Calling the cops, sending them into Queens. Blowing it wide. Does that rip a hole in the side of the worm? Will blood run from it? Or does something like that make it stronger? More madness.
A sudden fun house mirror skew to the world. Everyone looking at the new reflection, asking, Do I really look like that? Your friends and neighbors, seeing them with those new eyes, Who are they? What are they?
How bad will it get?
How fast?
Figure it will get as bad as it can possibly get as fast as humanly possible.
Figure it this way. With or without Amanda’s research, once they have actual Vyrussy Vampyres in their labs, someone will come to the same conclusions that she did. So if our very existence doesn’t push the madding crowd over the edge, the idea of rewriting the history of life with sanguivores as the wellspring should be good for at least one holy war.
Then again, I’m maybe not the one you want sitting judgment on humanity. People being inclined as they are to see their own natures in everyone else. A world full of me? Who wouldn’t push the button?
The worm.
You can’t kill it.
It can only kill itself.
– I know about you.
I ignore that.
– As much as he talked about Percy, he talked about you almost as much.
I ignore it some more.
– He made you sound like the world’s baddest man. John Shaft with white skin.
In the front passenger seat, Lydia turns and looks at me when she hears that.
– Go ahead and smile, Joe, no one’s ever going to flatter you more than that.
Next to me in the back, Delilah shakes her head.
– Just said that was the picture my dad painted, I didn’t say it was accurate. Look at you. Look like you were something made to be beat on. It’s like nothing he ever told me was true. Like it’s just one big mess of craziness is all it is.
She shakes a fist at no one.
– I will not stand for more craziness.
I tug on the stump of my left ring finger.
– Girl, you got yourself into a world of craziness the minute you fucked a Vampyre, the rest of this is just what comes with the package.
Delilah slaps Ben’s shoulder and the Impala veers slightly.
– You have nothing to say to that?
Ben straightens the wheel and keeps his eyes on the road.
– Baby, I’m new to the whole experience myself. If I was comfortable with the way things are done, I wouldn’t have been looking for someone outside the infected community. To my eyes, it’s all been crazy. Being infected. Meeting you. Getting into the whole undead scene with you. ‘Cause you know I love you, and the role-playing is fun, kinky, but talking like that all the time, it wears me out a little. And now. Becoming a dad. Crazy is the least of it.
Delilah sniffs.
– If you don’t care to embrace your true self, you need not be burdened by myself or the child.
– Hon, that’s not what I.
She raises a hand.
– I’d prefer silence.
Lydia leans into her headrest.
– More craziness.
I rasp my whiskers with my fingernails.
– Price of admission.
• • •
There’s another price to be paid.
– You are so full of shit!
– Delilah, my dear, I was only trying to reassure myself that you were safe.
– Fuck that! I’m not talking about that! I’m talking about all your bullshit about these people!
Ben ducks the pointed finger as it swings his way.
– Baby, I’m not sure that’s the kind of language you mean to be using.
Her finger changes into a flat palm that she shoves an inch from Ben’s nose.
– Ben, baby daddy, shut the fuck up unless you want the remaining romance in this deal to go running down the drain.
Ben shuts up and takes a step back.
She turns to Chubby.
– Have you ever spent any time with these psychos? They. You made it sound like an adventure!
Chubby has his arms extended, showing his palms, fingers pointed down, supplicant.
– I was trying to entertain.
– I was a kid, for fuck sake!
– Entertain a very advanced child with very mature tastes.
– Don’t blame me for this shit.
– I am not. Your mother and I, our business. Of course your own interests were exotic. A bedtime reading of The Cat in the Hat was hardly in order.
She gives him the palm treatment.
– Just. OK. I don’t want to. Because I will just get.
She steps to him and shoves as hard as she can, failing to budge him an inch.
– We almost died! Over and over we almost died! And my baby, they would have killed my baby!
Her shoves turn to slaps, smacking his face side to side.
– You and your bullshit ideas of what being a dad is. Trying to show off. You and your secrets. Bullshit, bullshit, bullshit!
Slaps turn to fists and Chubby has enough.
Grabs her by the wrists.
– Woman.
Ben steps to, draws a look from Chubby, and steps off.
Chubby pushes his face close to his daughter’s.
– You wanted adventure and romance. I obliged. You showed up with your young man and your predicament, and I gave you my best advice and counsel. Get rid of them both. Boy and baby. Because you are my daughter and I want what is best for you. But you are not a little girl, you are all grown up. Making your own decisions. That you judged reality by your bedtime stories bespeaks your own personal weaknesses. That you chose to indulge a predilection for dramatics, which is excessive to say the least, bespeaks your desire to dodge responsibilities. Now you have seen all this, what would you like me to do? What can I do to make up the past for you? Can I tell you a fresh fairy tale? One with a happy ending for you and Ben? From what I understand, that will not be coming true. We’ll need to hide you both, more than ever. You and your baby. You will be a mother soon. Time to stop worrying about the past. Time to worry about the future.
She twists free, stares at him.
– Hide my baby?
She shakes her head slow to the left.
– Never.
Slow to the right.
– This child is meant for the light.
Chubby’s hands flutter at his sides.
– Delilah, dear, I’m not suggesting you live in a cave.
– Yeah, you are. He looks at Lydia.
She’s leaning against the wall, next to the assault rifle she took from the Cure house.
– You’re telling them they have the love that dare not speak its name. And a baby that’s going to have to learn to pass. And that’s not the way it has to be.
Chubby slips a thumb in the armhole of his vest.
– This is a family matter, Miss Miles.
– Mizz Miles.
She comes away from the door.
– Throw those diminutives around, but don’t slap them on me.
Chubby looks at me.
– Joe?
I shake my head.
– No way, I’m not in this.
Lydia goes to Delilah.
– We can use you.
She puts a hand on Delilah’s belly.
– This baby, whatever it is, this baby says we’re all the same. It says infected and uninfected, we’re all human. It forces them to look at us and see people, not monsters. This baby, it’s not a symbol, it’s a fact. And it, and you, both of you together, if you come with me, you can save lives. Just by being there and letting people see you and see what you made together.
Chubby wipes a hand down his face.
– Madness. Madness.
Lydia stays with Delilah’s eyes.
– It is not safe. It will not be safe. But it isn’t a safe world. All we can do is try and make it better.
Delilah’s eyes are wide and shiny.
She holds her hand open to Ben, he takes it, she pulls him close.
– This is a child of destiny in troubled times.
Chubby throws up his hands and walks away.
– Babbling, incoherent madness.