***
It was clear from just looking at him that it was Jake's dad that answered the door the next day. He smiled when he saw Logan, but the smile turned megawatt when he saw me—and our linked hands. "Asshole," he greeted Logan.
I laughed.
Logan chuckled, that deep manly chuckle I love so much. "You trying to make me look bad in front of my girl," he answered, stepping into the house.
We walked hand in hand to an office where Jake's dad motioned for us to sit. We did. Then he took a seat in the chair opposite and linked his fingers under his chin. And waited. For what—I don't know.
Eventually he broke the silence. Leaning forward with his hand outstretched to me, he said, "I'm Nathan, you must be—"
"Shit," Logan broke in, "Sorry, this is Amanda." He shook his head, clearing his thoughts.
We shook hands.
Then a loud screaming came from somewhere in the house. "Is that his car?" an excited voice rang out.
The office doors burst open, and a girl strolled in, followed by a woman. Jake's sister and mom I assumed. The girl halted immediately when she saw me. "Who are you?" she said, her eyebrows creasing. She looked me up and down. I felt self-conscious. 'Um..."
"Don't be rude, Julie," her mom reprimanded.
She rolled her eyes dramatically, but her eyes never left mine. "Logan?" she said, still eyeing me. "Who is she?"
Logan stood up slowly and stretched out his arms. "Julie, how are you?"
She smiled as she wrapped her arms around his waist—still glaring at me. I swear to God—she mouthed 'Back off bitch' just before he let go of her. I didn't know whether to laugh or piss my pants.
She finally tore her eyes away from me and I let go of the breath I didn't know I was holding. Pre-teen jealousy is a bitch—a bitch named Julie, apparently. "What are you doing here?" she cooed, looking up at him.
"It's adult business, Julie," Nathan interrupted. "Go to your room and play with your Barbies." He had a shit-eating smirk on his face.
"I do not play with Barbies, Daddy! Guh! You're so embarrassing!" she cried, before leaving the room.
"That's mean, honey," his wife scolded.
Logan sat back down.
Then the woman smiled warmly at me.
Nathan cleared his throat.
Logan's gaze snapped to him.
They glared at each other. Then Nathan shook his head, "You are an asshole," he said to Logan. Then to his wife, "Mandy," he motioned his hand to me. "This is Amanda. AKA the Logan Tamer."
Her head threw back in laughter.
"Well, it's about time." She nudged Logan's side. Then shook my hand, "I'm an Amanda, too. But it's been a long time since anyone has called me that."
She faced Logan. "I made those cookies you like. You want me to bag 'em?"
Logan's grin took over his face. "You know Mandy, if you weren't married, and I didn't have a girl, we'd kind of be perfect for each other."
"That's enough," Nathan playfully warned. "Get out of here, wifey, before he works his magic."
She laughed, closing the door behind her.
Then it was silent as the mood turned serious. Nathan looked from Logan to me, and back again. "You're happy to have someone else—"
"She knows it all, Nathan, it's fine." He took my hand and squeezed once.
"Okay then." Nathan pulled out a folder from his draw and set it on the table. "What do you want to know?"
Logan shrugged, his eyes staring off into the distance. He gripped my hand tighter. I don't know if he knew he was doing it. I cleared my throat. They both turned to me. I said to Logan, "How about her name? Do you want to know that?"
He nodded, turning back to Nathan, who inhaled deeply, then opened the folder.
And then he told us her name.
THIRTY TWO
Logan
She's been quiet since we left Jake's house. In fact, she's been quiet since Nathan told us her name. I'm not really sure why.
"You don't know, do you?" she asked, turning down the stereo on the drive home.
"Know what?"
"Who she is?"
I shook my head.
"It's Megan Strauss..." she trailed off.
Her saying the name a second time didn't change the fact I had no idea who she was talking about.
I raised an eyebrow, begging her to elaborate. "As in Mick and Meg? Mikayla and Megan and... James?"
"No shit!" I exclaimed, clearly shocked.
"Shit," she deadpanned.
"Shit..." I responded.
***
"Shit," Jake breathed out. I told him to meet me at the little league field between both our houses. He paced up and down in front me. His fingers linked behind his head. He took off his cap and threw it to the ground, running his hand through his hair. "Shit," he repeated.
"So," I started. "I mean—it's not going to change anything—between us—right? If I want to get to know her, I mean?"
He paused mid step and eyed me, as if deciding what to say next. He sat down on the bench beside me and leaned back. I was leaning forward resting my elbows on my knees.
"It's not that. It's just—it's more complicated. I think maybe—I mean—you might need to speak to Kayla."
"What do you mean more complicated?"
"Exactly what I said. You need to speak to Kayla. Come by my place."
I looked at my watch. "I gotta pick up Amanda soon."
I felt him lean forward, mirroring my position. "So you and her..." he trailed off.
"Me and her," I confirmed.
"We got lucky, huh?"
"Dude, you have no idea."
***
Amanda fell asleep on the way to Jake's house. She works way too frickin much. I told her I'd pay more rent so she could at least take a night off but she won't let me. Apparently Ethan can't work too long on his feet because of the pins in his leg, so his job prospects are limited. He delivers pizza a few days a week and also has a side business with a few of his boys where they fill kegs with half water half shit beer and sell and deliver to underage kids around the area. He says he's doing the world a favor by not letting fourteen year olds drink. Valid. But still—Assholes.
I gently nudged her until she woke, "You wanna stay in the car?"
She shook her head, and sat up straight, pulling down the visor to check her face.
"You look beautiful," I told her. "You always look beautiful." I outwardly cringed.
Lame.
She just smiled, faced me and spoke, "So I know this is going to sound stupid, or whatever, but you and me—us," she paused; a blush crept to her cheeks. She sucked in a breath and let it out slowly. "We're a thing right? Like—exclusive or whatever. I just don't want to think one thing and you think something else." She was rushing her words now. "Because if it's not, that's fine. But I don't not want to be not that—if that makes sense. I mean—I hope that I'm the only gi—"