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Jenna would take the offer of new spells without question, without caring what strings came attached to that power. But I wasn’t so short-sighted. This book was dangerous.

I flipped to the one of the pages lined with spells—

Sherrod was meticulous about breaking everything down for later. It took only a minute or two to translate the written.

It said: “to avoid the thought police.”

I looked over the lines of the spell, pieced them together in my head. Most verbal spells were only a few words long—but to write it out, and do it safely, you had to break each piece down into several lines worth of longhand. There were forms of “connection,” “thought,” and

“channel.”

A telepathy spell? I perked up, more intrigued than I was a moment ago. This didn’t have the staccato rhythm of a traditional spell—was it something Sherrod had invented himself? It sounded as though the spell could open a link between two minds, although I wasn’t sure what the name meant by the “thought police.”

I continued paging through the book, stopping every so often to translate the title of spells.

Sherrod was a fan of obscure names, ones that didn’t always explain what the spell actually did so much as some anecdote of his life I wasn’t privy to. Or maybe he just liked to be pretentious. Some of his spells had the ring of bad poetry. “Crows nesting on my heart.”

“Forever the blanket of silence.” “The empty night sours.”

There were mentions of my mother, and Jenna’s, but it wasn’t a traditional journal. More like random thoughts and observations that he needed to get out, and the spellbook was there.

Before I even realized I was doing it, I started copying some of the spells in my English notebook, tucked between notes I’d taken about the themes of Macbeth. I followed each entry with my guess as to what the spell did.

The problem was in the details. Some of the spells were self-explanatory—Sherrod had written out a whole section of spells that made his school life inconsequential. Spells to enhance memory and eloquence, ones that made him more persuasive—something he didn’t need—and spells to make people receptive to his ideas.

It was the other spells that had caught my interest, though. No one had ever mentioned that

Sherrod was something of a maverick when it came to learning magic. He preferred the spells he created with his own hands, rather than those he’d been taught. The same points were repeated constantly in the journaled sections—magic should constantly be evolving, but it was witches who forced it to stagnate. He thought the practice of handing down spellbooks was deplorable.

There were also whole passages that read like an opus to his ego. Emily continued to elude him, and Diana made it clear she wouldn’t play second fiddle. It was hard to reconcile the teen I was reading about—who clearly wanted both girls—with the man who was technically my father.

The other part that was troubling me was that there was nothing that suggested Sherrod

Daggett was drawn to the darkness. He wasn’t the outcast student, secretly thinking of how he’d get his revenge. There was only an occasional sense of his growing awareness of politics —of the Covens and their role in administrating our world. If anything, he sounded like a revolutionary. He had grand ideas, and thought outside the box.

If I didn’t know who he’d become, I could have almost admired him. At least his ideas—

Sherrod as a teenager sounded like a douchebag. I might be the same age now as he was when he wrote some of these entries, and I didn’t have an ounce of his self-awareness or his activism. And I hoped I wasn’t half the douche he was.

Then, somewhere around the last third of the book, the personal entries stopped. There were no more hints about how torn he was between the girls or how everyone should be involved in their government. The last section of the book was devoted to Coven spells, spells that utilized the bond between the witches. There was no explanation for what had changed—had Moonset changed him right from the start?

The next time I looked up from the book, my room looked different. Bright. I looked out the window, and realized the sun had risen already. I was tired—not exhausted like I’d stayed up all night reading—but the kind of tired that came from studying for too many hours at once. My mind was snapping with ideas and thoughts, but my body was struggling to keep up.

I needed coffee. I tucked the book back under the mattress and put my English notebook back in my bag. A quick review of my room didn’t show anything else out of the ordinary. At least not yet.

Bailey was already in our kitchen when I walked in. She sat at the island, her arms resting on the counter and her head resting on top of her wrists. She barely looked up when I approached.

“Hey, Bay,” I said softly. “You feeling okay?”

She shrugged, and I went to make a fresh pot of coffee while she slouched there. It was too early for anyone else to be up, so it was surprising that Bailey was not only up but had already come back over from her own house.

When Quinn came in a few minutes later, followed by Mal, I reconsidered what I thought of as “too early.”

“Did anyone get any sleep last night?”

Mal studied me, his eyes thoughtful. “Did you?”

“I’m making coffee,” I said, turning back to it while avoiding the question. “If anyone wants.”

“Yes, please,” Quinn said tiredly.

Mal took up the seat next to Bailey, eyes smudged dark just like hers.

“You two look like the walking dead,” I said, trying to pry a smile out of them. Hell, I would have settled for one of them. But Bailey was sleep-deprived and grumpy, and Mal looked a step beyond grumpy. Crabby?

“I stayed on the couch at Bailey’s house,” Mal added. There was something off about his voice. It was flat. Almost robotic? “Someone had to.”

The dig knocked me sideways. Was he saying I hadn’t done enough? I’d done everything I could to keep both Bailey and I safe!

He’s probably just sleep-deprived. Give him some time, and he’ll calm down. A weird squirming feeling in my gut said that this was more than just a rough night talking.

Were Mal and I fighting now? I knew we hadn’t talked much lately, but I had figured he was off doing his own thing. He was so against anything to do with the magic anyway. I just assumed he’d prefer it that way.

“Where’s Cole?” Quinn asked, looking down at Bailey.

It took her a minute to raise her head. “Sleeping,” she said, her expression unusually hostile.

“Hey, enough of that,” I said easily. “Don’t take it out on Quinn. Why don’t you go into the living room and curl up on the couch? Take a little nap or something.”

Without another word, Bailey got up from the kitchen island and headed into the living room.

Mal shrugged and followed her. When they were both gone, I looked in Quinn’s direction. “I guess it’s been a rough night for everyone.”

“Keep an eye on them,” he said, watching the direction they’d disappeared in. “Just in case.”

“Just in case of what?” I could feel last night’s frustration rearing up again. Quinn kept trying to take over, to edge me out of the way. But it wasn’t his job. He wasn’t the one who’d still be here in six months, looking after Bailey and the rest. I had to do it.

He held up his hands. “Just … in case. Let me know if anything’s off.”

“We’re. Fine.” I said, and that was the end of that.

Cole trudged over about an hour later, around the same time that Jenna graced us with her presence. Jenna and I were the only ones in any semblance of a good mood, although mine was more coffee based than anything else.