"But how?"
"I don't want a new business at the center of a murder case, and if you don't care about your own mother, think of Douglas. He loves you. He's a politician. You think he needs his wife being the star witness in an ugly murder case?"
Caroline tried to imagine it. It would be awful for Douglas. But being accused of obstructing justice could be worse. Caroline felt torn, but her mother ranted on.
"Picture this scene. Every press conference dominated by questions about you. Your name in the headlines, linked with a strangulation. And a bikini. God knows how they'll play it up, the possibilities are endless. He'll never get reelected!" Her mother drew a quick breath. "Now stop this foolishness and go to your room!"
The command struck a familiar chord. Without another word, Caroline broke away from her mother and hurried up the staircase to her room in their cottage. She was so angry and confused, she had to be alone. To think. To sort it out. To make a decision.
She threw herself facedown on the puffy duvet like she used to when she was a teenager. When was she going to grow up? Why did she still let her mother control her? She didn't know. But she had to talk to Douglas. Maybe he would tell her. She had to get him up to speed on what had happened, so he could protect himself. And what about this news, about her having a sister or a brother? Was that related to the murder? She had so many questions, so much to think about. It was all too much to process by herself. She needed help.
Caroline padded downstairs, poked around until she found the cordless phone that had been newly installed on her mother's desk, and punched in Douglas's personal number. Only she had the number; it was his wedding gift to her. She hated to disturb him at their country cabin, but she had to. He was working on a speech and always went into isolation at their cabin to write. Surely this was important enough to interrupt his solitude. She knew he would understand.
Still Caroline couldn't keep her thoughts from racing ahead. She had overheard Claudia's conversation last night. Did her knowledge put her in jeopardy? As the phone started ringing on the other end of the line, she eyed the glass sliders to the patio with new concern. The room was open to the lake. Anybody could break in. She tucked the cordless under her ear and hurried over to double-check the lock.
Good. The lock was in place. The phone was ringing. Douglas would know what to do. She loved him like crazy, and he was wonderful to her. He always seemed to have all the answers, and being married to him for the past eleven months was the best time of her life. Soon it would be their first anniversary. How would they celebrate? She would have to think of something. The phone was finally picked up. "Douglas!" Caroline said, almost breathless.
But the voice on the other end of the line was equally breathless. And it wasn't Douglas's voice. It was a woman's. "Hello?" the woman said, in almost a whisper.
"Douglas?" Caroline asked, taken aback. It couldn't be Douglas's phone. He was alone at the cabin, and nobody else had this number. "I'm sorry, I must have a wrong number."
"No, you wanted Doug? This is his phone."
Caroline's mouth went dry. Her face felt suddenly aflame. She didn't understand. Doug?
"He's sleeping, right here, but I'll wake him if it's important. Is this his office?"
Caroline couldn't answer or speak. She didn't get it. Was Douglas at the cabin with another woman? It couldn't be. He was going up alone, he'd said. He always did. Their marriage was sound, wasn't it?
"Hello? Anybody home?" breathed the woman's voice, then laughed lightly. She sounded young. Fresh. Thin.
Caroline's fingers tightened around the cordless. So Douglas hadn't sent her here for her benefit, or for her mother's. He had done it so he could be alone with this woman. It had all been planned. Premeditated. And was it the first time? Douglas always went to the cabin to work. Was this woman with him all this time? Caroline felt her heart wrench within her chest, but it wasn't pain, it was anger. Rage. Fury. She felt like exploding. For the first time in her life, Caroline felt like an adult. Like a woman.
"Would you give Doug a message for me?" Caroline asked, her voice surprisingly strong.
"Fer sure. I'll get a pencil."
"You won't need one. Just listen."
"Okay. Whatever."
"Tell that jerk I want a divorce for my anniversary," Caroline said abruptly, then pressed the button for End.
Chapter Five
"BRAVO!" THE PHONE CLATTERED to the floor. Caroline whirled around and saw King David in the doorway clapping, his head seeming to scrape the top of the door frame. "Couldn't have said it better myself," he added and came toward her.
She took a step backward toward the bathroom.
He stopped and held his hands up as if she had a gun on him. But he was smiling. "Did I scare you?" he said. "I just wanted to have a minute to talk to you. It's not easy, with your mother… anyway, can I sit down?"
Caroline shook her head. He was too big for the room. It wasn't just his extraordinary height, the long ropy arms, the snakelike hair coiling around his shoulders. Power bristled around him like microwaves. It came from decades of people pouring love into him in huge stadiums, writing him letters, waiting for him outside stage doors; from the critics arguing about him in Rolling Stone and Spin; from the judges letting him off one more time; and from the gossip columnists and girlfriends and agents.
He put his hands in his pockets and sighed, lounging comfortably in place.
"For all I know, you killed Claudia," Caroline said.
"Maybe I did," he said and laughed. "In one of my famous drug-induced frenzies. Don't think I was having one last night, but then, the frenzied one is always the last to know. Look, let's go outside. We can stay in full view of the police the whole time, if you're really worried about me. I really have to talk to you."
She hesitated, searching herself internally for the flood of emotion that ought to be paralyzing her. Shouldn't she be wailing and weeping and taking to her bed about now?
Why did she feel so… so liberated instead, as if she'd been living in a cage, well fed, well housed, for the past year? Her mouth opened a little and she looked down at herself. Her hands were on her hips, her chest sticking out so the top button of her shirt had unceremoniously popped out of the buttonhole, her bare feet standing apart on the rug. She felt galvanized, not stricken. The giant only a few feet away raised his eyebrows and she saw the tattoos in the corners.
"That must have hurt quite a bit," she said, tapping her temples with her fingers.
"Anything for art," he said. "So?"
"So let's go outside."
As she passed through the doorway after him, the phone began to ring. She closed the door on the ringing, no slam, no acknowledgment of it at all. King did the eyebrow thing again, then turned and walked over to the path by the lake. Following him down the path toward the water, she felt grateful for his ironic smile and cheerful cynicism, because she had responded to it with some unknown part of herself that was saving her now. That conventional part of herself hadn't taken over, the part that would have been hoping she was wrong. If King hadn't come along she would have answered that phone and listened to whatever story Douglas told her.
Listening with one ear, she heard the phone finally fall silent. What could Douglas have said? She would have to be a moron not to comprehend the tones of the girl's voice, the lazy assurance in it, the estrogen-soaked attraction of that breathless soprano.
Now, trotting behind the tight jeans and wide leather belt that strode ahead, she let the waves of angry realization wash over her one by one. Douglas hadn't been home for dinner more than twice a week for the past three months. He'd been on the road or at meetings or in legislative sessions. Someone important needed his advice, or a crucial campaign donor needed a pep talk.