“Hey,” Malloy said.
“Hey,” the kid replied over the top of his book with a great show of sullen indifference.
“I’m investigating the disappearance of Angel Dare.” Malloy said. He indicated the dusty camera up above the kid’s head. “I was wondering if it might be possible to take a look at the security tapes from last Friday.”
“You a cop?” the kid asked, finally looking up at Malloy. His dark eyes were sharp under the mask of acne.
“Used to be,” Malloy said. “I’m just looking into the matter for a private party.”
“Angel Dare, that’s the porno chick, huh?” the kid asked, warming to the topic. “The one on the news who shot that guy.”
“Right,” Malloy said.
I had been standing slightly behind Malloy, keeping a low profile. It wasn’t until that kid mentioned me that I started to feel like I had big arrows flashing over my head. Like the whole dressed-up-like-a-boy business couldn’t fool a blind man. In spite of that unshakable feeling, the kid didn’t even look at me. He was just talking about some chick on TV.
“That’s messed up,” the kid said.
“Right,” Malloy said again. “How about those tapes?”
The kid put the book down and stood.
“Come on,” the kid said, looking around. “I’m not supposed to leave the station, but...”
We followed him down a narrow first floor hallway that I had never noticed before. At the end of the hall was a door with no number. The Mexican kid opened the door with a key on a ring that extended out from his belt on a spring-loaded black cord. Inside was a closet-sized office cluttered with cleaning products and plastic file boxes.
“They only keep the tapes for ten days,” the kid said, pulling a plastic crate down from a high shelf. “Then they recycle them. It’s a good thing you didn’t wait too long to ask about it. Do you think there could be, like, clues or something on the tape?”
“Could be,” Malloy said.
The kid frowned into the box and Malloy frowned too.
“What?” Malloy asked.
“I hate to tell you this,” the kid said. “But I think last Friday is missing.”
“What do you mean, missing?” Malloy asked, taking the box from the kid’s arms and sifting efficiently through the contents. “Son of a bitch.”
“Where...” I paused and cleared my throat, struggling to deepen my voice as best I could. “Where’s the regular guy?”
“I don’t know,” the kid said shrugging. “I just started this job today.”
Malloy shot me a look.
“Okay, kid,” Malloy said. “Thanks anyway.”
“You think somebody took it?” the kid asked.
“Probably,” Malloy said, shrugging like it didn’t matter.
“Maybe the cops have it,” the kid offered helpfully. “Or maybe somebody broke in and stole it. Like maybe that porno chick snuck in here in the middle of the night so that she could... I don’t know, hide some evidence or something like that.”
Malloy nodded as if he was seriously considering the kid’s theory. I supposed I ought to have been pissed at all this speculation about me, but it seemed so irrelevant, like a discussion of a movie I’d never seen. Like they really were just talking about some chick on TV.
We left Cammarota in the back room and hustled back out to the lobby. As Malloy held the glass door open for me to pass, he leaned in and hissed in my ear.
“You don’t know me,” he said. “Walk down to Victory and I’ll meet you.”
I turned left out the door and started walking quickly, but not too quickly, away. Over my shoulder I heard a man’s voice call Malloy’s name, but I didn’t want to risk a backward glance.
I turned south on Vesper Avenue, the whole back of my body clenched and cringing as if expecting a bullet. My buzzcut scalp felt painfully vulnerable. I was dying to know what the hell was going on back there, but I didn’t want to chance being recognized. I couldn’t hear anything but the sounds of the street. Cars, distant music, a hedge trimmer. I reached Victory Boulevard much sooner than I meant to and stood there on the corner by the 7-Eleven, feeling stupid and unsure. I turned and looked up at the mural on the side of the Family Medical Center building next door. I’d seen that mural about a million times, but I’d never actually paid attention. It showed three guys standing on top of the planet Earth, reaching for a sort of three-way high five. One guy was wearing a winter hat and scarf. The other two were in t-shirts. I had no idea who those guys were supposed to be.
I couldn’t stop myself from looking back toward my building but I was too far away and couldn’t see anything at all. I had no idea where Malloy was. Cars passed and people passed and I was hit with a sudden terror that I was really totally alone. Disconnected. No home, no car, no real identity anymore. Nowhere to go but jail. I pressed my body against the sooty skin of the 7-Eleven building, feeling like I needed to hold on to something solid or else I would just disintegrate or tumble up into the smoggy yellow sky.
Following swiftly on the heels of that fear was a kind of slinking guilt. I kept on telling myself not to become dependent on Malloy, and yet the second he was out of my sight I panicked like a little kid lost in the supermarket. I had money. I could find a motel that didn’t require a credit card and hole up. Find a way to contact Didi. She would know where to find Jesse. I could make Jesse tell me where I could find his boss, that bland-faced fucker who was clearly responsible for everything that had been done to me. I didn’t need a goddamn babysitter.
I unzipped my duffel and pulled out the little robot. I don’t know what I was hoping for. Maybe I thought that holding that talisman from my former life would calm and center me somehow. In the end it just made me feel self-conscious and silly, like some loony homeless person you would cross the street to avoid. Next thing I knew I’d be saving my pee in glass jars and pushing a shopping cart.
“Angel,” Malloy said, hand on my shoulder, and I jumped like he had goosed me, dropping the little robot.
Malloy deftly caught the robot before it could smash on the concrete. I turned back to him and wrapped my arms around myself.
“Christ,” I said. “You scared the shit out of me.”
Malloy looked down at the robot and up at me, then handed it back to me without comment. I stuck the robot back into my bag, feeling more foolish than ever.
“What happened?” I asked.
“It was Erlichman, one of those young hard-ons that caught your case,” Malloy said. “Wanted to know what I was doing snooping around your office.”
“What did you tell him?” I asked, following Malloy as he turned and headed east on Victory. The sun was beating down on my newly shorn scalp, giving me a nasty headache.
“I told him what he already knew,” Malloy said. “That Didi paid me to look into your disappearance. I asked about the tape too. Erlichman doesn’t have it, so I’m guessing either the guy from Vegas or his boss has got it. They’ll be paying a visit to everyone that visited your office that day.”
“Shit,” I said, trying to shake the image of Zandora lying dead in her cotton panties and focus on remembering who all had been into the office on the last day of my former life. “I remember several of the girls came by and at least one director that I can think of.”
“Erlichman is gone,” Malloy said. “Think it would help jog your memory to go back up to your office?”