Quite soon I regretted my choice of hiding place. As the light failed and the lamps were lit around the new build, the old stones in the burial site behind me threw deep shadows that seemed to move, as if the dead were creeping out of the ground. I told myself firmly not to be so silly.
To take my mind off my fear I thought about Gewis. He had appeared in the old chapel before, I reasoned; perhaps he made a habit of going there in the evening. Perhaps something drew him to those ancient walls. . I hoped very much that this was the case, for it was my only chance of seeing him again. I concentrated on silently calling out to him, letting him know I was waiting for him and summoning him to me.
I concentrated so hard that I made my head ache. Then, when I felt I had done all that I could, cautiously I stood up and looked at the scene before me.
The walls of the new cathedral rose up higher than when I had last visited. The site still looked like a confused jumble, but now I thought I could detect order in the chaos. The finished building was going to be huge. . But I was not there to inspect the work; I swallowed my awe and headed for the place where the old chapel had stood.
The ancient wall was still there, and I made sure to keep it in sight as I slipped behind a massive column that was growing up from the floor of the new cathedral. I stared out into the wide open space, trying to make sense of the oddly shaped shadows cast by the builders’ materials and tools that were scattered all across it.
Perhaps Gewis’s four guards believed that, having scared away the nun who had managed to get inside the abbey and speak to their charge, it was safe to let him wander out to the old church in the late evenings. Perhaps they had lessened their vigilance and he had evaded them. I did not know; the important thing was that he came. I made myself remain behind my pillar as his dark shape materialized out of the shadows, the light of the torches catching his white hair and his pale face. I peered out now and again, keeping watch on his progress across the vast space towards the place where the Saxon church had once stood.
The third time I looked, he had gone.
I stifled a gasp. Where was he? Had he sensed a presence — my presence — and hidden? Oh, but I meant him no harm — on the contrary, I wanted to help him, and by now I was quite desperate to reveal to him what had happened to his mother. The thought of her being dead and him not knowing, believing her to be safe and well back at their home in Fulbourn, was unbearable. I had to tell him.
I stepped out from behind the pillar and, very slowly, placing each foot silently, I crept towards the partly demolished wall that was all that remained of the ancient little church. Still I could not see him. Where was he?
Suddenly, he was right in front of me.
In that first, shocked instant I thought, But he has changed his apparel! How did he do that? Why?
Then I understood what I was looking at. The horrified cry rose up in my throat and it was only by a huge effort of will that I managed to keep silent. Inside I was screaming in terror as my panicking mind tried to make sense of the thing that stood before me.
It was clad in white. It wore a shroud, ravaged by the years into yellowing tatters; the cloth was deeply stained with rusty brown streaks that seemed to originate in the groin. The face was deathly white, the pallor tinged with green. The hair was long, reaching to the shoulders, fine-textured and cream in colour.
It was a face of nightmares. There were black bruises on the jaw and the forehead, as if it had suffered a severe beating. Beneath the pale, well-marked brows there were deep, dark, bloody pits.
Someone had torn out the eyes.
The figure stood quite still in front of the ruined stones that had once formed the south-side chapel of the Saxon church. Then, very slowly, it raised its arm. The ragged sleeve fell back, revealing a hand like a claw. It was pointing. . I could not move, not even to look at the place that the claw-like hand indicated. It was as if death had taken me, stopping my heart and freezing me to the spot.
I could not go on staring at it. I closed my eyes.
When I opened them again, it had gone.
I forgot about my mission, forgot about poor murdered Asfrior, forgot about Gewis. Released from my petrifaction, I turned and fled.
I believe that my guardian spirit was helping me, for my feet were agile as a fox’s running for his life before hounds as I leapt over obstacles, dodging and weaving between half-built pillars and the solid bases of falsework towers. I reached the outer wall of the new build and raced on along the shadowy cloister beyond.
Something was in my path. My foot caught against it — Fox seemed to have abandoned me — and I fell headlong, cracking my head hard against the stone floor. I think I stunned myself, for the next few moments were a blur. There was somebody there, someone who swore under his breath as he grabbed my shoulders and dragged me into the shadow of the cloister wall. I felt sick and my head throbbed with pain. I tried to moan in distress and instantly a firm hand was over my mouth.
‘Hush,’ a deep voice said right in my ear. ‘Do not attract their attention.’
He spoke with an accent and I guessed he was a Norman. Who was he? What was he doing there in the abbey? My mind refused to work; all I felt was overwhelming fear.
He must have realized I was hurt. He sat propped against the wall and lay me down so that my head was in his lap. His fingers probed across my brow and I winced as he found the huge lump above my right eye. I started to push his hand away, but then I noticed that he was gently massaging the bump and that his light touch was actually bringing relief from the pain.
After a while he bent over me and, again speaking so softly that I strained to hear, said, ‘Can you walk?’
I muttered something. He must have taken it for assent for, slowly and carefully, he raised me to my feet. Instantly, my head swam and the nausea returned. Again, he understood, not hurrying me but allowing me a few moments to recover. Then, moving gently and quietly, he helped me walk along the cloister to the far end.
I wondered where we were going. I wasn’t afraid of him now — if he meant me harm he would have hit me while I was down, instead of trying to lessen my pain and helping me get up — but I was very curious. I tried to ask where we were going, but again he hushed me. ‘I know a secret way,’ he whispered.
We stood at the far end of the cloister for what seemed ages. Sick, dizzy, I longed to lie down, but I did not dare. I stared around, trying to get my bearings. As far as I could tell we were on the far side of the cathedral site from where I had gone in. I had entered the abbey through the main gate that led off the marketplace; now, I believed, we stood on the south side of the church, and before us was a maze of buildings.
My silent companion must have satisfied himself at last that we were unobserved. Taking my hand — his was warm, square and strong — he led me at a swift pace over to our left. We passed passages, steps and low doorways leading inside the buildings — I had no idea what was within — and, after a lot of twisting and turning, we emerged into the open. We seemed to be standing in a garden. There was an orchard over to our left — I could see the skeletal shapes of apple trees, bare of leaves and holding up their branches like arms begging for help — and, beyond, a vineyard.
Still holding my hand, my companion led the way along a narrow path that passed between neatly clipped box hedges. I smelt rosemary and lavender, my nose attuned to the scents because of my profession so that even now, on a cold November night, I was able to detect them. We were in the herb garden.
We were hurrying now, all but running, and the pain in my head throbbed with each footfall. I folded my lips; I would not cry out. Then I saw the wall rear up before us. It was about ten feet high, and I had no idea how we would get over it. Perhaps there was a gate. . but a gate would be locked and barred, or even manned by some irate and sleepy monk who would far rather be in his bed.