Tell me why it didn't save Dave.
In the message he left me, he indicated that he had been distracted at his computer access station. Its noise probably drowned out the humming.
Why wasn't this message preserved?
I erased it for, reasons not connected with the case.
What reasons?
My own.
His face went from sallow to ruddy.
A man can get in a lot of trouble for suppressing evidence, obstructing justice.
Then we have something in common, don't we, sir?
His eyes caught mine with a look I had only encountered before from those who did not wish me well. He held the glare for a full four heartbeats, then sighed and seemed to relax.
Don said there were a number of points you couldn't be pressed on, he finally said.
That's right.
He didn't betray any confidences, but he had to tell me something about you, you know.
I'd imagine.
He seems to think highly of you. Still, I tried to learn more about you on my own.
And ... ?
I couldn't, and my usual sources are good at that kind of thing.
So ... ?
So, I've done some thinking, some wondering ... The fact that my sources could not come up with anything is interesting in itself. Possibly even revealing. I am in a better position than most to be aware of the fact that there was not perfect compliance with the registration statute some years ago. It didn't take long for a great number of the individuals involved, I should probably say 'most', to demonstrate their existence in one fashion or another and be duly entered, though. And there were three broad categories: those who were ignorant, those who disapproved, and those who would be hampered in an illicit life-style. I am not attempting to categorize you or to pass judgment. But I am aware that there are a number of nonpersons passing through society without casting shadows, and it has occurred to me that you may be such a one.
I tasted my drink.
And if I am? I asked.
He gave me his second, nastier smile and said nothing.
I rose and crossed the room to where I judged his chair had once stood. I looked at the watercolor.
I don't think you could stand an inquiry, he said.
I did not reply.
Aren't you going to say something?
What do you want me to say?
You might ask me what I am going to do about it.
What are you going to do about it?
Nothing, he answered. So come back here and sit down.
I nodded and returned.
He studied my face. Was it possible you were close to violence just then?
With four guards outside?
With four guards outside.
No, I said.
You're a good liar.
I am here to help you, sir. No questions asked. That was the deal, as I understood it. If there has been any change, I would like to know about it now.
He drummed with his fingertips on the plaid.
I've no desire to cause you any difficulty, he said. Fact of the matter is, I need a man just like you, and I was pretty sure someone like Don might turn him up. Your unusual maneuverability and your reported knowledge of computers, along with your touchiness in certain areas, made you worth waiting for. I've a great number of things I would like to ask you.
Go ahead, I said.
Not yet. Later, if we have time. All that would be bonus material, for a report I am working on. Far more important, to me, personally, there are things that I want to tell you.
I frowned.
Over the years, he went on, I have learned that the best man for purposes of keeping his mouth shut concerning your business is someone for whom you are doing the same.
You have a compulsion to confess something? I asked.
I don't know whether 'compulsion' is the right word. Maybe so, maybe not. Either way, however, someone among those working to defend me should have the whole story. Something somewhere in it may be of help, and you are the ideal choice to hear it.
I buy that, I said, and you are as safe with me as I am with you.
Have you any suspicions as to why this business bothers me so?
Yes, I said.
Let's hear them.
You used the Hangman to perform some act or acts, illegal, immoral, whatever. This is obviously not a matter of record. Only you and the Hangman now know what it involved. You feel it was sufficiently ignominious that when that device came to appreciate the full weight of the event, it suffered a breakdown which may well have led to a final determination to punish you for using it as you did.
He stared down into his glass.
You've got it, he said.
You were all party to it?
Yes, but I was the operator when it happened. You see ... we, I, killed a man. It was, Actually, it all started as a celebration. We had received word that afternoon that the project had cleared. Everything had checked out in order and the final approval had come down the line. It was go, for that Friday. Leila, Dave, Manny, and myself, we had dinner together. We were in high spirits. After dinner, we continued celebrating and somehow the party got adjourned back to the installation.
As the evening wore on, more and more absurdities seemed less and less preposterous, as is sometimes the case. We decided, I forget which of us suggested it, that the Hangman should really have a share in the festivities. After all, it was, in a very real sense, his party. Before too much longer, it sounded only fair and we were discussing how we could go about it ... You see, we were in Texas and the Hangman was at the Space Center in California. Getting together with him was out of the question. On the other hand, the teleoperator station was right up the hall from us. What we finally decided to do was to activate him and take turns working as operator. There was already a rudimentary consciousness there, and we felt it fitting that we each get in touch to share the good news. So that is what we did. He sighed, took another sip, glanced at me. Dave was the first operator, he continued. He activated the Hangman. Then, Well, as I said, we were all in high spirits. We had not originally intended to remove the Hangman from the lab where he was situated, but Dave decided to take him outside briefly, to show him the sky and to tell him he was going there, after all. Then Dave suddenly got enthusiastic about outwitting the guards and the alarm system. It was a game. We all went along with it. In fact, we were clamoring for a turn at the thing ourselves. But Dave stuck with it, and he wouldn't turn over control until he had actually gotten the Hangman off the premises, out into an uninhabited area next to the Center.
By the time Leila persuaded him to give her a go at the controls, it was kind of anticlimactic. That game had already been played. So she thought up a new one: she took the Hangman into the next town. It was late, and the sensory equipment was superb. It was a challenge, passing through the town without being detected. By then, everyone had suggestions as to what to do next, progressively more outrageous suggestions. Then Manny took control, and he wouldn't say what he was doing, wouldn't let us monitor him. Said it would be more fun to surprise the next operator. Now, he was higher than the rest of us put together, I think, and he stayed on so damn long that we started to get nervous ... A certain amount of tension is partly sobering, and I guess we all began to think what a stupid-assed thing it was we were doing. It wasn't just that it would wreck our careers, which it would, but it could blow the entire project if we got caught playing games with such expensive hardware. At least, I was thinking that way, and I was also thinking that Manny was no doubt operating under the very human wish to go the others one better.
I started to sweat. I suddenly just wanted to get the Hangman back where he belonged, turn him off, you could still do that, before the final circuits went in, shut down the station, and start forgetting it had ever happened. I began leaning on Manny to wind up his diversion and turn the controls over to me. Finally, he agreed.