He said, “What do you think of these?”
I leaned over his shoulder to look at his computer screen. Surveillance photos taken with his digital camera. The suspected insurance fraud case for Southwestern Indemnity. “Is that Nicholson?” I asked.
“Helping his brother-in-law move furniture.”
“So much for his spinal injury claim. Southwestern’ll be pleased.”
“I’ll close it up tomorrow, then get on the Fisher skip-trace. Unless you need me for something else.”
“As a matter of fact, how’d you like to take over the Troxell surveillance, beginning tonight?”
“Okay with me. Troxell’s the financial consultant with the funeral fetish?”
“That’s him.”
“Tamara was working on his background when I came in.”
I gave him a quick rundown of the afternoon’s events. “Tuesday evening outings seem to be part of Troxell’s pattern. I’d stay on it myself, but frankly two full days of funeral parlors, cemeteries, and solitary beach walks are about as much as I can take.”
“Sure, I understand.”
The understanding was mutual; I wouldn’t have asked him otherwise. It had nothing to do with my being one of his bosses or that I was nearly twenty years his senior. It had everything to do with the fact that I had a family to go home to and he didn’t, and he preferred working to sitting around his empty apartment. His job was the only thing that mattered to him now, except for his son-the one and only activity he had left that gave meaning and purpose to his existence. I knew all about that kind of obsessive sublimation. I’d been a workaholic loner myself, for different reasons, for a not insubstantial part of my life.
He was writing down Troxell’s address when Tamara’s door opened and she came out. She looked like she wanted to bite somebody. Her round face-not so round now that she’d shed twenty pounds-wore a scowl that made it seem two shades darker than usual.
“Oh,” she said when she saw me, “you’re back.”
“Few minutes ago. Something wrong?”
“No. Why?”
“That scowl. I like you better with your mouth turned the other way.”
“Yeah, well, no smiley faces today. Like the man says, some days the shit comes down so heavy you feel like wearing a hat.”
I glanced at Runyon. He shrugged. “Line from an old movie,” he said. “ Body Heat, I think.”
“Uh-huh.” I said to Tamara, “Translation into plain English, please.”
“No,” she said.
“You don’t want to talk about it?”
“That’s what no means.”
“Problem with one of the cases?”
“No.”
“Personal, then?”
“No.”
My turn to shrug. You couldn’t prod her when she was in this kind of mood. I wondered if it had something to do with her boyfriend, Horace; if that was who she’d been talking to on the phone. He’d moved to Philadelphia just after the first of the year to pursue his career as a symphony cellist, and they hadn’t seen each other since. Seven months is long time apart when you’re twenty-five years old, in love, and chock-full of raging hormones.
“So the man take you to another funeral this afternoon?” she asked me.
I told her where Troxell had taken me after Colma. “I can’t even begin to imagine where he goes on his nights out. Jake gets the dubious pleasure of finding out. He’s taking over the surveillance starting tonight.”
“What about the Fisher case?”
“My baby, now. I’ll get moving on it in the morning.”
“Whatever.”
“Anything more on the three deceased women?”
Head shake. “Names don’t mean anything to the client, either.”
“You talked to Mrs. Troxell? You didn’t say anything about the funerals, did you?”
“Do I look like my mama raised a backward child?” she said in a teeth-and-bristles voice. “I didn’t talk to the woman, I talked to your lawyer friend. Easier for him to feed her the names without getting her all bent.”
“Oh,” I said. “Sorry.”
“Yeah,” she said. Then she said, “Troxell’s background.”
“What about it?”
“One thing I found out, might be important. Happened when he was a kid. Ten years old.”
“In Moraga?” That was the East Bay community where he’d been born and raised.
“Right. His best friend was Clark Simmons, same age, lived a couple of blocks apart. Simmons kid’s father was an air traffic controller at the Oakland airport-stressed out, drinking too much, abusing his family when he was wasted. He showed up for work drunk one morning and they fired him. So he went home and started taking it out on his wife. Big screaming fight, he started beating her up, she took a kitchen knife and cut him with it. So he went and got his Army forty-five and blew her away. Blew himself away right afterward.”
“Jesus. But what does that have to do with Troxell?”
“He was there when it happened, just walked in with the Simmons kid. He saw the whole thing go down.”
3
TAMARA
On the way home that night she stopped at a Baskin-Robbins on Geary and bought the biggest damn ice cream cake they had. Gooey fudge, whipped cream, about twenty thousand calories’ worth. But when she got to the apartment she couldn’t eat it. Two bites at the kitchen table, and her throat closed up and she pushed it away. All the weeks spent living on Slim-Fast to rid herself of twenty pounds of flab so she’d feel good, look good… good as she’d ever look… she just couldn’t do it to herself, start eating her way back into Fat City. Not for any reason.
She put the cake away in the freezer, wandered into the bedroom. Still some of Horace’s clothes in the closet, stuff he hadn’t taken with him to Philadelphia. She yanked every piece off the hangers, threw them into a pile in the corner-all except his brown suede jacket, one of his favorites, overlooked or forgotten when he was packing. She found a pair of shears and cut off both sleeves at the elbow, snip snip, slash slash.
Didn’t make her feel any better. If anything, she felt worse.
She threw the mutilated jacket on top of the other stuff and sat down on the bed, then sprawled out on her back. Got up in less than a minute and went into the living room and turned on the TV and then turned it off again and shuffled through her CDs and picked one, nothing classical, especially nothing with cellos or violins, and plugged it in and then sat down on the couch. But she didn’t listen to the music. Couldn’t even hear it over the loop of Horace replays inside her head.
… hardest thing I’ve ever had to do is make this call…
Little quiver in his voice, real emotional.
… hate to have to hurt you, I’m so sorry…
You’re sorry, all right, sorry excuse for a man.
… there’s somebody else, somebody I’ve known for a while…
Lyrics out of a bad old song.
… she’s a second violinist with the philharmonic here…
Sure, that figures.
… her name’s Mary, she’s from Rochester, New York…
Do I give a shit who she is or where she’s from?
… we’re in love, crazy in love…
Like you and I never were, right?
… didn’t want it to happen, neither of us did…
More bad lyrics, a whole damn chorus.
… as serious as it gets, we’re going to be married in the fall
…
Only wedding gift you’ll get from me is a gallon of rat poison.
… wish to God it could have turned out differently for you and me…
Bullshit.
… never stop loving you, Tamara, even if you find that hard to believe now…
Hard to believe? Try impossible.