"I have no idea what you mean," she said, still playing the game, still pretending that things were all right between her and Douglas when they were anything but.
"Maybe you should take a look at this, then." Lifting the envelope from her lap, Hilda held it out. Caroline looked at it but made no attempt to take it.
"What is it?" she asked. Her voice sounded wooden. There was an ache in Caroline Blessing's heart. She knew that whatever was in the envelope was going to be bad news, and she didn't want to touch it.
"Surveillance reports," Hilda answered. "From a private detective."
"Surveillance reports on whom?" Caroline asked.
"On Douglas, of course. Who else? Names, places, dates, times. I thought you should know all these things. And I thought you should have some idea which of your friends aren't friends at all. That's always useful information to have, to know where you stand. When it comes to this sort of thing, a woman can't afford to have too many surprises, especially in this day and age."
"You've been spying on Douglas?" Caroline managed to stammer.
"Spying's too strong a word," Hilda returned mildly. "I prefer to think of it as checking up on him. And it's a good thing I did, too. Your father certainly wouldn't have considered doing such a thing, although, in my opinion that's something fathers are supposed to do-protect their daughters. Now take it," she urged. "Even if you don't want to look at it, I still want you to have it now, before it's too late."
Caroline reached out and took the envelope. The paper should have been cool to the touch, but it wasn't. The surface of the envelope seemed to sear her skin. She held it for a moment, and then it slipped through her reluctant fingers and dropped to the floor.
"I don't want it," she said. "I don't want to know. I already told Douglas I want a divorce. I don't need to know any of the rest of it."
"You may think you don't want to know, but if you don't take this envelope and put it away, the rest of the world is going to find out all about it."
"What do you mean?"
"Oh, Caroline, please don't be so incredibly dim," Hilda returned. "Why do you think I refused to talk to the detective today?"
"You said you had a spa to run."
"The detective may have been dumb enough to fall for that, but he'll get over it soon enough. I expected better than that from my own daughter. What I had to run was you," Hilda said. "I had to get you away from that man long enough to give you this so you could put it away properly before all hell breaks loose."
"All hell has already broken loose," Caroline pointed out. "Claudia de Vries is dead, and Douglas is having an affair. How much worse could it be?"
"That Detective Toscana is going to show up here any minute to arrest me."
"You?" Caroline gasped.
"Of course," Hilda said calmly. "Whom else would he come after? Even you should be able to see that I'm the most likely suspect. Once that happens, they'll get a search warrant, go through this room, and the contents of this envelope will be up for grabs. So while I go turn myself in, I suggest you do something with this. Put the envelope somewhere safe so that Toscana and his henchmen won't find it."
The fact that Caroline's mother was about to be arrested for murder was utterly unthinkable. "You're going to turn yourself in? For what?" she asked. "And what about having a lawyer there with you? Shouldn't you have one? Everyone else does."
"No need," Hilda replied. "It's nothing but a delaying tactic. I didn't kill Claudia de Vries, although, truth be known, I sure as hell wanted to. No, my turning myself in will give you time enough to get rid of the envelope. Then, when they find the real killer, they'll let me go and everything will be fine, and you'll have what you need to get yourself a great settlement. Judges don't just hand those out for no reason, you know," she added. "You have to have the goods on an erring husband in order to do that, especially when the erring husband is a member of Congress. But not to worry. You do have the goods, so take good care of them, while I freshen up and put on some makeup. If I'm going to be arrested, I'm going to be photographed. It wouldn't do for the new owner of Phoenix Spa to be hauled off to jail looking like something the cat dragged in, now would it."
With that Hilda went straight to her closet and paused there, studying the contents. "Which do you think, the navy suit or the fawn?"
"Navy would be better," Caroline supplied.
"Good," Hilda agreed. "That's what I think, too. It does a better job of showing off my hair."
Taking the blue suit with her, Hilda disappeared into the bathroom. Caroline stooped over and picked up the envelope that still lay on the floor where she had dropped it. It was addressed to Mrs. Hamlin Finch, and the postmark was dated weeks ago. From the weight of the envelope, Caroline could tell that it contained many sheets of paper. If each of them meant a separate report, then the surveillance had been going on for some time. So had Douglas 's betrayal and infidelity.
Caroline was still standing and staring at the envelope when the bathroom door opened once more. "Are you still here?" Hilda demanded. "You've got to do something with that, and you've got to do it now. Otherwise, it's going to be too late."
Nodding wordlessly, Caroline retreated upstairs to her loft. Not only had her mother bought back her cello, she had bought back the case as well. The case had a secret compartment concealed in the lid that had been known only to Caroline, her mother, and the person who had made the case. She pressed the pressure point just to the left of the topmost latch, and the satin lining sprang away from the leather to reveal a letter-sized, fold-out pouch. She slipped the envelope into the pouch and then closed up the lining.
Once the damning envelope was out of sight, the weight of all that had happened washed across Caroline and brought her to her knees. It was too much. The pain of her husband's betrayal, the shock of Claudia's death, the prospect of her mother being arrested-it was all more than Caroline could handle. She leaned against the bed with her head buried in the silky cover of her feather-soft duvet while a wild storm of weeping shook her very being. She stayed that way for a long time.
"Caroline?" her mother called up the stairs at last. "Are you still here?"
She stifled a ragged sob. "I'm here," she answered.
"I'm going, then," Hilda said. "I just wanted you to know."
"All right," Caroline managed. "Do you want me to come with you?"
"No. I'm sure you're in no condition to deal with any more stress. You stay here and try not to worry. Everything will be fine."
Everything won't be fine, Caroline wanted to shout at the top of her lungs. My marriage is over. My life is a wreck. My mother is being arrested for murder. But she didn't say any of those things aloud. Instead, she reached out her hand and touched the long, clean neck of the cello. She let her fingers trail along the smooth surface, allowing her fingers to find comfort there. When the door slammed shut behind Hilda Finch, her daughter reached over and removed her bow from its holder. Then she wrested the cello upright and carried it over to the dressing table chair.
Ignoring the ravaged countenance that stared back at her from the mirror, she planted the instrument between her sweats-clad legs and pulled the bow across the strings. The cello was so far out of tune that the shrill sound made her wince. It took her several minutes of tuning before she had it right, but when she did, she launched into the haunting strains of Camille Saint-Saëns's Cello Concerto no. 1. As the music washed over her it brought her the same relief it always had. It was through the cello that she had been able to endure all those years of arguments between her parents. It was music that had seen her through the loneliness of being an only child in an apparently loveless marriage. She had assumed, mistakenly, that once she fell in love-once she found the perfect mate-the peace granted her by music would no longer be necessary.