.
He took the car past the turn, drew up, got out, and walked back. She was moving, he heard a stone slip from her foot. A relief quite outside reason flooded over him. He would have confessed to no conscious fear, but the sound of that sliding pebble was an extraordinarily welcome thing. He said,
“Rietta! What are you doing here?” and saw her come towards him like a shadow.
She said, “I’ve been walking on Rowberry Common. I couldn’t stay indoors.”
“You shouldn’t go up there in the dark. It’s got a bad name.”
She said with heart-breaking simplicity,
“No one would hurt me-I’m too unhappy.”
“Does that protect one?”
“Yes. People can’t reach you-you’re all alone-”
“Rietta, don’t talk like that!”
She said, “I’ll go home now.”
She took a step away from him, and something happened. He was a temperate man in mind and body. He had never before been so swept from his own control. He couldn’t let her leave him. With a purely instinctive movement he reached out to stop her. His hands met the rough cloth of the coat she was wearing. He found that he was holding her.
“Rietta!”
She said, “Oh, let me go!”
“I can’t. I love you. You do know that, don’t you?”
“Oh, no!”
“What’s the good of lies? We might as well speak the truth, if it’s only for once. You do know I love you.”
“No-”
“Stop lying, Rietta! If we can’t do anything else for each other we can at least speak the truth. If you didn’t know, why did you sit there this afternoon accusing me with your eyes? Every time I asked you a question you accused me- every time I sat by and let that damned fellow Drake cross-examine you, you accused me. If you didn’t know that I loved you, there wasn’t any reason for it. You knew.”
“Yes-I knew. It doesn’t matter, does it? It’s like knowing something that died a long time ago-it’s gone.”
His hands closed hard upon her. She felt the strength in them.
“What are you talking about? Do you think I would let you go?”
She said on a curious sobbing breath,
“I’ve-gone-”
In a most horrid and disturbing manner there came back to him the feeling he had had when he saw her drowned in the glare of the headlights. His pleasant voice was harsh as he said,
“Don’t say things like that-I won’t have it! I’m asking you to marry me.”
“Are you, Randal? And do we send an announcement to the papers? There would be some nice headlines, wouldn’t there? Chief Constable weds chief suspect in Lessiter murder case! No, I suppose they couldn’t say that before I was arrested. It would be contempt of court or something like that, wouldn’t it? And once I was arrested I should be the accused. Randal, why should this have to happen to us? We could have been so happy.”
A flood of grief broke in her. She didn’t know it was going to happen. It had hurt her too much when she thought of what might have been. She had no more pride, no more control. She did not even think of being glad that it was dark. The tears ran down, and would have done if it had been broad day.
At first he didn’t know. She stood there quietly under his hands. He had his own emotions to deal with, and found them hard to curb.
Then one of those hot tears splashed down upon his wrist. He took his hand from her arm and put it up to her face. The tears ran over it. He pulled her up close and kissed her, and she kissed him back, not quietly but with a despairing passion. If this was all they could ever have, let them take their fill of it.
They might have been alone in the universe, so close that breath and pulse were one. A single heart-beat shook them both. They did not know how long it was before she drew that deep shuddering breath, and said,
“We’re mad.”
Randal March said, “No-sane. Hold on to that-we’ll stay sane together.”
“Can we?”
He had come back to his centre of gravity. Thought steadied. He said,
“Yes.”
There was another of those long breaths.
“I don’t know-I feel as if I had gone away-too far.”
“I’ll bring you back.”
“I don’t think you can.”
She drew away from him.
“Randal, will you tell me something-honestly?”
“I’ll do my best.”