Abigail flinched, not sure if he meant Sybil or her.
“I told you I would not apologize for saying such. Your mother has stone for a heart.”
“Only when it comes to me.”
“Why?”
“Why do you think?”
“If I knew I would not ask.”
“Because I am damaged. There is no place for me in her life.” Just as Talorc had said there was no place for Abigail among his clan now.
Even now, hours later, those words sliced through her like a dagger.
He said a word she did not know. She didn’t ask him to translate because she was fairly certain she didn’t want to know it either.
“If your plan was to get me to bring you to the Highlands and then reject you for your weakness so I would send you to live with your sister—which was a hopelessly flawed plan, by the by—why did you not tell me the truth once we reached my fortress?”
This discussion had gone better than she could have hoped and the fact that he was still asking questions gave Abigail a sliver of hope. Just enough to prick at her though, not enough to truly lift her spirits. “By the time we had reached the Sinclair holding, I knew I did not want to leave you.”
“You continued to deceive me with the hopes of staying with me?” he asked as if to clarify. “You were so certain that revealing your secret would result in my rejection of you?”
“Yes.” To both.
He did not react to that admission in any way.
When the silence between them had stretched the point of pain, she asked, “What will you do with me now?”
“Are you still hoping to be sent to live among the Balmoral?”
“No.” Hadn’t she just confirmed she wanted to stay with him?
He looked at her with bad-tempered demand.
If he wanted it spelled out, then spell it out she would. “I want to stay here, as your wife, if you will have me.”
“Why?”
“I love you. I told you that yesterday.”
“You could have been lying.”
Her broken heart shattered a little more. “I wasn’t.”
“Have you lied to me about anything else?”
“No, but I have hidden something from you.”
“What?”
“I began hearing a voice in my head. I like to think it is you, but it can’t be anything except my imagination. I do not hear anything else. Well, besides the one night I heard the howl of a wolf.”
“Is that all?”
“Yes.”
He nodded and then turned to go, as if all had been settled between them.
“Doesn’t that worry you?” she asked desperately. “The voices in my head?”
“No.”
Was that because he intended to get rid of her? “Are you going to send me away?”
“You are my wife.”
She had no reply for that, and before she could conjure one up, he had gone.
Talorc ran through the forest in his wolf form. He had swum in the loch to clear his whiskey-addled head, but it had done nothing to dispel his confusion in light of his wife’s revelations.
She had deceived him just as Tamara had deceived his father. Only his father had realized his wife’s true nature too late. Talorc was now all too aware of Abigail’s clever manipulations, but he had no desire to banish her.
The problem was that, like his soldiers, he admired his wife’s ability to hide her weakness. He could not help feeling proud that she was so talented at reading lips and speaking, no one had guessed at the fact she could not hear. The admiration he felt was at odds with the sense of betrayal choking his insides, and yet he could not rid himself of it.
No more than he could rid himself of the desire, no—the need—to keep his wife. Not that he had much of a choice. Were he to banish Abigail from the Sinclair holding, he banished any hope of children to carry his Chrechte lineage along with her. As a true-mated Chrechte, he was not physically capable of engaging in the mating act with anyone but Abigail. At least, until that mating was severed through death, or a betrayal so great, even his wolf spirit would reject her.
Apparently, his wolf was not bothered by Abigail’s perfidy. He felt as possessive and protective toward her as ever. He still craved her approval and the opportunity to scent her in his wolf form. It was a craving that grew stronger each day, becoming acute when the least incident indicated another man’s encroachment on what he considered his territory.
The wolf had howled in displeasure at the sight of the furs Guaire had slept on in Talorc and Abigail’s bedchamber. Talorc had wanted to throw the damn things out the window. He hadn’t, showing remarkable restraint in his opinion. Particularly when his mate had rolled them up so carefully, her scent mixing with Guaire’s on the fur.
His angel had much to learn about the Chrechte nature.
And him.
She claimed to love Talorc, but in the same breath, Abigail had indicated she thought him capable of throwing away his wife for something so insignificant as an inability to hear. Surely that was a grief she had to bear, not him. Her deafness did not impact him except that he had to be more diligent in his protection, knowing she was less aware of her surroundings than he had believed.
It also explained the times he thought she ignored him when in fact she simply had not realized he’d been speaking.
How could that be a bad thing?
Yet she had hidden the truth with a diligence that both worried and impressed him. No Chrechte had ever hidden their nature with more talent and ingenuity than his wife hid her deafness. When the time came for him to trust her with the secrets of his people, he could not doubt her ability to maintain his confidences.
But he could not help his concern at the knowledge she had deceived him so well and so easily. She had assured him she had not lied about anything else, but could he believe her?
She had married him with the intention of using him to gain access to her sister. She had spoken her marriage vows and the ancient Chrechte pledge of troth without meaning the words at all. That truth twisted something deep inside him, hurting in a way he had not done since losing each of his parents. His sacred mate had spoken her Chrechte promises like a child with her fingers crossed.
That, at least, caused his wolf to grieve.
Despite the fact that she was English and human, he had given his oath in good faith, both before the Lowlander priest and in the cave before his Chrechte brethren. From the very beginning, he had made no plans to find a way out of the unwanted covenant. The fact that his angel had approached their marriage with such spurious intentions acted like a spear right through his gut.
He hated discovering she had the power to hurt him thus. It made him angry to have his emotions at anyone’s mercy, even his mate’s, but particularly a mate whom he could not trust. It was a state he had convinced himself he would never experience. Talorc had been so sure he would never make the mistakes of his father.
Yet here he found himself vulnerable to an English human woman. ’Twas an anathema to be sure.
She claimed to have changed her mind about using him, as if he should now believe she wanted to be with him. As if that should make her actions acceptable.
It did not. It only showed she was capable of betrayal for the sake of her own agenda, just as Tamara had been. Even if Abigail had come to love him as she claimed, she had started out with the intention of using him, of throwing away their marriage and their Chrechte mating.
Just how much like his dead stepmother was Abigail?
It was that question that kept him in wolf form running through the woods rather than returning to the fortress, to his wife.
Chapter 15
Talorc did not send Abigail away. At least not that day.
Of course, he wasn’t around to order her banishment. He’d disappeared after their discussion early that morning and had not returned to the fortress since.