But that's a different story, she thought wearily.
She lay back on the couch and ten hours later opened her eyes to a gray morning.
She took the next day off and spent much of the morning and early afternoon Christmas shopping. When she returned home, in the late afternoon, there was another call from Reece and a curious one from Sean Lillick. He seemed drunk and he rambled on for a few minutes about Clayton's death, an edge to his voice. He mentioned that Carrie Mason wasn't going to Clayton's memorial service with him and asked if Taylor wanted to go.
No, she thought. But didn't call him back.
Thom Sebastian too had left a message, asking her to phone back. She didn't call him either.
She rummaged through the mail she'd picked up downstairs and found, mixed in among the Christmas cards, a self-addressed envelope from a music company. Her heart sank as she felt the thick tape inside and realized what it contained. Ripping the envelope open, she upended it and let her demo tape clatter out onto the table.
This wasn't the last of the tapes she'd sent out for consideration – there were still about a half dozen out at various companies – but it was the important one, the only tape that had made it to a label's Artists and Repertoire committee.
There was no response letter, someone had simply jotted on her own cover note, "Thanks, but not for us."
She tossed it into a Macy's box with the rest of them and, finally, opened that morning's New York Times. She read the article she'd been avoiding all day, headlined.
WALL STREET LAWYER KILLS SELF
PRESSURE AT WHITE-SHOE FIRM
CITED IN DEATH OF PARTNER, 52
Burdick apparently had indeed gotten away with it.
His artistry was astonishing. Not a word about the Hanover & Stiver case, nothing about the theft of the promissory note. Nothing about her or Mitchell or the merger.
Burdick was quoted, calling the death a terrible tragedy and saying that the profession had lost a brilliant attorney. The reporter also quoted several members of the firm – Bill Stanley mostly (well, the PR firm) – discussing Clayton's huge workload and his moodiness. The article reported that in the past year Clayton had billed over twenty-six hundred hours, a huge number for lawyers of his seniority. There was a sidebar on stress among overworked professionals.
She sighed and threw the newspaper away then washed the ink off her hands as if it were blood.
At five-thirty the doorbell rang.
Who could it be? Neighbors? Thom Sebastian assaulting her to beg for a date?
Ralph Dudley simply assaulting her?
She opened the door.
Mitchell Reece, wearing a windbreaker, walked inside and asked her if she had a cat.
"What?" she asked, bewildered by his quick entrance.
"A cat," he repeated.
"No, why? Are you allergic? What are you doing here?"
"Or fish, or anything you have to feed regularly?"
She was so pleased to see him in a playful mood – so different from the shock in his face after Clayton's death – that she joked back, "Just occasional boyfriends. But none at the moment, as I think you know."
"Come on downstairs I want to show you something."
"But -"
He held his finger to his lips. "Let's go." She followed him out to the street, where a limo awaited, a black Lincoln. He opened the door and pointed inside, where she saw three large bags from Paragon Sporting Goods and two sets of new Rossignol skis propped across the seats.
Taylor laughed. "Mitchell, what are you doing?"
"Time for my lesson. Don't you remember? You were going to teach me to ski."
"Where? Central Park?"
"You know of someplace called Cannon? It's in New Hampshire. I just called the weather number. Four inches of new powder. I don't know what that means but even the recorded voice sounded excited so I assume it's good."
"But when?"
"But now," he said.
"Just like that?"
"The firm's jet's on the ramp at La Guardia. And they bill us by the hour so I suggest you hustle your butt. Go pack."
"This is crazy. What about work?"
"Donald called – he or his wife found out you like to ski so he ordered us to take some time off. He's giving us the trip all-expenses-paid. He called it a Christmas bonus. I've bought everything we need, I think. The store told me what to get. Skis, poles, black stretch pants, boots, bindings, sweaters, goggles. And…" He held up a box.
"What's that?" Taylor asked.
"That? The most important thing of all."
She opened it. "A crash helmet?"
"That's for me." He shrugged. "Maybe you're a teacher." He smiled. "And maybe you're not."
CHAPTER THIRTY
The helmet wasn't a bad idea. Reece had been on the bunny slope at the Cannon ski resort in New Hampshire for only fifteen minutes when he fell and jammed his thumb.
One of the resort doctors, a cheerful Indian, had taped it.
"Is it broken?" Reece had asked.
"No, is no fracture."
"Why does it hurt so much?"
"Lots of nerves in fingers," the doctor said, beaming. "Many, many nerves."
Afterward, they sat in the small lounge in the inn.
"Oh, Mitchell, I feel so bad," she said. "But you did a very respectable first run."
"My thumb doesn't feel too respectable. Is it always this cold?"
"Cannon's got the coldest, windiest runs in New England, dear," she said, pulling his head against her neck. "People have frozen to death not far from here."
"Really? Well, we wouldn't want to have too much fun now, would we?"
Reece actually didn't seem too upset about either the accident or the weather. And she soon learned why. He preferred to sit out the day with what he had smuggled with him – files from the Hanover settlement closing. Taylor too didn't mind, she was eager to get out onto the double-diamond trails and kick some ski butt, not baby-sit him on the beginner slopes or worry about him on the intermediates.
She kissed him. "Sit in the lodge and behave yourself."
As she crunched her way toward the lifts, he called, "Good luck. I assume you don't say, 'Break a leg."
She smiled, stomped into her skis and slid down the slight incline to the bottom of the lift.
At the top of the mountain, she eased off the chair and braked to a stop just past the lift house. She bent down and washed her goggles in snow. The White Mountains were, as she'd told him, son-of-a-bitch cold and the wind steadily scraped across her face. She pulled silk hand liners on and replaced her mittens, then poled her way into position and looked down the mountain. Her impression had always been that most runs never look as steep from the top as they do from the bottom but as she gazed down toward the lodge, over a half mile straight below her, she saw a plunge, not a slope. Her pulse picked up and immediately she realized how right Mitchell had been to arrange the trip. How important it was to get away from the city to distance herself from Hubbard, White & Willis, from Wendall Clayton's ghost.
She pushed off the crest of the mountain.
It was the best run of her life.
Suddenly there was nothing in her universe but speed and snow and the rhythm of her turns.
Speed, speed, speed.
Which was all she wanted. Her mouth was open slightly in the ellipse that suggests fear or sexual heights. Her teeth dried and stung in the frigid slipstream but the pain only added to her surge of abandon.
Taylor danced over moguls the way girls skip double-Dutch jump rope on playgrounds. Once, her skis left the ground and she landed as if the snow had risen timidly to stroke the bottom of the fiberglass. Trees, bushes, other skiers were a swift-ratcheting backdrop sweeping past, everyone hushed, it seemed, listening to the cutting hiss of her Rossignol.
She was sure she was hitting sixty or seventy miles an hour. Her hair was whipping her shoulders and back. She wished she'd borrowed Recce's helmet – not for safety, but to cut the wind resistance of the tangled mass of drag.