When I neared the end of the block, however, I freaked out again. What if the limo had secretly snaked its way into my neighborhood and was now slithering around the area, waiting for me to reappear? What if Rhonda Blake and her big bad rich bald boyfriend were now searching the Village streets with binoculars, hoping to see me enter my building, and thereby ascertain my address?
(Okay! Okay! So I was probably overdoing it a bit-dreaming up more than my share of scary scenarios-but when you’ve been stalked, molested, strangled, and shot as I have in the past, you tend to get a little wary around the edges.)
So instead of hurrying to the end of the street, turning the corner on Bleecker, and going straight to the front door of my building as I normally would do, I pulled to a stop on Cornelia, next to the locked and gated passage to the tiny courtyard behind my apartment. Unlocking the tall metal gate with the key I always carry with me for emergencies, I pulled the gate open, slipped inside, and then closed and locked it again.
Stealing like a cat burglar down the narrow cement path to the inner recesses of the courtyard, I could feel my heart banging against my ribs and my hot breath surging through my lungs. I was even more frightened now than before. (You would be, too, if you suddenly found yourself in a pitch-black enclosure crawling with worms and spiders and God knows how many different species of rodents.)
I scurried down the overgrown walkway as fast as I could and hastily climbed the rusty metal stairway leading to the rusty metal landing outside my back door. Then I unlocked that door, pushed it wide open, and lunged headfirst into my kitchen. I was so glad to be home I fell to my knees and kissed the black-and-white-checked linoleum floor. (Okay, so I didn’t really kiss the floor, but I was so crazed I considered it.)
After closing and relocking the back door, I tossed my purse on the kitchen counter, gulped down a couple of handfuls of water at the sink, splashed some water on my overheated face, and then stumbled into the dark living room and over to the front window. I didn’t turn on any lights. I didn’t want to let anybody know that I was home. And I wanted to be able to peek out the window without anybody being able to peek in.
Standing to one side of the window, I stuck my nose through the gap between the blinds and the glass and peered out at the sidewalks and the street below. There were several cars parked at the curb, but not a single black limo in sight. And there was no moving traffic on the street at all. No people on the stoops or sidewalks, either-which kind of surprised me at first (Bleecker is usually a very busy byway), until I remembered the time (almost 2 A.M.), and the heat, and the holiday.
In spite of the inactivity, I stayed next to the window and stared down at the street for a few more minutes, keeping my eyes peeled for a black you-know-what. But when no such vehicle appeared, I started feeling kind of silly (really stupid, if you want to know the truth).
For God’s sake, Paige! I scolded myself. What on earth’s the matter with you? Why do you always imagine the worst and make such a big fat deal out of everything? You just tore through dark city streets and cut through a courtyard full of rats for nothing! Nobody was following you! Do you hear what I’m saying, you imbecile? Nobody was following you! And nobody is out there spying on you now!
Which was my second big fat misconception for the night.
And if I had let down my guard and turned away from the window at that moment, I never would have realized my mistake. I never would have known that a tall thin dark-haired man wearing dark pants and a dark T-shirt was lurking in the doorway of the laundromat across the street, keeping watch on my apartment.
But, as bad luck would have it, I didn’t turn away from the window. I was still standing there, staring out at the street in a dopey dither, when the slim dark figure emerged from the unlit laundromat doorway and-keeping his eyes trained on my building-slunk out to the curb. I saw him crouch down behind a baby blue Studebaker for a second while he tied his shoe. I saw him sidle over to the lamppost and hold his watch up to the light to check the time. And then, right before he left-when he tilted his head back and gazed up at the windows of my apartment one last time-I saw his face.
Bathed in light from the streetlamp, his menacing mug was clearly visible. And I stared at it in shock. It was the face of the tightlipped Stewart’s Cafeteria busboy-the one I called Blackie.
I NEVER WENT UPSTAIRS TO BED THAT night. I just threw myself down on the daybed in the living room and then sat there like a stump, smoking cigarettes in the dark and praying for the phone to ring.
It never did, of course. I figured Dan had tried to call me shortly after midnight as promised, and then, when I didn’t answer, had simply gone to bed. I hoped he hadn’t flipped out and started worrying about me too much (although considering the dreadful day and night I’d had, such a reaction would have been warranted). I hoped he was sleeping soundly and having the sweetest, most soothing dreams imaginable.
At some point during my nocotine-and-nerve-wracked night, I fell asleep, too. But I had nightmares instead of dreams. (I won’t disturb you with the details of those feverish visions. Believe me, you don’t want to know.)
When I began to regain consciousness in the morning-still dressed in my black capris and black knit shell, eyelids glued shut with mascara, face mashed into the mattress of the daybed-I felt like a dead monkey. (Sorry, but that’s the best way I can think to describe it.) My sweaty hair was matted, like a damp carpet, to my head, and my outspread arms and legs were as leaden as pipes (the plumbing kind, not the musical or smoking variety).
So when the doorbell rang-jolting me like a jack-in-the-box out of my horizontal stupor to a sudden sitting position-I almost fainted dead away. No exaggeration. My head was so dizzy I couldn’t see straight. And when I tried to stand up, I almost fainted yet again. Every object in my living room (the TV set, chair, lamp, radio, bookshelf, electric fan, telephone table, potted plant) was swimming in circles before my eyes.
Groaning, I flopped back down on the couch and cupped my spinning head in my hands.
I just won’t answer the door, I decided. I don’t have to. Nobody can make me.
The bell rang again, but I ignored it. I was
not in the mood to see anybody. And I was definitely in no condition to be seen. I was curious to know who was out there, of course (curiosity is my constant companion), but I didn’t have the energy, or the equilibrium (or, I’m ashamed to admit, the chutzpah), to go peek through the window and find out. If it was Blackie or the bald man, I reasoned (okay, rationalized), I might have a heart attack and die. And that wouldn’t do me any good.
The doorbell rang again… and again… and again.
Aaaargh! Whoever was out there wasn’t giving up. I stuck my fingers in my ears, trying to block out the persistent piercing sounds, but it wasn’t any use. The bell just kept on ringing and ringing till it drove me clear out of my mind. I threw my hands in the air, leapt to my feet, sprang over to the door, and-without a single precautionary peek through the front window-buzzed the unknown caller in.
Yikes! I shrieked to myself, as soon as I realized what I’d done. Why did I do that? How could I be so stupid? And when I put my ear to the door and heard the slow, heavy, Frankenstein footsteps ascending the stairs to my apartment, I almost wet my pants. God help me! I’m a goner! A strong man could bust down this door in an instant!
Madly searching for a way to protect myself, I scrambled into the kitchen and-using every ounce of strength in every cell of my 5-foot 7-inch, 119-pound body-pulled the refrigerator away from the wall. (That’s right. The refrigerator! Shows you what a blast of adrenaline can do.) Then-thinking I’d make like Superman again and shove my Frigidaire across the room and park it in front of the door-I yanked the plug out of the wall, anchored my shoulder, hands, and forearms against the back of the appliance, and pushed with all my might.