How had those two young people on the Terraplane ever become the sad, embattled, barricaded couple I grew up with? What terrible, quiet things had happened to them?
How do any of us become what we are, really: so distant a thing from what we set out to be, and seemed?
How, for instance, does a part-time college instructor, part-time novelist who believed he’d put his past behind him where it rightfully belonged (and what he couldn’t put behind him, into his books), come to be sitting in an interrogation room across from a quartet of cops at nine in the morning in West Memphis, Arkansas?
Which is where I was but minutes later.
The guy who seemed to be in charge had oiled-down hair, a bushy mustache and rolled-up sleeves. I felt a moment’s terror that a barbershop quartet had been sent in to interrogate me. Any moment they were going to start singing “The Whiffenpoof Song,” and I’d tell them everything I knew. Hell, I’d tell them things I didn’t know. As a writer, I was good at that.
“Can we get you anything, Mr. Griffin, before we start?”
Had to be the baritone. He and a wiry little guy, probably the tenor, sat at the table. The others sat against the wall behind them on folding chairs. The table between us had nothing on it. Table, floor and walls were spotless, scrubbed. The air smelled faintly of disinfectant and lemon.
“No, but thanks.”
“Then could you explain to us why on the emergency line you represented yourself as a police officer?”
I tried to think of a snappy response. Marlowe certainly would have had one.
“Strictly speaking, I didn’t,” was the best I could do.
“ ‘Officer down,’ I believe you said.”
That kind of set the pace for the whole thing. They’d ask a question and I’d answer it, they’d ask another and circle back to an earlier one. It was a lot like the chants kids use when they’re jumping rope. Or gamelan music.
“I needed help fast. The girl was in bad shape.”
We were all very polite, very businesslike. There were things, practical things, to get done, and we were men of the world. Members of the quartet changed from time to time. Toward the end, two hours or more into the morning, Sergeant Travis of Clarksville’s finest came in and sat against the back wall.
“You went there for a drug buy and the deal went bad,” one of them was saying just then. “We know that, Griffin.”
I looked across at Travis. He shook his head sadly, looked at the floor.
This went on a while, as it had been going on, and eventually Travis stood, nodded to me, and left. I had become a tape loop.
Ten minutes later he walked back in behind a guy in a suit and said, “Come on, Griffin, let’s go.”
I followed him out into a long bare hallway, voices raised and clashing behind us.
“Last I heard, extradition didn’t work like this.”
“All in who and what you know,” Travis said. “Those boys are kind of pissed, right now. They’ve been planning a raid on that house for three weeks. It was finally set to go down tonight. And here you went and spoiled their party. Luckily, Douglas and I went to high school together. Guy in the suit? He’s the chief here. Caught a hundred long passes from that man if I caught one. You play?”
“Hate football.” Didn’t dance, either.
“Look like you could have, easy.”
We were standing outside the station now. I felt strangely weightless. Travis stopped and turned toward me.
“They’re not charging you with anything. But god-almighty are they pissed.”
“Give me a lift?”
“Be glad to, but you don’t need one.”
He smiled. Handed me an envelope: wallet, pocket contents, keys.
“Your car’s in the lot around back. I had a trustee go out there and bring it in.”
“I don’t suppose you want to tell me how it was that you happened to show up here?”
“Not really. But in my experience, there’s very little in life that just happens. Know what I mean?”
“No. And I don’t guess I’m going to.”
“Doesn’t matter. You’ll be coming back down to Clarksville?”
“I don’t know. Not right away, at any rate. There may be no reason to. First I have to find out about Alouette.”
We’d walked around to the back. I opened the car door and reached to shake his hand.
“Thanks. I appreciate what you’ve done.” Whatever the reasons.
“The girl’s over at Baptist Hospital, tenth floor. Across the bridge, find Union Avenue and you’re almost there. She’s going to be okay, Griffin. For now, anyway.”
I got in and started the engine.
“Thanks again, Sergeant.”
“Nothing to it.”
“Tell Camaro thanks for me, too, when you see him?”
“I’ll do that. If I see him, you understand.”
It’s still a hell of a river, even if it did seem bigger when I was a kid: not only endless, but also impossibly wide. It was full of boats then, with sandbars the size of islands; and ferries nosed back and forth across the wake of the big ships, cars crouched on their decks, people peering out from within, waiting for things to change.
Chapter Twenty-Four
Hospitals, like bus stations and prisons, are all much the same. Their makers conjure up the soul of the thing, then drape skin around it. This one was like the one where I woke all those years ago, light like fists in my eyes, with Vicky’s face hovering over me; like the one unseen in which my father died; like the one that broke Cordelia Davis’s long fall; like the one in which Verne had lain dying.
Tenth floor was a limited-admittance wing, and after being turned away at the nurse’s station I had to go back down to the administrative offices, where the atmosphere was so different that it was like stepping into another world, to clear permissions. I gave my name and relationship to Alouette to a walleyed young man whose expression suggested that he found what he saw out here perpetually just beyond his understanding, and added that he might call Travis for corroboration.
“Oh that won’t be necessary, Mr. Griffin,” he said, handing a small paper across to me. “Sergeant Travis has already called. Let me wish you and the girl both the best of luck. It’s tough, I know.”
I shared the ride back up with a stretcher and two attendants, probably a nurse and respiratory therapist. An old lady with skin like dried mud flats lay on the stretcher surrounded by monitors, oxygen cylinder, IV bags and portable pump, a compact drug box, charts, a box of disposable diapers. Tubes and drains snaked out from under the sheet covering her. She was trached, and the attendant at the head of the stretcher was squeezing an Ambu bag regularly, monotonously, to give her breath. Her eyes locked on to mine and I was surprised at how clear, how filled with intelligence, they were. Those eyes followed me as I got off on the tenth floor.
I handed over my scrip to the nurse at the gateway. She’d summon Charon, who’d ferry me across. But she only looked at it and signaled to another beyond the double doors. That one buzzed the doors to unlock them, holding her finger on the button until I was in.
A young woman sitting behind the desk just inside stood. “Mr. Griffin?” She was in her midtwenties, a blonde with perfect fair skin and a bow in her hair. Typical valley girl sort, but she was wearing jeans, cowboy boots and a denim shirt with snaps for buttons. Barbie at the Bar-B, I thought inanely.
She held out a hand to shake mine. “I’m Mickey Francis, a social worker on the staff here. We don’t have very much information about Alouette, I’m afraid. Do you have a few minutes to answer some questions? It would be a great help to us.”
“I have the time, Miss Francis. But I don’t know if I’ll have any answers for you.”