“Did Charlie calling interrupt anything?”
“That’s juvenile, Hap.”
“Sorry.”
“We were lying in bed talking. Talking about you.”
“Comparing dick sizes?”
She got up briskly and started to leave. I caught her wrist and she jerked it away from me. “Let go of me, damnit!”
“Florida,” I said. “I’m sorry. Really. But this isn’t easy for me.”
“It’s not easy for me, Hap. I don’t want to hurt you.”
“But you want us to be friends, right? Isn’t that the thrust of this talk?”
“I know you’re hurt, but I didn’t plan this. It happened, damnit. It just happened.”
I turned my head and looked toward the pile of blackened rubble that had been the crack house. Smoke was drifting up into the starlight. I turned back and looked at Florida.
“There really isn’t anything I can say to that,” I said.
She slowly and carefully sat down beside me. She sat close. I could smell her perfume. It was the same perfume I often smelled on my pillows. She took my hand.
I said, “You really sounded like someone who was more than an ambulance chaser tonight.”
“I did, didn’t I?”
“Hanson knew you got our case in court, personal feelings or not, you’d have given him hell.”
“And I’d have beat him too. Even if you did burn the house down. And on purpose.”
“You’ll do all right,” I said. “Maybe you just needed a little rest. Sounds to me, you got your ambition back.”
“Can we be friends?” she said. “I know it sounds cliche. But I really and truly want to be friends.”
I spent a minute thinking about it. “Give me some time on it. Right now I look at you, I don’t see you that way. I don’t know how I see you.”
She leaned over and kissed me on the cheek. “You’re a good find for the right person, Hap. I’m just not the right person.”
“That’s what they all say.”
She stood up and touched my shoulder. “I’ll see you, soon?”
“Soon as I can handle it,” I said.
She drove away. I watched her taillights till they were out of sight. The wind picked up and turned cool and hooted in the bottle tree.
32.
When I awoke it was early morning and I was lying on the glider and my back ached. Where I’d caught those punches hurt too. My wrist ached from the shock of the blow I’d dealt Mohawk on the side of the head.
There was a blanket over me and a pillow under my head. Leonard, the one constant in my life, had been out to check on me. I hadn’t even felt him move my head or cover me. Bless him.
I sat up slowly, feeling the stiffness. The air was intense with the charred aroma of next door. The sunlight was beautiful. It was still cool. I missed Florida.
Before we left the station last night, Leonard told Hanson about the Hampstead place and what was under it. Today, late morning, Hanson and a hand-picked crew would be out. He was also bringing in a friend from Houston, a retired coroner.
In spite of his talk, Hanson wasn’t ready to turn what he knew over to the police chief after all. He wanted to make sure everything we told him was as we said, wanted to make sure we’d translated the evidence properly.
I think he knew too, if he told the police chief what he had discovered, told how Illium was linked, the chief would take the case away from him for not coming forward sooner. But if Leonard and I were right, if Hanson could get all his ducks in a row and solve this case, no matter what the chief thought, things were going to turn out OK. It’d be pretty hard for the chief to fire Hanson for solving a multiple child-murder case, considering the publicity that would surround it.
And I was pretty certain Hanson knew we were still holding out on him. That we had an important part of the puzzle we weren’t showing.
So, Hanson was going to get a court order, quickly and quietly, not hide it from the chief, but not announce it either, and he and his crew were coming out.
His crew was going to be Charlie, the retired Houston coroner, me and Leonard, and a couple other folks he thought he could trust. It wasn’t a morning I looked forward to.
I stood up and stretched and checked out the remains of the crack house, felt a rush of adrenaline from last night. I also felt a rush of shame.
Violence and anger against another human being always made me feel that way, no matter what my justification. I lost it, I always feel somewhat diminished. But I would have felt even more diminished to have done nothing. That little boy, dying up under the house like a dog with a belly full of glass… It’s hard to figure why it has to be that way.
But had it been just that? Had I done what I did, followed Leonard because I wanted vengeance for that child, all the children they infected with their slick talk and drugs? Or had my willingness to lose it also been part of my problem with Florida? Was I finding a way to self-righteously vent my disappointment and rage? I didn’t like to think about that kind of snake inside me, crawling around, waiting to strike.
Across the street I heard a screen door slam, and looked to see Hiram out on MeMaw’s porch. He had a cup of coffee and was wearing blue jogging pants, a blue T-shirt, and dirt-tinted white tennis shoes. He walked to the edge of the porch and hacked up a big wad of phlegm and spat into the yard. He looked up and saw me.
“Hap,” he called.
I walked out to the curb, talked across the street. “Thanks for last night,” I said. “I didn’t know where else to go.”
“What else could I do? How’s the boy?”
“Dead.”
Hiram nodded. “I’m not surprised. He didn’t look none too good. He had that look about him, like he wasn’t long for this world.”
The screen door opened and MeMaw started working her walker outside. Hiram grabbed the screen and held it open. “You don’t need to come out here,” he said.
“But I want to,” she said. After a full minute, she was in the center of the porch, leaning on her walker. She said, “I’m glad you did it. I’d been younger, I’d did it. Lenny up?”
“No, ma’am,” I said. “I don’t think so.”
“Well, you come on over,” she said. “I’ve got breakfast cooking.”
“Ma’am,” I said. “I don’t want to intrude.”
“Biscuits, eggs, and bacon,” she said. She turned her walker slightly, then slightly again, until she was facing the screen. Hiram opened the screen for her. She worked her way inside, called over her shoulder, “Don’t let it get cold.”
Hiram smiled at me. He said, “I think you better come on to breakfast.”
MeMaw looked extremely frail that morning, but she was radiant just the same. Happy about the crack house being turned to smoke, happier yet her baby boy Hiram was home. The breakfast was great. The bacon was thick. She’d gotten the meat from one of her sons who raised hogs, and we spread real artery-jamming butter on the biscuits and dipped them in the sun-yellow yolks of farm-fresh eggs acquired from a friend of hers who had his own chickens.
After breakfast, MeMaw entertained me and embarrassed Hiram with stories about when he was a child, told some cute incidents, explained what a good Christian child Hiram had always been, and when Hiram had had all of that talk he could take, he said, “Hey, what’re your plans today, Hap?”
“Not much,” I said, not prepared to mention that I was going to exhume bodies.
“You ought to work out with me.”
“After last night, I’m pretty bushed. What kind of workout?”
“Boxing.”
“I hate that boxing,” MeMaw said. “Two grown men hitting one another in the head for fun. You’d think Hiram and Reverend Fitzgerald would be old enough to know better.”
“Reverend Fitzgerald?” I said.
“Yeah. I come in once a year, we get together, do a little boxing, talk old times. Play chess. I do it mostly to please MeMaw. She thinks I ought to know the right hand of the Lord. Not that we didn’t get drilled with religion all the time we were growing up.”