She tried, and found herself relaxing around his manhood. He rocked his pelvis, pushing himself inside farther and farther until he hit a barrier that made her cry out and try to scoot back from him in pain.
He held her in place with his heavy body. "This will hurt. I do not know of a way to prevent it." But he wished he could. She could see it in his glowing eyes.
That comforted her as no words could have. "A short, sharp pain is better than a long, drawn-out one," she whispered.
He nodded and thrust, breaking through the barrier and embedding himself to the hilt.
She cried out in pain, tears leaking out of her eyes, but she did not fight his possession. There would be pleasure beyond the pain. There had to be, or all women would join nunneries.
He held his body still and kissed her. "It will get better."
"You promise?"
"I promise."
"But it hurts so much."
"I'm sorry, love." He kissed her again, renewing his ministrations with his thumb. The pain began to get lost in the pleasure.
It was not gone completely, but the pleasure grew until it was more consuming than the pain. She made a small move with her hips and he matched it, increasing the depths of his strokes until he was withdrawing almost completely before pushing back into her, every thrust bringing an intensity of pleasure that astonished her.
She could not help moving beneath him and he urged her on with words of praise and pleas for more. He was as much at her mercy as she was at his. That knowledge sent her pleasure spiraling out of control until their bodies locked together and he yelled something in Chrechte as they both shuddered their completion.
She told him she loved him again.
He collapsed on top of her and then rolled to his side, curving her into his body as if he could not bear to be apart even a few inches.
She did not know how much time had passed before he started speaking. "My father was a wise man, if hotheaded. He must have seen something in Ulf I did not early on. We all assumed it was Ulf's lack of a wolf nature that made our father change toward him, but I remember how Ulf reacted to the fact that he did not go through the change. Each month that went by during that year, he grew more and more sullen. He got into fights with other boys and used his position as laird's son to try to manipulate others. My father saw these things. He and my mother argued about them because she thought Ulf was just showing the tendency to lead."
"But Ulf said your father changed after he showed his lack of a wolf nature."
"Father and Ulf's relationship changed before that, but until I looked back at the past with the eyes of a man, I did not see it. I do think the fact that he was not a werewolf influenced how my father felt. My mother never accepted my father's beast completely and he never accepted the lack of a beast completely in his son. He was still hoping Ulf would go into the change late when he died."
"But he had already named you his heir."
"Because he did not see Ulf as fit to lead. Emily, I meant what I told my brother. If our children have your fierceness and your loyalty, I do not care if they have my wolf nature. You were right to accuse me of being blind."
"I wasn't that plain-spoken."
"Mayhap not, but it is what you meant. I blinded myself to my brother's true nature and the threat he represented, but I will not be blinded to your value, or that of our children if they are as fully human as you are."
"If we have children…" she said sadly.
He smiled at her. "Oh, we'll have them."
It was only then that she realized his mouth had not moved once the whole time he'd been talking.
"You mindspoke to me!"
"Yes."
"I want to try."
"Go ahead."
You owe me an apology, she said with her thoughts.
He grimaced. "I do not like saying I'm sorry."
"I don't imagine you do. You're awfully arrogant."
He rolled his eyes. "I'm sorry, truly sorry for the accusations I made earlier today and for not recognizing how important you were to me to begin with."
Her eyes misted. "All right then. I'll forgive you this once, but if you ever do such a thing again, I'll put nettles on your side of the bed."
"We'll share the middle, but I have no doubt you'll find some way to make your displeasure felt."
"I'm glad you realize that."
"Now you will apologize to me."
"For insulting you when you first took us?"
"For looking at Talorc's cock with such interest."
"It wasn't interest, it was curiosity. Surely you can see the difference."
"From this point forward you will reserve such curiosity for me. Promise me this."
"I promise."
He waited.
"And I'm sorry, but I'm a very curious sort of person."
"I know, love, I know."
It was the second time he'd called her that. Perhaps it would not take until they were old and gray before he admitted his feelings. Being who she was, Emily simply asked outright, "Do you love me?"
His smile was warmer than the summer sun. "Can't you tell? I've told you twice now in Chrechte."
"Oh." But the daft man had not realized hearing the words in a language she understood would have made her choice to marry him so much easier. "Say it in Gaelic," she demanded.
He did. Then in English and Latin after that.
She was crying by the time he was done. He kissed her all over her face, sipping at her tears and then gently claiming her mouth in a tender connection that filled her with absolute certainty of his sincerity. Afterward, he kissed her once more on her temple. "I will love you to my dying breath."
"And I will love you just as long."
"You had better."
"Arrogant Chrechte."
"Precious mate."
She smiled, blinking away more tears of joy. He returned her smile and cuddled her into his side. Finally, they slept.
The next morning they heard the news that Ulf had discovered the escape route she and Cait had used to get out of the keep. The walls had been slick with rain and the wind had been blowing fiercely the night before. And as Cait had predicted, his plaid had not been adequate to make a sufficiently long rope. He was found at the base of the castle wall with his neck broken.
While it was a terrible tragedy, Emily was relieved for Lachlan's sake. Justice had been met for the murderer, but the man she loved had not been forced to mete it out on his own brother.
Lachlan was furious at the discovery. Not because Ulf was dead, but because the women had risked their own lives climbing out.
Emily tried to explain that it hadn't been raining when they did it, that their rope had been much longer and that she and Cait were never in any danger of falling. But it did no good. Lachlan only yelled louder and Drustan glowered more fiercely until both women ended up promising never, ever to try such a thing again. (Though apparently Cait had already promised this once, having told Drustan of their rope the night before. Emily had been too addled by the prospect of marriage to remember.)
"And did you ever consider the security of the keep while you were leaving ropes dangling from windows?" Lachlan demanded. " 'Tis a good thing Cait thought to tell Drustan." Emily did not take umbrage at the question, for it came after twenty minutes spent harping on her personal safety. She came first, but now he felt the need to slip back into his role as laird. However, she believed her reasons for being forgetful were more than adequate.
"Had you not overwhelmed my attention with a wedding and what came after, I would surely have remembered to tell you about the rope before it could be of danger."
"Are you trying to imply our marriage inconvenienced you, English?"
"Sent the rest of my thoughts flitting from my head more like," she said with a smile.
That pleased him and he smiled as well.