"Hasn't been a peep out of Joy in two days. Since we got this far, let's check in on her."
Joy did not respond to a knock on her door. I knocked again. Clark's forehead divided into what looked like hundreds of parallel creases. "She puts out a key in case of emergencies and the like. Hold on. I'll remember where it is."
I lifted the edge of the mat and picked up a house key.
"Second you bent down, I remembered. Give that to me."
Clark opened the door and flapped his hand in front of his face. “I don't know how people can live with a stink like that. JOY! IT'S ME AND NEDDIE, STAR'S BOY! HOW YOU BEEN?"
I heard a high-pitched humming sound.
"YOU HEAR ME?"
Silence, except for the humming sound, whichClarkcould not hear.
"We better go in." We moved over the threshold, and the stench enfolded us. "JOY! YOU IN THE CAN?"
"Let's try the living room," I said, hoping that Joy had not died of a stroke while lowering Clarence into the bath. The humming sound grew louder. When we entered the living room, Clarence goggled at us with a mixture of relief and terror and threw himself against the strap.Hmmmmml Hmmmm!
"Clark, call Mount Baldwin and have them send an ambulance right now."
"Will do," Clark said. "You scout around for Joy. I don't like the look of this."
Clarence's Morse code followed me into the dining room and kitchen. Joy had been taking lessons in housekeeping from Earl Sawyer. She had a long way to go, but she was making progress toward the glistening-jelly stage. The bathroom fell even further below Earl's standards.
Iflipped the light switch at the bottom of the stairs and heard Clark summoning the ambulance from Mount Baldwin. Above me, a bulb stuttered on, and viscous yellow light flattened against a narrow, partially opened door. Clark Rutledge ranted on in the living room. A dull thump I had heard before came from the attic. Some heavy object had been brought into contact with the side of a wooden crate. What came to mind was a softball the size of a pumpkin.
Clark said, “I'll wait, but I won't wait long. You may take that as a warning." By the time I got to the top of the stairs, he was repeating everything he had said earlier to someone else. On the other side of the attic door, the big softball again thumped the side of the crate. I opened the door the rest of the way and saw a pair of black running shoes with their toes on the pine boards and the soles slanting upward at a right-to-left angle. Extending from the tops of the shoes, two thin legs disappeared beneath a black hem. I said, "Oh, no," and moved up beside Joy's body.
A tray, a spoon, an inverted bowl, and the dried remains of chicken noodle soup lay beyond her outstretched arms. Her skin was cold. A few minutes after I had last seen Joy, she had warmed up a can of soup, poured it into a bowl, taken the tray to the attic, and died.
A small bed enclosed within a boxlike wooden frame butted against the wall at the far side of the attic. Flat plywood sections three feet high had been nailed to two-by-fours at the bed's corners. A cot covered with an army surplus blanket stood along the wall at a right angle to the enclosed bed. Whatever was inside the bed struck the side of the frame.
I remembered the names on the stone slabs behind the ruins on New Providence Road. What had held Joy prisoner had not been a phobia. She and Clarence had been captive to a merciless responsibility. I didn't want to know about it. I wanted to walk out of the attic, go down the stairs, and drive away. The being—thething—that was my mother's cousin struck the frame around its bed hard enough to shake the plywood.
I walked past Joy's outstretched arms and the spray of noodles. When I came up to the foot of the bed, a nearly solid cloud of river-bottom stench soaked into me, and I forced myself to look down. Lying on the mattress at the bottom of the wooden frame was a being made up of a filmy, insubstantial body glowing with light and the face of a man with a graying bush of hair and Confucian white tendrils of beard. His ecstatic brown eyes were already widening in shock. The layers of color sifting through the limbless rectangle of his body darkened from robin's-egg blue and ripe peach to a violent purple in which swirls of black bloomed like ink. The creature fixed me with amonstrous demand, shuddered sideways, and slammed its head against the side of the pen.
Without the intervention of anything that could have been described as thought, I went to the cot, pulled the pillow from beneath the army blanket, and pressed it down upon the terrible face. The thing struggled and surged against the pillow. Its jaw opened and closed as its teeth sought my hands. Bands of brilliant red rose to the surface of its body. Then the jaw stopped working, and the color faded. A pure, depthless black swam up over the filmy surface of the little body and faded to a lifeless gray.
My arms and legs were shaking, but I could not have said if the source of my horror was the thing whose teeth I could still feel beneath the pillow, what I had done to it, or myself. An inarticulate sob flew from my mouth. I released my grip on the pillow and hung on to a length of plywood. The floor seemed to waver, and I thought of Joy's body sliding toward me over the stiff, snaky shapes of the noodles.
An unconvincing voice weaker than mine said, “I had to."
A wave of crazy hilarity went through me. The same unsteady voice said, "He didn't have much of a future, did he?"
No, I thought,he didn't have much of a future. He didn't even have his last howl of chicken noodle soup. I had said that aloud, too.
I watched my hands tear the pillow out of the pillowcase and fling it onto the cot. My right hand dipped into the pen, closed on a wispy rope of beard, and lifted the thing I had murdered. A limp, ragged substance like old spiderwebs drooped from beneath the beard. I rammed it into the pillowcase and stumbled down the stairs.
Clark was standing in the hallway. "The ambulance should be here pretty soon." He glanced at the pillowcase. "Did you locate Joy?"
“I think she had a heart attack," I said. "She's dead. I'm sorry, Clark. We have to call the police, but before you do that, I need a little time."
Clark's eyes moved again to the pillowcase. “I guess little Mousie starved to death."
"You knew about him." I came down the hall with the pillowcase swinging horribly at my side.
"Speaking personally," Clark said, “Iheard about him, but I never saw the boy. Queenie and my wife assisted at the birth. Clarence and
Joy, that child took over their lives. From the time it was horn, they never knew a moment's peace."
"They couldn't have named it Mousie," I said, and remembered the names on the flat granite stones on New Providence Road.
"Never really named it at all," Clark said. "Joy took pride in her command of the French language, you know. The way I heard it, Queenie burst into tears when the baby came out. Joy said, 'I want to see it.' And when Nettie held that baby up, Joy said,'Moi aussi.' That means 'Me, too,' in the French language. She blamed Howard for the way her baby came out, and she never forgave him. So we called the babyMoi Aussi, which pretty soon it turned into Mousie."
"Would you care to say farewell to Mousie?"
"The shovel's out behind the kitchen," Clark said.
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•The shortest and grimmest of the three funerals I attended during my stay in Edgerton took place in Joy's back yard, and the single mourner performed the functions of undertaker and clergyman. In the tangle of weeds against the rotting wooden fence, I dug a hole two feet wide and four feet deep. While I was digging, I heard Clark haranguing the ambulance attendants from Mount Baldwin. I lowered the pillowcase into the hole and scooped earth on top of it. Then I covered the raw earth with severed weeds and yanked living weeds over the dead ones.