The sight exasperated Gay, who was only too eager to be exasperated. If she could be really furious with Algy, everything wouldn’t hurt so much. It was when she was sorry for him, when she wanted to put her arms round him and keep him safe, that the pain at her heart became almost unendurable. “Only you’ve got to endure it-you’ve got to-you’ve got to.” And if they sent Algy to prison, she would have to bear it for years, and years, and years. She didn’t get any farther than Algy being sent to prison. She wouldn’t get any farther than that. There are things you mustn’t look at even for a moment, because they are too dreadful to be borne. Other people had to bear them, but not you. Things like that couldn’t possibly happen to you. Don’t look. Shut your eyes. Push them away, and bang, and bolt, and bar the door upon them. Anger is a great help when you are trying to bang that sort of door.
And then all at once such a little thing betrayed them both. Gay saw Algy looking at her. He didn’t look lazy any more. His eyes were open and he was looking at her as if he loved her with all his heart, and as if he was saying goodbye-to love, to her, to everything. It was only for a moment, but that moment broke her anger and her pride, and very nearly broke her heart. She came over to the chair with a rush and went down on her knees by it, leaning to him across the arm, her hands holding it, her voice breaking on his name.
“Algy!”
It was no good. They had lost their balance, and when you have lost your balance you catch at anything or anyone. These two caught at one another, held desperately together across the arm of the chair, kissed desperately as if there were no other time but this in which to kiss, to love, to cling together-a time quick with anguish, quick with joy.
It passed, but it left them in a new country. They drew back, still holding hands, looking at one another and at this place to which they had come with stumbling, half-unwilling feet. Double pain for both, and a double load to carry, double foreboding, double fear, and a frowning barrier between them and the double joy which would have made it all worth while. Yet when Algy said, “I didn’t mean to let you know,” Gay knew just how unendurable that would have been. She said so in a rush of words,
“Horrible of you! I’d have died. I felt as if I was going to-when you said-they were going to arrest you.”
“But, darling, you must have known that I did care.”
“I couldn’t-I didn’t! How could I? You were being completely strong and silent. Oh, darling, wouldn’t it be lovely if Sylvia had never been born, and if there weren’t any police?”
Algy kissed her, and said he didn’t follow.
“Dull!” said Gay. “If Sylvia hadn’t been born she wouldn’t have married Francis Colesborough, and if she hadn’t, I shouldn’t have asked you to lend me your car, and we shouldn’t have come hurtling down here in the middle of the night and getting mixed up in Francis being murdered. There wouldn’t have been any murder, and even if there had been, it wouldn’t have mattered if there hadn’t been any police.”
After which lucid explanations she put her head down on his shoulder and found it comforting.
XXXIII
Mr. Zero opened the door of his room and came out upon a dimly lighted corridor. The light was at the far end, so that if anyone had been watching they would probably not have seen him, and they certainly would not have caught the slightest sound. The pile of the carpet was deep, and Mr. Zero’s movements were extremely quiet and controlled. The hour being a quarter before three in the morning, there was no one watching. The house slept a deep, safe, comfortable sleep. No one waked, no one stirred, no one saw Mr. Zero descend the stair and cross the dark hall below.
He came out of the hall into a room at the back of the house. There was no light there. He groped his way to the window and unlatched it. Setting down a small attaché case which he had been holding, he put both hands to the window and raised the sash. He picked up the attaché case, climbed out, and drew the window gently down again to about an inch from the sill. Then he took a torch from his pocket and found his way round the house and down a drive. Coming out upon the road, he increased his pace and walked rapidly away into the dark.
About twenty minutes later he came to the place he was bound for, a deep pond lying a little way off the road. The night was still. The water gleamed faintly under the open sky.
Mr. Zero bent to his case, took something out of it, and straightened up. His arm swung, and the something went spinning through the air to fall with a splash in the deepest part of the pond.
Mr. Zero shut his attaché case and retraced his steps toward the road. There was a gate to be climbed, and just as he was getting over it a car came roaring down the hill. With the gate on the outer side of a very sharp bend, the car seemed to be coming straight at him. He had time to jump down from the gate with his case in his hand, but the lights caught him before he could turn away or throw up an arm to screen his face. A murderous spasm of anger shook him. The car swung to the bend and was gone. The tail-light showed its red spark and disappeared. Someone who was out late and was in a hurry to get home, damn him.
But five minutes later Mr. Zero was quite comfortable in his mind again. The fellow was probably a returning roisterer, and must anyhow have had enough to do to negotiate that extremely awkward bend at the really reckless pace he had been making. People had no business to drive like that, but in this instance there were mitigating circumstances. If he had been going as slowly as he should have been, his headlights would have given Mr. Zero a more protracted publicity, and Mr. Zero passionately desired privacy. For the rest of the return journey he had it.
In less than half an hour he was in bed again, and long before the clock struck four he was asleep. What was there to keep him awake? The letters that named him were burned and their frail ash scattered. The police had Francis Colesborough’s pistols and they were welcome to them. The silencer was at the bottom of a most deep, convenient pond. Mr. Zero slept in peace.
The car which had taken the bend with the ease and speed of long practice continued upon its way. Dr. Hammond had been out all day and most of the night and he was in a hurry to get home. When he had put away his car and locked the garage door he went through into the house, walking on tiptoe, because he always hoped that Judith wouldn’t wake.
But while he was getting out of his coat she was half way down the stair in her blue dressing-gown, with her black hair flying, and one cheek scarlet where it had been pressed against the pillow.
“My poor child-I thought you were never coming. Soup in the dining-room-come along and have some at once.”
Jim Hammond grinned.
“You’re an officious woman, Ju. Why can’t you stay quiet in your bed instead of flying up like a jack-in-the-box? Can’t trust me to find my way to the dining-room, can you?”
She linked her arm in his and pulled him along.
“Why are you so late?”
“Because the Meaker baby was. Ten pound boy-hideous-healthy-and they’re all as pleased as Punch. Ju, get off to bed!”