We shook hands again. He took out a key and pushed it into the control plate beside the elevator doors; within moments, a car was there. He nodded to me as the door closed.
I sat watching pigeons strut along the sill outside, past locked windows. One was an albino, wings and tail so ragged it was hard to believe the bird could still fly.
A moment later Jane answered the phone and said to me, “They’re ready, Mr. Griffin.” I thanked her and walked down the hall to a conference room. Sitting at the table inside were Alouette and Mickey Francis. The social worker held a styrofoam cup, rim well chewed.
“Thanks for coming, Mr. Griffin. Can I get you a cup of coffee?”
“No thanks.”
“I called you to come in because Alouette asked me to. I hope it’s not an inconvenience.”
“Not at all. Nothing much going on at the motel this time of day.”
Uncertain whether or not that was a joke, she settled on a smile. Waited two beats. I thought of other such interviews, in rooms much like this one, when I myself was on the home team.
“She and I have talked a lot about what happened yesterday. And over the past several months. I know the two of you have discussed her plans once she’s released. Treatment programs, halfway houses, that sort of thing. We all feel it’s imperative that she get follow-up care.”
“I think she agrees.”
“She does. And the time for us to shape these decisions is fast approaching.”
“Not us, Miss Francis. It’s her decision all the way.”
“You’re right, of course.” She looked down at the stack of folders on the table before her. “Alouette has expressed to me a desire to go back to New Orleans. Not to remain here.”
I nodded. It was home, after all, whatever else it was.
“She would like to find a job, to live independently while participating in an outpatient program.”
“Sounds good to me.”
“She was wondering if you might be willing to give her a place to live while she did this. She would like to come back to New Orleans with you, Mr. Griffin.”
I looked at Alouette. She nodded. “Yes, Lewis. That’s what I want. If it’s all right with you. I know it’s a lot to ask.”
“You can think about it, Mr. Griffin. You don’t have to decide right away. This must come as something of a surprise.”
“I’m not much of a role model,” I said, “but that house has always been too big for me alone. It would be good to have someone else living there again.”
Alouette looked down at the floor a moment, then up at me, smiling. With her mother’s eyes.
Chapter Twenty-Nine
Ad Hominem time.
The following Thursday at nine in the morning, I arrived at the hospital to take Alouette home, stepped off the elevator and found her in conversation with a stately, lean man in blazer, knit shirt and charcoal slacks who, following her eyes, turned and immediately walked toward me. Italian shoes of soft cordovan.
“You must be Griffin,” he said, holding out a hand. His shake was firm, relaxed, momentary.
“Lewis, this is my father.”
I nodded.
“When I refused to see his lawyers, he canceled everything and flew up himself. He wants to set me up in my own apartment, even has a job arranged for me-no questions, no obligations.”
“A generous offer. Not many free lunches left these days.”
“I’m sure you’d do the same in my place, Griffin. Do you have children yourself?”
I suspected he knew the answer to that, along with my financial status, personal history and (not inconceivably) the contents of my trash.
And I supposed the answer to his question must be no, so I said that.
Alouette spoke to me over his shoulder: “I told him thanks, but I was going home with you.”
“Which I’m certain you must realize is just not … possible,” Guidry added, smiling. Between men.
I smiled back.
White teeth gleaming.
Maybe I should break into a chorus of O massuh, how my heart grow weary.
“I see. Then I have to assume you’re no more willing to listen to reason than she is.”
“It’s her decision, Guidry. Not yours, not mine.”
“She’s a child. A confused child.”
“Laws say that she’s an adult, and protect her rights the same way they protect yours or mine.”
“One has to wonder what you expect to get out of this.”
“Wonder away.”
Instinctively, he had squared off with me. Now he backed away a half step. “I know about you, Griffin. You’re a weak man. Always have been. One hard push, your knees’ll give.”
“Push away. Find out.”
“A drinker. And inherently a violent man-a killer, some say. That’s no environment for a troubled young woman who needs desperately to work out her own problems.”
He turned back to Alouette without moving closer.
“I sincerely hope you’ll take time to think this whole thing over, come to your senses. See what needs to be done here. I’ve always taken care of your needs. I always will.”
“Needs change,” she said with a glance toward me. “Maybe you can’t take care of my needs anymore, Daddy.”
“And this man can.”
“I don’t know. Maybe only I can. Or maybe I can’t. That’s part of what I have to find out.”
“I’m telling you here and now that this will not happen. I simply can’t allow it.”
“I’ve talked to the social workers and hospital lawyers, Daddy. Short of alleging burglary and having me thrown into jail, there doesn’t seem to be much you can do about it.”
“We’ll see about that.”
“Do what you think you have to. That’s all I’m doing.”
“I’ll see you both again then-very soon.”
He walked to the elevator and stood with his finger on the down button.
“Daddy.”
“Yes?”
“There’s something I never asked. You always made me feel I couldn’t ask it, but I don’t feel that way any longer.”
He held out an arm to keep the elevator doors from closing. They bucked convulsively. “What is it?”
“Why did you think you had any right to keep me away from my mother?”
He stood looking at her, a squall of emotions ticking at his face in the moment before calm restored itself, then turned and stepped into the elevator.
We spent the next hour extricating Alouette from the hospital’s coils. A formal discharge visit from her attending physician; a trip down to the administrative offices where our walleyed champion had prepared the way and we were in and out in minutes, Alouette signing papers to pay off her bill in low biweekly installments; a ride back up to retrieve the clothes I’d bought her and say good-bye to staff and patients.
Then we were walking out into another bright, clear day. Were in the Mazda curving along Riverside Drive. I asked if she wanted to stop for something to eat since there wouldn’t be much chance for a while after this, and she said no. She found music on the radio, cranked both that and the seat down low, leaned back and fell promptly asleep. Tunica, Mound Bayou, Cleveland and Greenville rolled over her closed eyes. Hollandale, Redwood. But mostly the same furrowed fields, the same narrow straight roads and blanketing dust, huge spindly irrigation systems linked together like Tinkertoys, little more than hoop wheels and perforated pipe.
Erratic traffic as we approached Vicksburg brought her awake in late afternoon. She opened one eye to peek out the windshield, turned it on me and said hoarsely: “Food?”
Which we partook at a truck stop just off the highway, in accordance with her express desire (when I asked more specifically what she might want) for “food, just food, in large quantities, with lots of grease.”
Neither wish was disappointed.
Nor did we fail to attract looks, just looks, also in large quantities, also (for lack of more appropriate synonym) greasy.
It was a place of basics: stand after stand of fuel pumps out front, Spartan restaurant area, cashier’s counter with boxes of cheap cigars, pocket knives and belt buckles under its glass top and a rack of T-shirts with clever slogans alongside, bunkerlike bathrooms with rentable showers for truckers.