I was greatly astonished at all this, but, as it was quite evident that the whole proceeding afforded the darling boy the most intense satisfaction and enjoyment, I continued my operations, sucking and softly squeezing the delightful instrument which was affording him so much pleasure. To this he responded with one or two gentle heaves and then, as if exhausted with the exertions he had made, his body sank down on the sofa motionless.
I was so surprised and bewildered by what had taken place that I remained in the same position, still retaining my hold of the now motionless prisoner, but in the course of another minute or two, I was still more astonished by finding that the hitherto stiff and rigid member which I had been so fondly caressing entirely lost its firmness, and slipped out of my mouth quite soft and flexible, sinking down upon his belly, shrivelled up almost to nothing. I was anxious to know what it was I had felt issue from it into my mouth, and on applying my handkerchief I found a small quantity of a thick white glutinous liquid, and on looking attentively, I discovered a little of the same stuff, still issuing from the funny little orifice at the very point of the curious object I had been playing with.
I looked up to Harry's face to enquire what was the meaning of all t-his, when I found him lying with his eyes shut, evidently in a perfect trance of voluptuous delight. I had not the heart to disturb him, but, throwing my arms round his neck and fondly embracing him, I waited patiently till he should come to himself again.
When he did so, he warmly returned my caresses, thanking me in the most earnest terms for all the pleasure I had given him, which he declared it was utterly impossible for him to describe to me so as to give me any correct idea of its nature. To my enquiries as to what was the meaning of all that had occurred, he replied that he was as ignorant as I was, and that the whole affair had taken him as much by surprise as it had done me. All he could say was that it was the most delicious enjoyment he had ever experienced, and that he could never have imagined anything comparable to it.
He was greatly surprised when I told what had issued from the little plaything, and would hardly believe me until we again examined it, and by squeezing it, made it yield up the last remains of the curious liquid. He said he had been sensible towards the end of a fiery sensation darting through him, affording him the most intense delight, but what it was, or how it was occasioned, he could not understand.
The suddenly relaxed state of the little object itself was also equally inexplicable to us, but he said that all the fiery heat and burning excitement which he had previously felt had now left him. Altogether we were greatly puzzled with the adventure, but we had not a long time to discuss it, for I heard my aunt's voice and was obliged to leave him for fear of discovery.
Whether my aunt suspected that I had been in any way privy to Harry's daring intrusion upon the sanctity of our bathing place, I cannot tell. She never alluded to the subject to me. Though we continued as usual after this to take our daily bath, she never after this indulged in any of her former frolics with me.
The time for Harry returning to school arrived a day or two after this adventure, and previous to his departure we had no opportunity of seeing each other except in the presence of other parties. Since that memorable occasion we have only met by accident once or twice, when it was impossible for us to have any private intercourse. We have, however, contrived occasionally to keep up a correspondence by letter, and though his expressions are necessarily very guarded I have reason to believe that he is still as fond of me as ever. You know well how ardently I love him, and how much I long for an opportunity of meeting him that we may again indulge in all our old sports and pastimes, and put in practice all those still greater and higher enjoyments which you have described to me, and in which I have no doubt he is by this time as well instructed as I am, and for which, doubtless, he longs as much as I do. All I shall say is that although I shall not give him any ground to despise me for being too forward, he shall not meet with any opposition from me in doing anything he may wish.
I ought to mention that I have never again had an opportunity of witnessing any of my aunt's frolics since poor Harry's sad adventure, which terminated so pleasingly. He had obtained a promise from Lady Lovesport that the next time he returned from school he should be put into the third apartment, which communicated with the storeroom, and he had made me give him the key that he might get a similar one for his door, in order that he might be able to communicate with me in this way whenever anything interesting was going on. But as we have never since then been at my aunt's at the same time, we have not had an opportunity of making use of the key together, and though he has offered to send mine back to me, I have had no wish to employ it again unless he were to be present with me.
Ever yours, Emily
PS. Joy! Joy.' Congratulate me, Lucy. I am so delighted. Harry is coming here in the course of two or three days, and I to-day heard my aunt giving orders that the apartment communicating with mine should be prepared for him, so you may guess all the pleasure I anticipate. You need not expect to hear from me for some days, but if things only turn out as I hope and expect, you shall not be long of receiving the good news.
Letter IV. Emily to Lucy
Oh, Lucy, Lucy! How can I ever describe to you all the pleasure I have enjoyed, pleasures a thousand times exceeding in their rapture and delight all that my fancy had ever previously imagined of unbridled enjoyment, pleasures to which even the transports I have enjoyed in your arms seem weak and trifling- in fact, mere child's play. But were I to attempt to describe my own sensations, I might fill a hundred pages without being able to give you a faint idea of them, and I must content myself with trying to bring before you some details of the events which have taken place, leaving it to yourself to imagine all the bliss I must have enjoyed.
I told you in my last letter that dear Harry was expected. Well, he arrived two days afterwards, and has been here ever since, till this morning, when he was obliged to leave us to pay a visit to one of his relations. Oh, how much he is changed since the time when we last played together two long years ago, and yet he is still the same old kind, dear delicious Harry he then was, as fond of me as ever, and as anxious to do everything in his power-and that is not a little, I can assure you-to make me happy. He has grown considerably, and though still only a boy of fifteen, he has a great deal of the look of a man, and I can tell you from experience that he has some manly attributes which I suspect many of his maturer brethren cannot pretend to rival him in. To me he is just the same as he ever was, and absence has not affected his warm attachment to me any more than it has done mine for him. I have been greatly struck, however, with the change in his manners towards my aunt. She is evidently very fond of him. But instead of the bold saucy deportment he used to have with her, he is now respectful and submissive, and seems desirous to do all he can to please her and to meet her wishes. I don't mean, however, to say that I am at all jealous of her, or that I have any reason to be displeased with her conduct towards either of us, as you will discover in the sequel.
The first two or three days, though very happy ones, were passed quietly without any remarkable event. Harry and I never had an opportunity, though we both sought for it, of finding ourselves alone; but nevertheless we soon managed to make each other fully understand that our mutual feelings were quite unchanged, and that a favourable opportunity alone was wanting to enable us to promote to the utmost of our abilities the gratification of our respective passions and desires. I caught him constantly gazing at me with looks of the most evident admiration, while for my part I could scarcely keep my eyes off him, or attend to anything else but what he said and did. All this time my aunt was very quiet and took very little notice of us, though I could not help thinking that she was closely observing us, and that it was not without some object that she always contrived we should not be left alone for an instant. I ought to mention that in consequence of some repairs having been found to be required in the room which it was intended Harry should have occupied, he had been put into another, in a different part of the house.