“Nah, I’m not applying anywhere through school.”
She throws her arms up in bewilderment. “What? Why not?”
“Because I don’t want to be a consultant or a banker or work for a pharmaceutical company. And those are the only companies hiring through LWBS.”
“Why don’t you?”
“They suck your soul. Did you see Harry Potter? Remember the dementors? I don’t want that to happen to me.”
“It’s not that bad,” she says quickly. “What do you want to do?”
“What do I want to do, what do I want to do.” I lean against the doorway. “I have no idea.” Sleep? Watch movies?
“Do you want to hear some fabulous female speakers in the auditorium?”
“Like who?”
“Megan Milton, CEO of E-World.”
“I’ve never bought anything off the Web.”
“Get out! Come with me and learn how safe it is.”
“Who else is speaking?”
“I think the woman who runs Body Shop and also some nonprofit female executives. Come on!”
Not a movie, but I wouldn’t mind spending some quality time with Layla. Last month I couldn’t stop thinking about Kimmy. Now I can’t stop thinking about Layla. Ever since our Halloween conversation, I can’t get her long blond hair out of my mind. I must be a flake. One day I’m proposing marriage to Kimmy on the bathroom wall, and the next day I’m fantasizing about another woman’s long bond hair dripping over my naked body.
If I thought Kimmy was out of my league, Layla isn’t even in the same hemisphere. At least Kimmy had the Jewish thing going, which I thought would give me an edge. A Jewish girl usually wants to marry a Jewish guy, right? But even if Layla isn’t into this whole caste system thing, she has her eye on someone else. Some WASP-y prince. I’d say my chances of wooing her are effectively zero.
Which is a good thing, I suppose, because if I brought her home for Hanukkah dinner, both my mother and bubbe would have a heart attack.
So instead, I’m going to take what I can get, friendship with Layla. “I think I’ll come along. Not sure if Megan can put on as entertaining a show as our beer-satiated classmates, but whatever.”
“Give me ten minutes to change, and I’ll meet you downstairs.”
She’s changing? The khakis and Polo top aren’t good enough? I look down at my sweatpants and fleece sweatshirt, and decide it wouldn’t hurt to spruce up a bit.
I change into black pants and a shirt I tuck in, and meet her downstairs. She’s wearing a striped pantsuit and looking fantastic. She’s holding a leather folder and a fountain pen. I’m assuming she’s planning on taking notes. Should be a wild and crazy night. Oh, what one does for “friendship.”
She puts her arm on my shoulder. “Jamie, I have to tell you something important.”
Is it possible? Does she like me?
“I worked for Rosen Brothers and we were the ones who recommended to personnel at your hospital to scale back. And ever since I found out you used to work there, I’ve been feeling horrendously guilty.”
Damn. Not what I was hoping for. “Don’t feel bad. The truth was, I wasn’t happy there, anyway. Working at a hospital wasn’t the right environment for me. I tend to absorb my surroundings, and I ended up feeling down most of the time. So getting laid off ended up being good for me.”
“Wow,” she says. “I feel a huge sense of relief.”
“Don’t worry about it.”
“If I can ever do anything to help you get a job, let me know.”
I hold open the glass door. “Actually, Layla, I could use one favor.”
“Anything.” She tightens her coat around her.
I take a deep breath. “This is going to sound very strange. But for some reason, LWBS thinks I’m a woman.”
She stops walking and laughs. “Pardon me?”
“I don’t know why,” I lie. “It’s some sort of glitch in the system. Because of my name, I guess. I’ve tried calling and e-mailing so someone will fix it, but no one has gotten back to me. You have access to the main computer, since you’re on the applications committee. I was wondering if there was any way you could set things straight?”
“That’s hilarious. Are you on the WOB e-list and everything?”
“I am. I even got an e-mail for tonight.” I’ve gotten three e-mails from the Women of Business society. And trust me, I’d love to join. Talk about an easy place to pick up.
She considers it. “So all I would have to do is change the W to an M?”
“Yup.” I try to sound casual, as though it’s no big deal.
“All right.” She exaggerates giving me a once-over. “You are, in fact, a man, aren’t you?”
“I’m all man, darlin’.” I’d certainly like to prove it to her.
Some of the speeches are interesting. Right now a woman named Danielle Grand is explaining her job as executive director at the nonprofit Girls Group in Danbury, which is about ten minutes away. “Girls Group sets up art, athletic, business and career-building programs for young women aged seven to seventeen, with the aim of building confidence, and teaching them that they can make positive contributions to the world,” she explains.
Layla starts scribbling furiously.
“Most of you here tonight,” Ms. Grand continues, “have probably noticed that only thirty percent of the students at LWBS are women. To significantly increase the number of female business owners and leaders, we have to increase the flow of women into key educational gateways such as business schools. And one way to do this, something that I do at Girls Group, is to motivate young women to prepare for a business career at an early age.
“Nonprofit work is not for everyone. You must have passion for the cause. That’s the intangible reward that compensates for less income. And trust me, the income is much, much less than what you’d make at a bank or consulting firm. The cause-arming young women with the tools to make a difference in their lives-is something that fuels my passion.”
I fade in and out of the rest of her speech. The truth is, I can’t stop thinking about my application lie. About why I got accepted. About why I applied.
It was research. For an article. I had just seen the movie Soul Man. The one where C. Thomas Howell pretends to be black so he can get a scholarship to Harvard. There were articles about affirmative action everywhere, and I thought it would be an interesting study. I researched different programs and found that MBA schools claimed that they were committed to diversity but that women didn’t have a competitive advantage when applying. I thought it was bullshit and that women would have an easier time getting in. So I decided to apply to ten different schools. Five as a male and five as a female. I handed in the exact same application to all ten schools. The only difference was my gender.
Out of the ten schools I applied to I was rejected at all of the ones I applied to as Jamie the male. For the ones I applied to as a female I was rejected at two, but accepted at one, and asked to interview at another two. I thought, busted! My thesis was proven correct. I would write the article and expose the bullshit.
But there was the acceptance to LWBS. Sitting on my desk. Signed by Layla’s boss, Dorothy. Winking at me. Packaged with a brochure promising career advancement, wealth and leadership positions. And I thought-well, why not?
Why not go? Why should women have the advantage? If LWBS claimed they didn’t accept based on gender then it shouldn’t matter anyway, right?
I look at Layla staring intently at the speaker. She’s one person who wouldn’t agree with me. Who might even turn me in.
Maybe I shouldn’t have asked her to change my official gender for me. But I didn’t have a choice. I needed to get a new student card, or I wouldn’t be allowed to write my exams. And she’s the only person I knew who had access to change the letter F to a letter M, so my student card could be printed out and not give me away.