Father’s hands were behind his head now, and he watched her smiling. Annie was moaning and squirming against his knees. Then she moved forward so that the table partially obscured her as she dropped to her knees, running her hands over his thighs and begging:
“Please, sir, don’t torture me any more! Please give it to me! Please, sir… give me, gimme gimme it, sir…” she was becoming incoherent and rapid and strange: “Sir, Billy-ya gotta let me have it, do you hear, Billy, give it to me! OH, OH, BILLY, come on now, give it to me, your cock, Billy, that BIG ONE. Give, it GIVE IT TO ME! Ohhhhh!” She was fumbling with his pants, I think, but I couldn’t see very well for the table and the arm of the couch.
“Let me hear how much you want it, little cunt. Let me hear you beg for it-you have to really want it to get it you know.”
“I do beg you,” she whispered huskily, “haven’t I been begging you for it, Billy? I want it, I’ll die if ya don’t give it to me. Please, Billy and I’ll suck ya, and do anything ya want- yes, yes, all those other things too, only give it to me, Billy!”
“There, there, little trull, open up and take it if you need it so much.” He was still leaning back, but his tongue was always running over his lips now, and his face seemed to twist and contort with some inner emotion. Annie was doing something to his pants and suddenly:
“Ah, I have him! I have him! OHHHH!” and her head buried itself in his lap and her voice was suddenly muffled! Father’s face changed to an expression of pure joy, tinged with a gradually mounting urgency. Annie was doing something and I craned up on my toes to see what it was. But strain as I would, the arm was in the way, and all I could discern was Annie back, and side, and her head which seemed to be licking and caressing something coming up from Father’s lap. She sucked and licked and sucked again, running her tongue around it. Then, with a sudden shock of horror, I realized that it was Father’s penis, hard and stiff as my own had become during this scene-but what horrified me more was my own wild excitement at this act.
Father’s face was moving with the most intense pleasure. His mouth was contorted and his breathing quick:
“Suck me, now, that’s it, little trull, lick it nice, now! Oh, you are delicious! Suck it out, now!” His voice raised and lost some of its elegance and control. “Ah, ah! That’s enough, that’s enough!” And he fell sideways on the couch, pulling her up with him as he did it. His hands were moving quickly over what I could see of her body, and their mouths moved around and across each other.
“Billy, please” she was almost screaming: “give it to me-in me, Billy! Ya got to give it to me! I!…” But Father’s mouth cut her off and he rolled on top of her, reaching down to, I think, take off her panties. I could see only his back now as he lay between her up-thrust legs, and her face which was propped on a pillow at the far end of the couch. Her arms, which had seemed to be helping him to adjust something below, came around him now, and their bodies began to move back and forth in unison, his back rising up and then pushing downward on her. I was shocked, puzzled, excited and afraid.
Annie’s face began to have a great eagerness in it, and a strangely moving tension. Her lips parted and she kept uttering a high pitched moan. Sometimes her teeth gritted, and others her mouth would open and her tongue would move in. it. Her eyes were mostly closed, but sometimes they would open with a hunger and urgency which seemed to be looking directly into mine, due to how she was lying, and I felt an almost uncontrollable urge to answer her need, even though I could not fathom what it was.
“Fuck me, fuck me, Billy! Oh please, harder, harder, now,” she pleaded. “Stroke me, stroke me while ya fuck me, Billy!” And the repetition of this word which I didn’t understand seemed to continuously excite both more and more as, although I didn’t know why, it did me.
The girl was becoming frantic, writhing around beneath Father, and gripping him and releasing him with her legs. She kept trying to sink her teeth in his shoulder, and tossing her head around.
“Lift up a little, please, please!” She moaned. “So I feel more. That’s it, move it around in me, Billy! Up, up, hard against my button! Aiii! Harder, HARDER, ON THE BUTTON, YES, YES, Billy!” She writhed and moaned, seeming to beg for something beyond human power to give. But now her face reached a sudden expression of rending ecstasy! Father’s breath was short and rapid now, intermingled with sharp, low grunts, reaching towards some crescendo as Annie moaned at him:
“Harder Billy-my button, yes-that too-OHHHH! Harder now, yes! Pump me now! Hard and straight and fast! Pump me hard, Billy! Yes yes yes yes yahhhhh! Fuck! Hard! Yaahh! Aiii!” and of a sudden she gripped him and seemed in a convulsion of movement against him, while she screamed, her face a contorted struggle between pleasure and pain, while he moved faster and faster on her, his grunts mingling with her scream. For a moment they seemed bent on tearing each other apart with their movement, but then, after her last gasping cry, they locked themselves together, he with his face buried in her hair.
For a long moment I remained frozen by the experience, continuing to stare at the two pairs of arms, wrapped around each other, the two heads and shoulders lying together before me. I didn’t know what I had seen, but I was held fast by the spell of the excitement: the intense pleasure I had seen and felt, coupled with the growing inner feeling of shame; the great beauty in the scene, coupled with my vague feeling that it was something forbidden and wrong. And indeed, so great was my concentration that I might have remained fixed there until I was discovered had not a small sound beside me snapped me to an awareness of my position.
I did not move my body, but turning my head slightly, I was able to see just well enough behind me into the dimly lighted hall to observe Gunilla, whom I had forgotten, pass and ascend the stairs. Although I was so shaken that I could scarcely walk, after a moment, I moved slowly after her, and none too soon as the last quick look I sent into the living room showed me that Annie and Father were beginning to move.
Silently on the thick carpet, I crept to the stair and ascended to my room.
Chapter Three
I went up to my room excited and disturbed by all I had heard and seen. Although the hall was brilliantly lit by a great glass chandelier, my room was dark and, without turning on the light, I closed the door and lay down. For some time I stared up at the immense blackness trying to take in all that had happened. Gradually I became aware of a diffused light in the room. Stirring up a little and looking around, I discovered that it came from the crack beneath a door which apparently led to another room. I quickly moved close to the door. Then hesitated; fearing to open it, but ashamed of the idea of peeking through the keyhole. However, this last compunction was soon overwhelmed by my curiosity and, kneeling down, I placed my eye to the opening.
At first I could see nothing. Then as my eyes adjusted to the brightness, I discovered I was peering into the most marvelous room I had ever seen. Everything was silk and satin, and lace and silk, and velvet and silk. Immediately before me was a screen, and over it was whiteness hanging, and silk. Silk stockings were lying on the deep white rug. Strange, delicate garments were scattered on the white furniture. There was a giant bed and over it hung a canopy of white silk. Even the bedspread was silk. And everywhere was whiteness. Hardly had I taken this in when a. woman came into my range of vision. The kimono she wore was silk. It was also white. The woman was Mother.
She moved in her bare feet to a dressing table which stood to the right of the screen and began to brush her hair, watching herself in the mirror. As she ran the brush through it in a long steady stroke, her chin tilted up slightly showing her face in clear profile to me. Nothing can describe that beauty! The white, white skin, and the clean line of nose and cheek and throat. I stared in complete awe and reverence.