“I can’t wear a hat out at night. I just blow-dried my hair for thirty minutes. I’m not ruining it with a ha-” Swish! She slips on the ice, and her legs split apart like she’s an action-adventure star doing a stunt. I seize her arm so she doesn’t fall.
“Maybe we should slow down,” she says. “It’s not easy to walk on ice in stilettos.”
Maybe someone shouldn’t be wearing stilettos in the middle of winter, eh?
layla’s new fantasy
Wednesday, March 17, 1:32 a.m.
Don’t tell me…did he just fall asleep? With his hand on my clitoris? While he was trying to make me orgasm? We just had sex, and he came, and now it was my turn to come. Or it would have been if he hadn’t fallen asleep.
I’m not impressed. Just because he’s well endowed doesn’t mean he can take naps in the middle of coitus. He’s too big. It hurt when he inserted himself at certain angles. His penis is very straight, and could use a curve, like my banana.
Now what am I supposed to do? I wish I had my banana. No movement. I nudge him again. “Hello? My turn.”
Dead to the world.
Maybe if I catalogue the contents in his room I’ll fall asleep. His closet is open and I can see one, two, three, four, five, six…ten…no fifteen pairs of shoes. How many shoes does one man need? Shoes aside, I’m still aroused.
Maybe if I think about something non-sexy, like snow, I’ll be able to fall asleep.
Lots of snow. White snow. Wet snow. Wet.
Now I’m getting all aroused again. I guess I’ll have to do it myself. I turn over and slip my hand downward. He doesn’t move. I start to rub just a little bit. All good. He still isn’t moving.
As I start getting a little more into it, I notice that the bed is shaking. Not shaking a lot like in the Exorcist, but just rocking like we’re having a minor earthquake.
I stop and the bed stops shaking. Then I start again, slowly. He groans and turns over.
I freeze. But his eyes are still closed. I start again. Then stop.
This is kind of a turn-on. Once again I start. This time I picture a scene from an erotic novel I read years ago. A man and a woman are dancing at a party. The guy lifts up her skirt and undoes his fly, and they have sex right there in the middle of the dance floor. People are dancing right next to them, but no one can see a thing.
My legs start shaking.
And I imagine I’m dancing, moving around the dance floor, and he’s whispering into my ear, how good I feel, how good he feels, and it’s…my God, it’s Jamie!…and my legs are shaking, and the floor is shaking, and the bed is rocking…uhoh, the bed is really rocking, and I’m about to orgasm-
“What are you doing?” Brad asks, sitting up.
I stop. “Trying to orgasm.”
“You’re shaking the bed,” he says, then turns over.
Well, excuse me! As I wait for lover-boy to fall back to sleep, I realize something: he doesn’t have any fish. I didn’t see an aquarium anywhere in the apartment. Why did he write his whole essay on fish if he doesn’t have even one? What kind of lying freak am I dating?
I knew there would be something wrong with him. I sit up, put back on my clothes, leave him a goodbye-and-don’t-call note, and sneak out.
When I’m back home in bed, I return to the party.
Jamie, huh? Passionate, loving, caring Jamie.
Oh, Jamie!
kimmy boards the train to pain
Thursday, March 18, 9:30 a.m.
I. Am. In. Serious. Pain.
“Time to get up,” Russ says, jumping out of bed.
Can’t. Move. “Ghjrfhft,” I groan.
“Ready to get going?”
Going? Going back under the covers. “Going where?”
He laughs. “What do you mean, where? Boarding.”
He wants to go snowboarding…again? “I can barely move from boarding yesterday.”
We flew into Montreal on Monday, spent two days touring, then rented a car to drive up to Tremblant. Apparently my dreams of slaloming were outdated. “No one skis anymore, Kimmy,” Russ said. “We board.”
It was fun at first. The sky was a brilliant blue, the air fresh, the sun warm on my face. I wore my new ski pants and puffy jacket (what debt?), sunglasses and gloves, and rented boots and a board. We took the chairlift up, and up and up, stood at the top of the mountain and…
I fell. Again and again. And again. Russ was a champion at it, flying from side to side. Show-off.
“I was thinking that today could be a cuddle-by-the-fire-place-and-drink-Baileys day,” I say hopefully.
“But we paid for two days of boarding.”
Does he always have to be doing something? “But I want to relax.”
“But it’s beautiful out.”
But, but, but. My butt is killing me from all that falling. “But I’m not a good boarder.”
“You won’t get better by not practicing.”
Even talking to him is exhausting. “Can’t we just relax? We’ve been running around all week.” We’ve shopped, we’ve Metroed, we’ve boarded and we’ve hiked. Ever since his hand has healed he’s wanted to do every possible activity imaginable. “This is spring break, not spring workout.”
“I was happy to stay at the Zoo for the break. You were the one who wanted to get away.”
“Get away for a vacation. Not to make myself even more worn-out.”
“But we’re here. Let’s not waste any time.”
“Since when is relaxing a waste of time?” Is cuddling a waste of time? Next he’ll be saying that being with me is a waste of time.
“But the tickets!” he says, jutting out his chin.
“So go.” I storm out of the bed and go to the bathroom.
Sometimes he’s so annoying. I sit on the toilet, and then see a splotch of red in my panties. Shit. I’m bleeding. It’s my period. Damn. I don’t know if I should be happy or upset. On one hand, I’m relieved I’m not pregnant; on the other hand, I can’t believe I got it now.
Damn. I’ve ruined the vacation. He’s going to start fantasizing about someone else. He’ll meet some sexy boarder on the hill who knows all the right moves, and he’ll forget all about me. And then who will I live with this summer? Not that he’s asked me yet, but why wouldn’t he? There is no point in us having our own places when we sleep in the same bed every night, anyway. I haven’t suggested it outright yet, but I’ve been hinting. I’d prefer if he came up with it on his own. Unfortunately, I don’t think skipping boarding will help my cause.
I find my emergency tampon in my makeup case, then turn the shower on and call, “We better hurry if we want to hit the slopes.”
The bathroom is full of steam. He steps into the shower and I wrap my arms around his chest. If I give him a blow job now, he might want to skip sex tonight. Here’s hoping that the slopes wear him out.
jamie talks the talk
Friday, March 19, 1:15 a.m.
Ring, ring.
Phones ringing in the middle of the night make me nervous. I pause Casablanca and pick up.
Me: Hello?
Voice on phone: Hi, ya! It’s Layla.
Me: Everything okay?
Layla: Of course.
Me: (Exhaling in relief and then singing her name song.)
Layla: You’re up!
Me: So are you, apparently.
Layla: I can’t sleep.
Me: Where’s Bradley the frog?
Layla: (Loud sigh.) That didn’t work out.
Me: (Heart soaring into the sky like a kite on speed.) What happened?
Layla: He wasn’t as perfect as I thought.
Me: After all that?
Layla: It happens. How are you? How’s the job search going?
Me: Job search? Is that what I’m supposed to be doing?
Layla: Does that mean you haven’t found anything?