His boots made a gritty sound that he liked. Cars hissed past him, their headlights haloed. He flattened the envelope, whose corners had started curling. But if it's bats… he should have said. He'd forgotten to mention bats. You don't want to close all the openings till you're certain the bats are… and he also should have said, Remember that Mother's vitamins are tax-deductible, and Don't rush into anything with this professor fellow, and Just loving him is not all it takes, you know. He should have added, I used to think it was enough that I was loving; yes, I used to think, at least I am a sweet and loving man, but now I see that it matters also who you love, and what your reasons are. Oh, Bonny, you can go so wrong…
He stood at the mailbox, shaking his head, stunned. It took an auto horn to bring him to his senses, and he had the feeling that this wasn't the first time it had honked. A woman leaned out of a Chevrolet, her hair a bobbled mass of curlers. "Well? Will they or won't they?" she asked him.
"I beg your pardon?"
"Will my letters get there by Tuesday, I said, or will they drag their feet and loiter like the last ones did? You folks are always saying next-day-delivery-this, next-day-delivery-that; then it's me that gets stuck with the finance charges when you drag into BankAmericard with my credit payment two, three, four days late.. " She was waving a pack of letters out the window. Morgan tipped his visored cap and took them from her. "Absolutely," he said. "It was Robinson who was doing all that and now they've let him go. From here on out, you can trust the U. S. Mail, ma'am."
"I bet," she said.
She rolled up her window and screeched off.
Morgan dropped Bonny's letter in the slot Then he went through what he'd been handed by the woman. Patti Jo's Dress Shop, LeBolt Appliances… he dropped them in too. Clarion Power and Light. He dropped that in. The rest were personal, addressed in a lacy, slanted script to a woman in Essex, a woman in Anneslie, and a married couple in Madison, Wisconsin. He would mail them too, but first he might just take a little glance inside. He started walking back toward the church, coughing dryly, tapping the envelopes against the palm of his hand. They were crisp and thick, weighted with secrets. They whispered spent Monday letting that dress out some and labor pains so bad she like to died and least you could have done is have the decency to tell me. Up ahead, Emily stood at the curb beside a cardboard carton. Josh rode astride her hip. For some reason, Morgan felt suddenly light-hearted. He started walking faster. He started smiling. By the time he reached Emily, he was humming. Everything he looked at seemed luminous and beautiful, and rich with possibilities.
The End