The damn thing budged about an inch, but that was all. My adrenaline was all used up. (But you saw that coming, didn’t you? Hell, anybody with half a brain would have seen that coming! I, on the other hand, was utterly bewildered by my profound power failure-which will no doubt confirm your suspicions about the state
my half a brain was in.)
I was standing in the kitchen like a dolt, struggling to catch my breath and wondering what to do next, when the mysterious intruder started wrenching my doorknob in a frenzy and pounding hard, really hard, on the door.
I didn’t answer this time. (I usually try not to make the same mistake twice in one morning.) Overcome with exhaustion and dismay, I collapsed against the refrigerator and slid down to a squat on the floor. I didn’t know what else to do. The fat lady was singing at the top of her lungs. The end was near. I might as well give up and “go gentle into that good night.” (Dylan Thomas, in case you’re wondering, with just a couple of words left out.)
The pounding on my door grew even louder. “Open up, Paige!” a gruff male voice shouted. “I know you’re in there.”
First I melted in joyous relief, then I stiffened in stark apprehension.
It was Dan, and he didn’t sound friendly.
Chapter 17
HAVE YOU EVER HAD TO FACE THE MAN you love with gobs of mascara smeared all over your cheeks, a hairstyle that resembles a bathmat, a damp, wrinkled, all-black costume fit for a witch (or a crow), and a great big suitcase full of secrets? Then you know how I felt as I scraped myself up off the floor, steadied myself against the refrigerator for a second or two, and then wobbled over to open the door. (
Aghast, appalled, and ashamed are the first words that come to mind, starting with the A’s.)
I flipped the latch, released the deadbolt, slipped off the chain, and slowly cracked the door open. “Hi,” I said, gazing down at my feet as if they were the eighth wonder of the world. “What are you doing here? I thought you weren’t coming back until tomorrow.”
Dan pushed the door wide and lunged inside. His anger was so intense I could taste it. “Don’t give me that crap,” he said. “You know why I’m here.”
“No I don’t!” I cried, telling the god’s honest truth (for once). I raised my eyes and met his irate glare head-on. “What’s the matter?” I begged. “What are you so upset about? Has something bad happened? Oh, my god! Where’s Katy?”
“She’s still in Maine with my folks,” he said, quickly relieving my mind on that score, but letting my other questions dangle.
“So what’s going on?” I spluttered. “Are you okay? Why are you so mad? Please tell me what’s wrong!!!” I was teetering on the edge of another emotional breakdown.
Dan grabbed me by the shoulders, pulled me close, and peered deep into my eyes for a moment, obviously trying to judge the credibility of my frantic and concerned response. (I couldn’t blame him for that. Dan was a trained and efficient homicide dick; it was his duty to be suspicious. And, then, there was always the little matter of my less-than-stellar track record in the honesty department…)
Finally satisfied that I wasn’t putting on an act, Dan squeezed my shoulders, gave them a shake and growled, “Okay, so maybe you
don’t know why I’m here.” Then, in a very sarcastic tone, he added, “But since you’re such a cunning, clever, and daring little detective, I’m sure you can figure it out.”
His voice was still angry, and his fingers were still digging into the flesh of my upper arms, but as he stood there staring at me, the expression on his gorgeous, stubbled, well-tanned face underwent a conspicuous change. Instead of fierce and furious, he now looked kind of quizzical and… well, amused.
“What is it?” I snapped, unnerved by his sudden shift in mood. “What are you smiling about?”
“Your face is all black,” he said, “and your hair’s kind of frizzy. Have you joined a minstrel troupe?”
“Very funny,” I said, resisting the urge to run and hide in the coat closet. I was embarrassed about my appearance, but really glad it had given Dan a chuckle. (Call me a boob, but I’d rather be laughed at than yelled at.)
“Hey, what’s your refrigerator doing in the middle of the room?” Dan let go of my shoulders and walked over to the wayward appliance, brow wrinkled in a Mr. Fixit frown. “Is it broken? How long has it been unplugged?”
“Oh, er, just for a little while,” I stammered, feeling even more embarrassed than before. “And, no, it’s not broken. I’ve been thinking of redecorating the kitchen, and I wanted to see what it would look like on a different wall.” (Well, what was I
supposed to say? That I was trying to shove it in front of the door so a deranged slasher couldn’t burst in and kill me?)
Dan shot me a sneer of disbelief, stuck the plug back in the socket, and-with barely an oof or a grunt-wriggled the Frigidaire back into place. Then he took a tray of ice out of the freezer, cranked the cubes loose, and stacked a bunch of them in a glass. “Okay, out with it, Paige,” he said, filling the glass with water and carrying it over to the kitchen table. “No more lies and deception.” He yanked a chair away from the table and sat down. “I want a full confession and I want it
now.”
My head started spinning again. How was I going to deal with this one? Dan had obviously learned something about me since I’d last spoken to him-something that upset him so much he’d cut his vacation a day short, left his daughter with his parents in Maine, and driven all night to get to my apartment. But what exactly had he learned, and how had he learned it? How could I make (okay, make up) a good confession when I had no idea what I had to confess to?
(I know what you’re thinking. You’re thinking I should have made a clean breast of everything right there and then-told Dan all about Gray’s murder and my subsequent involvement in it. And, looking back, I can see the wisdom of that view. But hindsight is better than foresight-well,
my foresight, anyway-and at this particular point in time all I could think about was how I was going to get to the heart of the murder without losing Dan’s heart in the process.)
“Lies?! Deception?! Confession?!” I squawked, putting on a big show of righteous indignation (which is hard to do when you look like a cross between Al Jolson and the Creature from the Black Lagoon). “I don’t know what you’re talking about! What crime am I being accused of now?” (The best defense is a good offense, they say-or is it the other way around?)
“Quit stalling, Paige.” Dan pulled a pack of Luckies out of his shirt pocket and fired one up. “It took me nine straight hours to drive here from Portland. I’m too tired to play games. Just tell me the goddamn truth.”
“Can I wash my face first?” I stalled, walking over to the kitchen sink and turning on the water. “Then I’ll tell you anything you want to know. Promise.”
He released a loud groan of exhaustion. “Yeah, okay. And make a pot of coffee while you’re at it. I’m really beat.” Setting his burning cigarette in the ashtray, he leaned back in his chair and stretched his long, strong legs out in front of him. Then he crossed one burly arm over the other and closed his bloodshot eyes.
I scrubbed my face clean and filled the coffeepot with water. Then, spooning Chase & Sanborn into the filtered metal basket, I snuck a long, hard look at Dan while his lids were shut. Maybe his unguarded facial expression and body language would clue me in to the secret workings of his mind…
Nope. I couldn’t see that far inside. All I could see was the outside:… the sexy jut of his hips… the unusually casual and sporty way he was dressed (khaki shorts, blue and white seersucker shirt opened halfway down the chest)… the way his disheveled dark brown hair was flopping down over his forehead.