He watched as she digested this. After a moment she said quietly, ‘He said he would see me again.’
Hrype detected both fear and excitement in her at the prospect. ‘As indeed you will,’ he said.
She looked up and met his eyes. Hers were frank, their expression open. ‘Thank you, Hrype,’ she said.
‘For what?’ He felt he already knew.
‘For giving me something else to think about,’ she replied. ‘Instead of turning to and fro in my bed and keeping my aunt awake while I lament my failure over Sir Alain de Villequier, I shall instead lie there wondering what marvels Gurdyman will reveal next time we meet. I hardly know,’ she added in a soft voice as she turned to go, ‘which is the more likely to rob me of my sleep.’
He stared after her as she hurried away. She had done well today, very well. Silently, he sent his love with her, using her as his intermediary for soon she would be with Edild. As he watched Lassair open the door a crack and slide her slim body through the gap, he thought that he would not mind if she kept a little of that love for herself.
FOURTEEN
I slept the deep sleep of physical exhaustion and awoke, with no memory of even having dreamed, feeling heavy and lethargic. I told Edild the stark facts — that Sir Alain and Lady Claude had been introduced while she still lived at Heathlands, and that he had been a frequent visitor to the house — but, when she quite naturally wanted to discuss the implications of this, I shook my head in denial.
‘Hrype will come to see us this evening,’ I said. ‘Let us wait till then.’
She accepted this, but I noticed she was eyeing me with curiosity. I thought I’d be able to ignore it, but in the end I weakened. ‘What is it? Why are you staring at me like that?’
She smiled. ‘Yesterday you were taken to see a wizard,’ she replied. ‘I was hoping you might tell me what he was like.’
I laughed, and for a moment the heaviness lifted. ‘I’m sorry,’ I said, reaching for her hand. ‘Gurdyman is extraordinary. He has such a sense of power about him, yet he’s careful to keep it veiled. He looks like the most genial, cheery, everyday sort of man till you happen to find him staring at you, then you feel as if someone’s pushing tiny filaments into your body and trying to find the core of you.’
‘It sounds alarming,’ Edild observed.
‘It is,’ I agreed. ‘But he realized I was disturbed by his scrutiny, and immediately he stopped. I wouldn’t wish to be his enemy.’ I shuddered. ‘I should think he could be ruthless.’
I pictured Gurdyman’s round, smiling, strangely unlined face. Then the image was superimposed by another. The sage’s face grew stern and seemed to alter shape, so that the bones under the plump cheeks and the smooth brow became prominent, the flesh melted away and the kindly eyes turned harsh and penetrating. I gave a small gasp, and instantly the familiar, friendly face returned.
Was it my imagination? Had the image of the frightening wizard been conjured up by my own mind because I had been wondering what it would be like to be his enemy? Or had Gurdyman himself planted it, as if to say, You saw my genial face. Do not be fooled into believing that is all there is to me.
I did not know.
Edild had cleared away our breakfast bowls and cups, and now I hastened to my feet to tidy our cots, folding the bedding and stuffing it and the pillows out of sight beneath the bed frames. The daylight was waxing fast, and soon our first patients would be coming to call.
I tried to concentrate on my work, but I kept being distracted. I thought of Sir Alain and Ida. I imagined them together, those two people who seemed made for happiness and laughter, and who, if the world were arranged differently, would undoubtedly have wed, raised a family and lived as happily as it is possible for humans to live. I dare say I was romanticizing them, believing what I wanted to believe, and I was undoubtedly making too much of what scant evidence I had so far. I had been told that Sir Alain had visited Heathlands, and I kept telling myself that was all I knew. To leap from that one simple fact to proposing that Alain and Ida were so well suited that they would have married if they could was pure invention.
Yet, as the morning wore on and my battle to fix my mind on my work became more and more challenging, the quiet little voice at the back of my head insisting that I was right refused to be silenced. And just how, I wondered in silent frustration, could that rose-tinted vision of the pair of them accord with my new certainty that it was at Sir Alain’s hands that poor little Ida had died?
In the end Edild lost patience with me. In our work, inatten-tiveness is potentially very dangerous. I muddled someone’s symptoms, reporting to my aunt that the man had bellyache when in fact, as he was quick to correct me, he was severely costive. Then, later, I handed her a jar containing dried wormwood stems instead of the pot of willowherb leaves she had asked for. She noticed instantly — of course she did, the two are quite dissimilar — and quietly but forcefully thrust the wormwood back into my hand. ‘Go and wait for me outside!’ she hissed.
I went. I do not often make my aunt angry, and I hate it when I do. I waited until her patient emerged, clutching the infusion Edild had just prepared that would swiftly ease his headache, and after a moment she followed.
She studied me for a while. Then, instead of the castigation I had expected and richly deserved, she said, ‘You are no use to me today indoors. Go and gather some sweet flag root. We’re getting low.’
I dipped my head meekly in acknowledgement. I fetched my collecting basket from the outhouse and hurried away before she could change her mind.
The yellow flag — which we also call gladden — serves mainly as a purgative, using the fresh roots. It likes wet, marshy ground, so I went down the path from Edild’s house, crossed the track leading towards the hall and set off towards the soggy ground where land gives way to water. I worked steadily, taking a little from several plants rather than filling my basket from one single place. Edild says we must respect that plants have a right to life too, and that taking too much of one plant’s root would probably kill it. Each time I cut some root I chanted the little song of thanks that my aunt had taught me.
I found that I had wandered almost as far as the fen edge. Stopping, I put down my basket, which was getting heavy, and put my hands to the small of my back. I had been bending down for too long and short, sharp stabs of pain were my reward. I was quite close to the place where the little causeway goes across to the island. I decided to pay a quick visit to Granny, guilty suddenly because I had been neglecting her since the discovery of Ida’s body.
I left my basket where it was to collect on my return and hurried off. The ground was reasonably firm now, so soon after midsummer, for the weather had been fair and we had not had much rain. It would be a different matter in autumn, when the equinox gales sweep in and the rain lashes the land. We would by then have taken away the planks and supports of our temporary bridge, the way to the island would become impassable and Granny Cordeilla would be left all by herself with the ancestors.
I did not think she would mind. They were her own kin, she had known and loved several of them in life, and she had no doubt communed with those who had died before her birth long before she went to join them.
I crossed over the narrow planks and jumped down on to the island. I went to stand over the big slab that marked Granny’s grave, opening my mind and my heart to her. I was just closing my eyes when I noticed something: a tiny wreath made of grass wound into a circle and laced with wild flowers, the whole thing about the size of my palm.
I bent down to study it. It lay half under the stone slab, so that it had been hidden as I approached. It looked as if someone had wanted to put it as close as possible to the tomb, but without going so far as to move the slab and put it inside.