Such knightly behaviour was of a very high order, I told myself, and I would remember, true or not, that he had even given up his place in the queue to play the cavalier. The old Michael Cullen would have beaten him to it, snot or not, and got off with her in a flash, and pushed any other intruding ratface out of the way with a look that melted him to sewer juice, but I had become soft and slow, if not stupid, in thrall too long to my lovely doctor wife (nevertheless more of a beauty than the woman in the queue) who would chuck me into the street when I told her I had lost a job which she had always seen as just right for the likes of me, and who could blame her?
I’d have to sharpen myself up. It could have been me, and should have been, walking with that personable woman to share a fourposter at a posh hotel in the Thames Valley for two hundred quid a night, but worth every penny. Having lost her made my liver ache. I had lived with Frances for three years, and no longer knew who I was, just as she didn’t much know who she was, I supposed, after living with me.
I walked along Piccadilly towards Knightsbridge, in a mood not at all like any of Michael Cullen’s in former times. Things had to alter. Maybe wisdom only came when they did.
Chapter Two
“There are more funerals to go to when you get older,” Blaskin was saying. “My appointment’s book is full of them, but I never go to any, in case I catch cold and die. I’m not much above sixty, but I crossed the good old River Rubicon a long time ago.”
In the beginning was the word, which he would sooner or later use to start a novel. Whatever word was put into his mind switched him into full spate at the sight of me in the doorway.
“People are cracking up so fast you’d think God had auctioned off His old fashioned single shot musket and gone back to the Middle East to buy a machine gun for a guinea. I’m afraid to open The Times and read the obituaries of those who have popped off at my age or younger. Or I’m terrified at finding my own obituary — though I should be so lucky — and then where would I be? I’d have to get up from my cosy study and find out who it was had killed me, so that I could kill him, then do the right thing and die.”
I sat on the sofa without waiting for the invitation. Nearer seventy than sixty, my father didn’t look much above fifty. Unlike most people, it was boozing, smoking, and humping young women that had stopped age crumbling him. He was tall and lithe, and not the man to get on the wrong side of.
I hadn’t called to hear about the dead and dying but to unload my troubles, if such they turned out to be, though I should have known that a walking penis like Blaskin would only hear me when he was ready, the drunken bastard so needing to whinge about his hard life as a novelist that he had neither time nor space for anybody else.
“Of course, God does scythe down the young as well.” He smiled at the notion, drawing red fire to the tip of a choice Havana, and giving the glass of five-star Napoleon a touch of his rubbery lips. “If he didn’t, a superabundance of the vicious young would kill too many of us off in our prime, in their scramble to get old and enjoy the durian fruits of age themselves. Life is a battlefield, and no mistake.”
As if even speech wore him out — though it never could — he lay back in his armchair, the folds of his Mandarin-style dressing gown falling around a long body terminated at the top by a head utterly bereft of hair. The long white scar down the middle of his pink scalp, which he swore came from a too close encounter with German shrapnel at the Gothic Line in Italy during the war was, so I believed, the hatchet mark of a maddened husband.
His lips and nose were large, forehead noble — to be fair — but his big ears hadn’t been serviceable enough to hear a jealous husband on the stairs, nor his blue eyes sufficiently acute to see him, before the unclothed woman by his side could scream a warning. He used the incident, properly disguised, in one of his immortal novels — as he liked to call them — telling how the husband had gone to board a plane for Hong Kong and, finding the departure time put back five hours, went home to spend it with his ever-loving wife. Catching her in bed with Blaskin, he went calmly to the kitchen for a sharp and shining cleaver, and came out to do the business.
Back from the hospital, bandaged like a mummy of Ancient Egypt, Blaskin consoled himself that he had lived through an unusual experience. The marks of a lifetime gave such a raffish aspect to his appearance that even young girls, out of curiosity mostly, wanted to get closer, and he had never been one to turn them down.
How long he would maunder on didn’t bear thinking about, and I could have waited more patiently had a drink been on offer but, from malice rather than meanness, his generosity was erratic. Him being my father it would be difficult flattering him into pushing the bottle forward, so I had to wait on my feet till his drawling smatter of tabletalk came to an end, and he looked up as if seeing me for the first time. I might have been a piece of driftwood instead of his only son. “And what, dear boy, brings you here, so close to dawn?”
Mabel Drudge-Perkins came from the kitchen with a beaker of powdered chicory for me, and a silver pot on a tray with cup and saucer for Blaskin, the aroma of his coffee suggesting the best mocha. Did she think I was the window cleaner, or the plumber? She got a nod, but no thank you.
Mischief in Blaskin’s eyes led to a touch on her arse as she leaned gracefully to pour for him. “How kind of you, my love,” he said.
She was in her middle forties, fair hair neatly bunned, cold blue eyes, straight nose, censorious lips, and sculptured bosom under a white blouse buttoned to the neck. Her lips were set in a curve of eternal disappointment, perhaps after a decade of living with Blaskin, because if his first purpose on earth was serial philandering, and the next an indulgence in writing novels, a third was to torment her sufficiently to make sure she would never leave him.
“Don’t go away, darling. I know you like your elevenses in the kitchen so that you can cool the coffee with your tears, but I prefer to have you with me now and again, and not only in bed. I’m a modern man, after all. Women’s Liberation rules my heart.” He turned to me. “As I hope it does yours, my one and only — or so I have to take your mother’s word for it — son.”
“Bollocks.” I admired his tomahawk parenthesis, and was not unpleased when Mabel’s left eye flickered at my language.
“You see, Michael,” he said, “it’s not done to use a swear word in front of a lady. The world is full of divine, courageous, energetic, beautiful, intelligent and self-sacrificing women, who are too often married — or otherwise associated with — brutal, ugly, unfeeling and treacherous men. It’s very sad, but that’s why, if you fall off the carousel of matrimony, it can be dashed hard to take up with someone again.”
Mabel watched her lover sip from the superfine Meissen cup. “That’s very true, Gilbert,” she said, with a glint of fight in her eyes, “so men such as you have to be careful, and not drive them too far.”
“The likes of me,”—her phrasing clearly displeased him — “were born careful, but this coffee, my love, tastes so good you must have put in a fair measure of deadly nightshade. You do excel yourself now and again.”
“Which reminds me,” she said, “isn’t it time you tidied your study? It’s in an awful mess.”
“Let it stay that way. Neatness is a sign of old age. As long as it’s in a state of squalor I know where everything is. Your passion for creating order out of chaos has cost me a novel or two in the past. Ever since we got together you’ve wanted to destroy me as a writer so that I’ll pay unremitting attention to you, and if it wasn’t for a beautiful foreign girl coming through the door now and again to talk to me about a thesis on my work I might forget I ever was a writer.”