Indeed, several drinks…
Just as Harry had talked to his new friends in their place across the road when he was awake, so he now talked to them in his dreams; except this time the conversation was far less coherent, indeed vague, as most dreams are. But he was not so deeply asleep that he couldn't sense Ken Layard's locator mind when it swept over him (which it did, frequently), nor so far removed from the waking situation that he couldn't distinguish between the trivial gossip of the teeming dead and the occasional tidbit of real-life importance. So that when his deadspeak thoughts first picked up the new voice, he knew instinctively that this was a matter of some consequence.
Accordingly, he made inquiry:
Who are you? Were you looking for me?
Harry Keogh? the new voice came up stronger. Thank God I've found you!
Do I know you? Harry was a little cautious.
In a way, said the other. We've met. Indeed, I tried to kill you!
Now Harry recognized him, and knew why he hadn't made the connection earlier. It was simple: this was a voice he would normally associate with life — until now, anyway. It wasn't, or at least it shouldn't be, the voice of a dead man. Wellesley? he said. But… what happened?
You mean, why am I dead? Well, they put me through quite a lot, Harry. Not physical stuff, no, of course not, but lots of questioning — you know? Physical I could probably handle, but mental? The deeper they dug into me the more clearly I could see what a shit I'd been. It was all over for me. A long term to serve, no career to go back to, no real prospects. Well, it sounds hackneyed, I know, but the simple fact of it was that I was 'a ruined man'. So… I hanged myself. See, they don't offer you a gun anymore — the honourable solution, and all that rot — so I used a pair of leather bootlaces. I was half-afraid they'd snap, but they didn't.
Harry found it hard to pity him. The man was a traitor after all. So what do you want from me? he said. Would you like me to say how sorry I am? Offer you a shoulder to cry on? Hey, I have lots of friends among the dead who didn't try to kill me!
That's not why I'm here, Harry, Wellesley told him. No, for I got what I deserved. I think we all do. I came to say I'm sorry, that's all. To apologize that I wasn't stronger.
Harry gave a snort. Oh, wow! he said. Gee, Harry, I'm sorry I wasn't stronger. Hey, if I had been I would've fucking killed you!
Wellesley sighed. Well, it was worth a try. I'm sorry I bothered you. It's just that when I killed myself, I didn't know my hard times were only just beginning. He began to withdraw.
What's that? Harry held him. Your hard times? Then he saw what the other meant. The dead don't want to know you, right?
Wellesley shrugged. He was a beaten man. Something like that. But it's like I said: we get what we deserve. I'm sorry I bothered you, Harry.
No, wait… Harry had an idea. Listen, what would you say to a chance to square it with me? And with the dead in general?
Is there a way? (Sudden hope in Wellesley's voice.)
There could be. It all depends.
Just name it.
You had this negative sort of talent, right?
That's right. Nobody could see into my mind. But… as you can see, it died with me.
Harry shook his head. Maybe it didn't. You see, what we're doing now isn't the same. It isn't telepathy but deadspeak. You control it yourself. You don't have to speak to me if you don't want to. That other thing you had was uncontrollable. You didn't even know it was there. If someone hadn't noticed it — hadn't discovered that your mind was a stone wall — you still wouldn't know you'd ever had it. Am I right?
I suppose you are. But what are you getting at?
I'm not sure, said Harry. I'm not even sure if it's possible. But it would be one hell of a bonus if I had that talent of yours!
Well, obviously it would, Wellesley answered. But as you've just pointed out, it wasn't a talent. It was some kind of negative charge. It was there all the time, working on its own, without my knowledge or assistance.
Maybe so, but somewhere in your mind there's the mechanism that governed it. I'd just like to see how it works, that's all. Then, if I could sort of imitate it, learn how to switch it on and off at will…
You want to have a look inside my mind? Are you saying there's a way you can do that?
Maybe there is, said Harry, with your help. And maybe that's why no one else ever could: because you just kept them out… Now tell me, did you ever read my file?
Of course, Wellesley gave a wry chuckle. At the time I thought it was fantastic. I remember one of the espers seeing your file lying on my desk, and telling me: 'I wouldn't be caught dead speaking to that guy!'
That's not at all bad! Harry laughed. But he was serious again in a moment. And did you read about Dragosani, and how he stole Max Batu's evil eye?
That, too, Wellesley answered. But he cut it out of his heart, read it in his guts, tasted it in his blood.
Yes, he did, Harry nodded, but it doesn't have to be that way. You see, that's always been the difference between me and Dragosani's sort. It's the difference between a necromancer and a Necroscope. He would take what he wanted by force. He would torture for it. But me, I only ask.
Anything I have, I give it willingly, Wellesley told him.
Again Harry nodded. Well, that will go a long way with the dead, he said.
So how will you do it? Wellesley was eager now.
Actually, said Harry, it's you who has to do it.
Really? So tell me how.
Just let your mind go blank and invite me in, Harry answered. Just relax like I was a hypnotist putting you to sleep, and say to me: enter of your own free will.
As easily as that?
The first part, anyway, said Harry.
Very well, Wellesley was committed. So let's try it…
15. Thracians — Undead in the Med — Szgany
Later, Möbius came calling:
Harry? Listen, my boy, I'm sorry I've been so long. But those mental doors of yours were giving me real problems. However, and as you well know, the more difficult a problem is, the more surely it fascinates me. So, I've been in conference with a few friends, and between us we've decided it's a new maths.
What is? Harry was bewildered. And what friends?
The doors in your mind are sealed shut with numbers! Möbius explained. But they're written as symbols, like a sort of algebra. And what they amount to is the most complicated simultaneous equation you could possibly imagine.