“I can’t.”
“Sure you can. I’ll give you a running start at it. You just complete the sentence: Jeeze, you’re a…”
“Bitch.” Barb said it so softly, it was barely audible.
“Okay, Barb, that was a good start. Now, try it again with feeling. Son of a…”
“Bitch.”
“Okay, that was much better. Now let’s go for the gold. Say, Hello, Bitch.”
“Hello, Bitch.” Barb was laughing.
“Howya doin, Bitch.”
“Howya doin, Bitch.”
“Son of a bitch. You’re a real bitch, Bitch.”
Barb was laughing hard now. “Son of a bitch. You’re a real bitch, Bitch.”
Denise slapped the table triumphantly. “By George, we did it. Don’t you feel better now?”
“Absolutely.”
“And aren’t you glad that my radio name isn’t Vagina?” Hard laughter from the other end of the phone.
“Or better yet, maybe I’ll change my name to scrotum. Think of it: ‘Hello, America, don’t forget to listen to your scrotum every morning.’” Denise started to laugh herself. “Like men need any more encouragement to do that. Anyway, Barb, you’ve been a good sport. What’s on your mind?”
Barb composed herself more quickly than Denise would have expected. “Well, Bitch, I’m just not comfortable treating children the same way as adults. A child who’s a criminal can still be turned around. It’s not like an adult, where they know better and decide to commit crimes anyway.”
“So you don’t think that Nathan Bailey, at age twelve, knew that it was wrong to kill?”
“I think he knew it was wrong, sure. I just don’t think that children can put an act like that into perspective.”
“Come on, Barb, what does perspective have to do with anything? A public servant is still dead. That’s the only perspective he and his family will ever have.”
“I just don’t think it’s that simple. To try a child as a criminal requires more than just determining what the kid did. You have to look at what they thought they were doing.”
“What makes you think that little Nathan thought he was doing something other than killing?”
“What makes you think he didn’t?” Barb’s tone had a real “gotcha” edge to it.
“That’s just it, Barb. I don’t care. It really doesn’t matter, and that’s my point. The act of killing speaks for itself, as far as I’m concerned.”
The Bitch took two more calls before the first break. Neither thought that Nathan should be treated differently from any other criminal. The time had come, the callers agreed, when people had to take responsibility for their actions, whether good or bad. The courts had gone way too far in protecting the rights of the bad guys at the expense of the good guys.
Denise could not have agreed more.
Nathan sat on the edge of the big bed for twenty minutes, listening to a long string of grown-up strangers passing judgment on him.
How can they say those things? They weren’t there. They didn’t hear Ricky’s threats, or feel his hands around their throats. They didn’t know—they probably didn’t even care—that if he hadn’t killed Ricky, then Ricky would have killed him. They hadn’t seen the crazy look in his eyes, or have their brains rattled by a punch in the eye. They didn’t see the blood.
Oh, God. The blood.
The more he heard, the more he realized that the truth was becoming irrelevant. People were telling lies about him again, and he knew from experience how quickly lies can become reality in people’s minds, and how once that happens, they can do anything they want to you. No one had even heard his side of the story. All they had heard was what the police and the JDC assholes were saying about him. All they had heard were lies.
But he could change that, couldn’t he? All he had to do was pick up the telephone and call. He had the number memorized already; God knows they said it enough on the air. He could just pick up the phone and tell his side of the story, and set the record straight. Except it wouldn’t be that simple. They wouldn’t believe him. She’d make fun of him, and say terrible things to him, and he’d get upset, and the thoughts would come back to him and he’d get caught doing something stupid. He couldn’t afford to get caught.
But he couldn’t afford to let people think those things about him, either. There was no harm in just a phone call, was there? If things got bad, he could always just hang up.
The phone was a cordless one, resting on the nightstand next to the radio. Nathan picked it up, pushed the ON button, and just sat there silently for a long while, staring at the handset. Finally, the dial tone changed to a horrid screeching sound that caused Nathan to hang up quickly. Taking a deep breath, he pushed the button again, and dialed The Bitch’s 800 number. He noted the odd sound of the touch tones, which were all the same pitch. At home, he used to be able to play tunes with the tones. When he was done dialing, he brought the phone to his ear to hear an immediate busy signal.
Nathan felt relieved; the pressure was off. He had tried. Even though he had failed, trying was enough, wasn’t it?
He listened to two minutes more of the radio and decided that no, it wasn’t enough at all.
He dialed the number again. And again. And again. Each time, he got a fresh busy signal. On his ninth try, he heard some odd sounds in the handset, and had to stop himself from automatically pushing the flash and redial buttons. He had a rhythm going. Finally, the phone on the other end began to ring.
After what seemed to be a hundred rings, someone picked up on the other end. “You’ve reached the Bitch Line:’ the voice said. “What do you want to talk about?”
“I want to talk about this Nathan Bailey thing.”
“Are you a kid? The Bitch doesn’t talk to kids.”
“I think she’ll want to talk to me. I’m Nathan Bailey.”
Denise was ready to shift gears again. They had been on the Nathan Bailey topic for the better part of forty-five minutes, and they had stopped receiving original input. Once the callers currently on lines one and four were taken care of, there would be a commercial break, and then they’d move on to some tidbits on the way the president was handling foreign affairs.
Gordon, a psychiatrist from Stockdale, Arizona, was on the line, babbling psychological double-talk about how children under fifteen don’t have a strong enough system of values to make adult-level decisions regarding right and wrong. Denise smiled contentedly. When the good doctor paused to take a breath, she was going to eat him alive.
She had just opened her mouth to begin her meal when Enrique’s excited voice popped in her earphones. “You’ve got to take the caller on line six,” he said.
The look Denise fired to her producer should have melted the glass that separated them. One of the most basic, cardinal rules of talk radio was, never interrupt the host when she is talking—or about to talk.
Recognizing the look for what it was—a threat to his career—Enrique explained, “It’s a kid claiming to be Nathan Bailey. The Nathan Bailey. I think he’s telling the truth.”
Denise completely lost her train of thought for a moment. If it were true, they could be on the verge of some terrific radio. After a pause that was long enough to make some of the audience wonder if their radios were broken, Denise regained her composure and dumped the doctor from the phone line. “Thanks, Doc, but that’s about as much of that as I can handle. My kids are a hell of a lot younger than fifteen, and they have an excellent feel for what is right and what is wrong.
“Well, now, it would appear that we have a celebrity on the line, assuming that my producer is telling the truth.” She made quite a show of pushing the button numbered six. “Nathan Bailey, are you there?”
“Yes, ma’am,” said a small but strong voice from the other end. There was determination in the boy’s husky voice. For years, Denise had prided herself in her ability to recognize personality traits just from listening to people’s voices. This was the voice of a Boy Scout and Little League baseball player; the voice of someone who was honest. Denise instantly began to second-guess her conclusions about Nathan.